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Aite, this is gonna be my last blog before i head to da west.....too much to do from now til i leave....got csf and automata exams.....and still needa pack and move my stuff (including diz comp and my baby elec. guitar)......dang, i miss it already...haha....

HEhe....the one day road trip to Virginia and DC........was cool....eventhough Ron and I didn't get as lost as we expected.......haha.....f*kin pickupizms man.......no more of that shit next year...i'll be rollin on ma own auto........hahah....was tite tho.....stocking up on chips, mocha candies, water, and a whole pile of CD's......hehe......change the CD f*cka....

If theres a movie that needs to be seen......I'd make it the new summer block buster 'Minority Report'........shit, itz good.....i still go around sayin 'I haven't been entertained for a straight 2 and a half hours for soooooo long'.......nearly every aspect of the film is perfect that way it is......a plot that twists and brings you all over the place.......damn cool prediction of year 2057.......hahaha....so controversial too ^^//......all those gadgets and BME shitz.....haha...shit......and of course, directed very well......i'm not a steven spielberg fan.......but he's really proven to me in this film that he still knows how to hit the audiences' sweet spot.......i say again.....If theres a movie to be seen so far in this summer....make this the one!!

Got a really neat comp case from colorcases.com last week......with a blue plasma light inside it and all that......its gonna be real neat......also got parts to upgrade my comp.....more memory.....a bigger harddrive for my daily expanding MP3 list (its around 2300 mp3's as of now)......and also the platinum Audigy Sound Blaster card.....hehe...gotta listen to my music with the quality you know??......hopefully i'll have the time to upgrade it before i leave....especially with all the work in the way and stuff.....

Was talkin to volcom 3 a lil while ago......hahah....and i promised him that I'd kinda skim on my life transition thingys throughout my life....i actually don't really like talkin about my past on da blog...seems so boring and not interesting to read....but whateva....
So yeah, I was a friggin geek back then....pretty much all the way uptil grade 8......my life revolved around computer games and video games...that was all i did then.....i would goto skool during the day...come home and play games and do all that geek shit on my comp.....i'd fiddle around with the comp memory (back then you had to reorganize your memory to play certain games on MS-Dos).....basically, games was all i worried about...all that i thought about and talked about with friends....hahah...

Then, at some point....i somehow got suckered into sports...mostly basketball.....uptil now, i still don't understand why i liked it then...but i just did....and i played it day in day out....always after skool.....maybe it was cuz all the big guyz at my skool played it....and I'd watch in amazement while they played......so yeah, upto now...i'm still pretty proud I made it to captain of the team before I left to boarding skool (it was respect man!!..hahaha).......i turned from a complete gaming freak into a jock.....i still played video games a lot...but it wasn't to the point that i had nuthin else in mind..........it was the basketball i suppose, that kinda lead me to play other sports too....it all just rolled in together, i played everything....badminton, volleyball, athletics, blah blah....

It was til i left for boarding skool...for grade 11...that i changed again.....maybe cuz i just felt then that sports was not going to be the thing that would put me into a good college (a lot of other things too...but that would take another entry to talk about..i'll do that some other time).....i pretty much put a stop to most of the sports i played......haha....and to the amazement to a lotta those that knew me from before.....i started working!!....hahah...i was obsessed with doing well and getting into a good college....i did my h/w right after class...and aimed to finish most of it before study hall everynite (if i remember its 8pm - 10pm...its basically, during that time..you hafta stay in your room and study..stupid prep skoool stuff)......i was such a nerd towards the end of highskool......the only time to let out was when i came back every summer and christmas...going out to do random stuff at nite...hehe.....it was, however, at boarding skool....that i learned many important things....one of those is to appreciate everything in this world (only an int'l skool kid would see the difference if they had to leave to a boardin skool like mine...argh..)....and another is Music.....i had music on in my room basically 24 hours a day.....it was like as if i was a constant never ending DJ.....i'd play CD over CD while i did whateva i did in the room......trance and japanese rock were probably the first two things that i got absorbed into first......i liked techno a lot cuz it was all digital and stuff.......i liked trance with no vocals (opposed to i love vocals now)........and japanese rock was just cool...dunno y..haha...........One of the most amazing things is that i actually hated music as a kid (opposed to being totally in love with it now)......all throughout the geek and jock life....i never paid much attention to music...i always thought that music just wasn't my thing....i thought i was a sporty kid or something......anything musical was not important to me....
So I finally got to JHU through hard work in prep skool.....having to come here with the mind set of 'party party party'......i got ass raped by the skool......i got blown down mentally....I pushed myself to somehow stick with the crazy BME stuff........throughout my two years here so far....i guess I've finally found my balance..........sports, design, skool, music, computers, games (ok, less games), family, friends and just life in general.....i've kinda pulled everything together into this weird pretty boy guy that likes and appreciates everything around me......haha...i appear to be nothin i really am.....i don't smoke....i don't goto a shitty uni...i work...i love music....i like to particpate in intellectual discussions.......(and everything i don't look as if i am).....Its as if i've tied up every phase of my childhood to become what i am rite now......
I'm tired...i wanna stop...too many details....it'll take pages and pages to fill in...

HEhe....Music of the Ramble.....I suppose these two songs started it all for me.......~~~ Children - Robert Miles (trance) ~~~ I For You - Luna Sea (jap rock) ~~~~....uptil this day....i still love these two songs......won't ever get sick of them.....

i'm an hour late to csf...think i better bounce..

oh and also......BK at the JH Stadium...hehehe...so movie like.....and the chill drive....nice..

Airik bounced.

Its the perfect time to blog right now. Todays classes are over...well, not technically....but it is for me ^^
Ron is asleep, everybody else in the suite is either sleeping or at class, i just got my midterm back (hehe...i'd prob be up here either if i did good/bad)....but if you know me, i guess it wouldn't be hard to tell how i did from the way i blog rite now...........lesson learned: prove what you can say, don't say what you can't prove.

Anywayz, back to the perfect time to blog rite now....yeah...i was reading some other ppls blogs just now...and somehow got inspired to come up and waste a lil time of my own too.......i have a good couple ideas in mind.......but i'm not quite sure which one to start with first....cuz usually, by the time i finish blogging about one point i'll have forgotten all the others i wanted to talk about.....its frustrating too....discourages me to continue to blog cuz I've forgotten what I've wanted to blog about..and its the 'thing' i want to blog about...nuthin else...

Ok, stupid point made already.....and now to some random rambles.....hehe....lemme start with the 'crazy talk'.........i actually really like that phrase......i can still hear ron bitchin 'crazy talk airik...crazy talk' next to me rite now as i blog........i gotta admit its crazy tho........hahah...krazy airik...i actually like it.......Ok, so as i always do...lemme explain 'crazy talk'.....the logic behind it.........This is how it works:

Things happenning around me triggers thoughts......and thoughts triggers other thoughts.....and this goes on like letz say for example, the alphabet......so I think of thought A...which leads to thought B...which leads to thought C...and etc....
The thing is....letz say i have a string of thoughts A to F........by the time i get to thought F...and i see a connection between thought A and thought F......i start explaining that connection i see, hence the 'crazy talk'.......I would explain the connection from thought A to thought F through B,C,D,E......but i would forget C,D by the time i get to thought B....I would try backtrack my thoughts from thought F, but will have forgotten thought B by the time i backtrack from thought F to C........if i ever do explain the whole sequence from thought A to thought F through B,C,D,E....i would've forgotten the direct connection between thought A and F......hence, the crazy talk....cuz theres either no point to any of my explaination if i dun't explain all the connections correctly between the logic........

Ok...theres more to this crazy talk logic...but i'm startin to feel i should just keep it as that.....i'm crazy talkin already.....sounds like some automata shit anywayz...but yeah, crazy talk is good.....its so crazy its always a good laugh....

Hmmmm..how about the song of the Ramble??....Everyone of you know of this one already....but its just sooooo musically delicious that I feel that I should blog about it anywayz....just to make sure the one or two kids that haven't heard it yet, now know about it.......i consider this commericalized pop music at its best ~~~~ Stan - Eminem feat. Elton John (Grammy Award Performance) ~~~.......i got the video...so ask me for it....its damn cool...........

Aite...i'm bored now...gtg
Erik.

gay..i spilt water over my cordless keyboard...and now its gone krazy too..

I told myself at the end of my previous blog entry that I will continue with the rambles of mine that I did not get to blog about last time......but 3 days later ( basically, now)....i dunt feel the urge or I've lost my inspiration to write about what I was going to write about then nemore....Its as if, that stuff is past me already...its old.....i've grown...time has gone by....its a new day to a new start......I'm not bothered to back track my thoughts (its hard...my mind jumps, skips and hops around)....Backtracking my thoughts usually opens up more ideas and values.....it stops me from getting back to my main destination thoughts cuz i hate having to leave open questions unanswered or not explored....

Without much further ado, let me first let out the song of the ramble....I was watching diz song on MTV last week, the video wasn't spectacular, but the song is damn good....the only way i can describe it is that its really really 'relaxed'.....any of you girlz and boyz that like trip-hop or downtempo must chek it out ~~~ Destiny- Zero 7 ~~~~

DAng it....needa go mall w/Ron...aite...will b back....especially since CSF and Automata midterms were over today.

<-AIRIK

Oh And Yeah, the stupid rain drenched me again yesterday....someday it'll pay...someday....."what goes around comes around" (hehe...this is the only exception when i'd use this phrase...its too cliche these dayz..)

'Go blog!' I tell myself.

In my mind, I believe todays entry will be the first one I actually feel I have the responsibility to write. Maybe also the first blog I'll write that will be in complete sentences too ^^. Seems like so much has happenned so far during diz summer session. Without any doubt, of course, 'Starscape' has surely been one of the biggest pivots of the summer so far. The Baltimore, Maryland massive rave that ties up loose ends, gives the strawberry-banana (or pineapple) smoothie another good blend, or just a time when I find myself once again reflecting upon my deadness. ~~~~~~~~ Lost.... ~~~

Ok, regroup. Maybe I should try again. Got completely lost inside my own thoughts in my last paragraph and can't be bothered to go back and get it right. Anyhow, I don't feel like going into how I get lost in my own thoughts and etc... so let me continue with my so called 'should write' blog entry that I want to try put into words:

The first thing that comes to my mind is friends. Most of you by now will probably think that I'm getting into all this right now because of the consequences of starscape, but let me tell you all that you're wrong. I don't come up with random thoughts over night. They are born, they grow and I tell them when they are matured. Its simply impossible for me to show and prove what I want everyday and every minute. I live my life not a step at a time, but by as far as i possibly can. Things come and go, yes, its not up to us to decide upon things that we do not have control over. But what about things that you've never thought would happen? Every second we live, every mile we travel is decided upon our own hands. I finally realize for the first time, that everytime you say 'life sucks' or 'i'm bored', its actually only a consequence of your own. We make our own lives. It would be wrong for me to push you all to stop whining and complaining, but those mental states do not belong to my language anymore. To come and think about it, I have not been bored and I have not hated my life since everlong (hehe). If you enjoy spending your free time watching MTV or ESPN (BET?!) with your friends all day, go for it.
Nothing can stop me from doing what i want to. No excuses allowed. Even if i was blind, deaf or lost an arm. If I am determined to buy myself a pair of shoes that cost $18,500, I will figure it out whether it means finding extra work aside from my normal work. Only the worthless bunch sit and moan about the what ifs. Anything must be possible.
I'm a D.I.Y freak, i won't say its a quality but it helps me understand what I want and what makes me happy. I do what i want to do, I ask about what needs to be answered.

Ha, the times at Bradford. Through storms; AK's; BB bullets; the rain; the RA; Wings; beers; shots; george?; and an endless combination of emotions, venues and events it finally wraps up into a huge garbage bag that should have been thrown out daily. It doesn't even feel rite for me to blog about it, its a 3 (or maybe 4?) player game. It would be wrong for me to define the rules alone.

For the musically restless me, also a photograph hater, lets all imagine a set where 6 kids sit by a wooden dock in front of a lake. You can hear the sound of waves crashing gently into the cool breeze played by the wind. The sun has just risen, it blends in perfect with the golden blue sky and metallic colored water. They sit not aligned, but with their bodies in which ever position comfortable. I don't remember every tune they sung with their dry and probably sour voices. But like that mattered a single bit.
**a new song is traveling through my brain, anybody that can come up with a drawn pic would be awesome!**

And finally, to end this 'I wasn't even able to blog about an eighth of the things i wanted to blog about' entry, its time for the song of the ramble. ~~~~ Your tune - (You) ~~~~ HAha, I can't see how any one tune would be able to respresent what I wanted to say throughout this entry. I'm going to leave it up to you all to tune into this song. It can be anything. Your favourite tune? The melody stuck in your head for the past week? The song you thought about while reading this entry? Absolutely anything that suits you.

Erik.
4 da froggie teacher: "Those that are not growing are dead." So grow with me.

- oh yeah, ron is here.haha.

Been drenched in the rain 3 times for the past month...I'm seriously beginning to wonder whether is it because its jealous that I'm totally in love with the sun. I suspect this cuz everytime when I get soaked in the rain it stops when I finally get indoors. I seriously get the feeling that the rain starts pouring just to piss me off and its not just some stupid kid doing the rain dance^^....I mean, why is the rain so stupid?? Its just giving me a reason to hate the it and like the sun even more.

Changing rooms next year.....from 1207 to 1715 at Hopkins House....gay...i actually want an executive more than a one bedroom....however glad that the view will be nicer tho.....high up 17th liting it....

I'm beginning to hate my blog....its stupid...immature and boring to write......I think its about time to give it a change......change the way i write...change the stuff i write about....and just generally turn it upside down...haha.....i'll seriously consider that when i have a lil more time....
Too much to get done these dayz...with automata and CSF h/w botherin my ass.....all these errands to do......oh yeah, not to mention my stupid research too!!....damn u prof and partner....both of you have made my spring semester worse!! (dunt interfere with the summer ok!!).....i absolutely hate ppl who shit me around when i treat them with mad respect....

Song of the Ramble....a lotta songs i want to put up these dayz.....especially cuz i've been buying a lotta CD's..but this one caught my ear just 30mins ago...~~~ Artful Dodger - We Should Get Together feat. Nadia ~~~....its a bouncy cheerful tune...i like.....

i'm out man..i've enough.
"I want to meet a slim cute funky girl that can rock on the guitar"

Finally done drafting ma 1st Guitar song. Might still make changes to it...i want to add a twsit to it (maybe a dnb or rnb beat? scratching?)....its 'slow rock' rite now..i want to modern it up a lil, its too old skool....but I'd expect diz to be mostly the tune tho...its not good.....but then again, can't expect a kid like me to produce anything other than shit...(otherwise i wouldn't be here....i'd be livin large =)....gettin the royalty)

Drop D tuning

Your Room - Airik

Every scent goes a long way
-A-------------------------Dm
--I still remember
A--------Dm--------------------------
the bedsheets our skin wrapped away
-----A--------------------E------------------D--------Dm

The Lights are darkening
-A------------------Dm
Shady Shadows a candle is flickering
A--------------------------Dm----------E
Pushing pullin' away...oh yeah!
--Dm----------------F------------Fm

I know I'm not dreaming
-A------------------Dm
I know I'm awake
-A------------Dm
I know I'm not dreaming
-A------------------Dm
I don't need to explain
-A------------------E

Staring at those frames
-A------------------Dm
they give me pain
-A--------------Dm
Every word, every single wall
-A--------------------------------Dm
Engraved into my song
-A-----------------------E

I know I'm not dreaming
-A------------------Dm
I know I'm awake
-A------------Dm
I know I'm not dreaming
-A------------------Dm
I don't need to explain
-A------------------E-----------Em

Solo: Am E Dm G Dm G Am E

Those eyes white
-A--------------Dm
Those eyes dry
-A--------------E
Too much crack and cocaine
-A----------------------------Dm
lets sit around til the morning
-A----------------------------Dm
I Persist to stay and lie
A--------------Dm---------E


Ashtrays of funk and punk so bright
-A---------------------------------------Dm
Seems like the room is spinnin around all night
A---------------------E----------------------------------Fm
Every word, every single wall
-A-------------------------------Dm
Engraved into my song
-A-----------------------E

I know I'm not dreaming
I know I'm awake
I know I'm not dreaming
I don't need to explain

I know I'm not dreaming
I know I'm awake
I know I'm not dreaming
I don't need to explain cause you know me oh yeah..
A-------------------E-------------------------F-----------------Fm

cause you know me yeah..
-A---------------------------Dm
cause you know me yeah..
-A---------------------------Dm
cause you know me oh......yeah!
-A----------------------------F-------E

Bak.

Feels like its been a long long time since i've blogged about stuff going on in my life. All the way back since my signals exam (Yey! Did better than expected!! ^^ kyokyo)...actually all my grades have been better than expected.....weird....i haven't worked as hard last semester, but i've somehow done better grade-wise.....weirdweird...less stress about work maybe.....i'm more chill about it now.....i'm getting that JH groove,,,,

Ok....lets rewind all the way back.....yep, all the way bak when i left to NYC for bro's graduation at NYU.....dang man, at radio city....nicenice hall for graduation....hehe...eventho i slept through half the commencment, it was cool....its funny to see how all stern grads were Azn, Indian or Jews.....hehehe.....
argh...can't believe it'll be my turn sooooo soon........i'm halfway through college...dang...

Ate rilly rilly well while I was with my parents at NYC and Baltimore.....i'm talking about steak, italian, chinese or blah blah at any restaurant i wanted....haha...my parents spoil me like krazy......
Yep.....i've also finally gotten myself a place to live next year.......my parents seriously made it look so easy.....they just walked into the housing counter with me...and automatically got me a place.......Room 1207....yep.......can't wait til i have my own apt....my own car next year.....can't wait can't wait....i'm nearly set....i'm sooo close....hahaha....brotherhood yo T.T

Been chillin big time since parents left......just gettin stuff together...going to work....driving the pickup....hehe....through the shithole ghettos to Arundel with TM.....finally had time to catch up with the movies too.....i was averagin 3 movies a day at some point (y do ppl think i'm bored when i tell them that? i love movies...).....
Also made a trip to Upenn.....was good....chill....hahaha......gettin in touch with the real world.....the real business world out there....haha.......JK and JT......yeah, it was cool.....and of course philly's china town man!!......sooo jealous......

Summer Skools started for a week....MonWedFri...9am - 2:30pm.....its alrite....its long....but i get a day off in between....so itz all good...

Song of the Ramble ~~~ Foo Fighters - Everlong (acoustic version) ~~~ eventho i've got a lot to say...i'm not in the mood to talk about music these dayz...maybe next time..

Still not in the mood to blog really....left a lotta info out...but whateva.....as i always say..."its my blog, i can do anything i feel like doing with it"

- Erik
"Fantasy is what we want, Reality is what we need"

Still not in the mood to blog eventho a lot has happenned. Yep, I do what i want to do...do what i feel like doing...so peace to you all!!

Its been a long time since i've posted musik on.....~~~ We are all made of Stars - Moby ~~~....seriously like this one....its not because i'm 19 now or nething =)

Still not in the mood to blog about stuff yet. But heres a damn accurate baby name site (haha...so girly).....i copy and pasted my names....they're f*ckin tru....f*ckin true....http://www.kabalarians.com/


Erik
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The name of Erik creates an overly-sensitive nature which causes you to sense and feel far more than you can understand or put into words. You have a deep, artistic, and creative side which shows through a love for music and literature. Writing is a more natural mode of expression for your deeper thoughts and feelings than the spoken word. You have an ability to concentrate and work intently on anything which holds your interest. However, you prefer to avoid routine, monotony, and mental tasks. You enjoy the out-of-doors and find your greatest peace and relaxation from the beauty and harmony of nature. You prefer to limit your friendships and associations to those who share your interests and appreciate your quiet, refined ways. Others often find it difficult to understand you. Your feelings tend to build up within you and, if you cannot release them through a creative, constructive channel, you could suffer with frustration, moods, and much inner turmoil. This name causes tension in the region of the solar plexus, as well as the heart and lungs. Health problems would centre in those areas of the body.

Airik
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Airik as a first name gives you a very independent nature, yet you are friendly, approachable, and generous. You can be a spontaneous, expressive, and talkative person. Generally you are good-natured, though at times you can be rather blunt and sarcastic. This name incorporates creative, artistic, and musical abilities, and there would be an element of originality in all that you do. You like to do things on the spur of the moment without planning or prior arrangements. Your spirits are buoyed up greatly by encouragement and appreciation. There is a tendency to be scattering in your efforts and you prefer to avoid menial jobs of a routine and repetitive nature. You are inclined to pursue good times and emotional indulgences to excess. Weaknesses in health due to the influence of this name centre in the head. You could experience headaches, or difficulties with your teeth, ears, eyes, or sinuses. Disorders related to the liver, which would be aggravated by rich foods, could also arise.


And also, my song, i've kinda got the tune worked out....will post tabs when done.
Out.

Just came upto post ma lyrics =)
So much happenned in the past week...but not bothered to blog now....for now, everybody chek da lyrics out and let me know what you think.


Your Room - Airik

Every scent goes a long way
I still remember the bedsheets our skin wrapped away

The Lights are darkening
Shady Shadows a candle is flickering
Pushing pullin' away

Staring at those frames
they give me pain

I know I'm not dreaming
I know I'm awake
I know I'm not dreaming
I don't need to explain

Too much crack and cocaine
i can sit around til the morning
Those eyes white
Those eyes dry
Persist to stay and lie

Ashtrays of funk and punk so bright
Seems like the room is spinnin around all night
Every single word, every damn wall
Engraved into my song

I know I'm not dreaming
I know I'm awake
I know I'm not dreaming
I don't need to explain

I know I'm not dreaming
I know I'm awake
I know I'm not dreaming
I don't need to explain cause you know me yeah..

cause you know me yeah..
cause you know me yeah..
cause you know me oh yeah!

...i'm still alive...

- Erik

UPDATE! MA New Cell/Mobile/PHS # is (443)858-5854

More and more ppl starting to blog these dayz....haha...mines not going to be special no more =(
I dunt really believe in that 'copying other ppl' shit tho...especially for minor things like blogging (hey, we all hafta somehow do the same stuff sometime, somewhere)........i mean, unless somebody just completely copies everything you do and got no personality of his own, then i'd have prbs wuth it.........as i always emphasize....'be yourself'......do what you want....think what you want......that is rule no.3 (why 3??.....dunno).......
HAha....i hate reading other ppls long blogs.....unless its mine, i can't follow it for too long....gets boring and somehow repetitive to me...

I need to LEAVE!!.....argh....seriously must leave jhu......i'm gettin sick....i need a break.....i need a change.....glad to know that i won't be here all summer.....hopefully UCLA will be different.......i look forward to different people (YES! I DO COMPLETELY!!!).....a different campus and all........

~~~ Nicholas Tse - Without Me (shitty english) ~~~ Somehow i'm absorbed into this 'not so well' sang song......dunno why.....i think the reason is becuz its the type of song i'm thinking about writing.....yeah.....i'm presuming i can produce something of this quality......i'll put up ma lyrics as soon as i write any...i will need feedback anywayz...

Still looking for housing next year....hopefully i'll get a place at HH.....i want an executive.......so i can hook ma speakers, amp, keyboard, guitar, technics and comp all together without having to walk in and out of the bedroom..........hahah....i'm already thinking about getting a drum machine......but i really shouldn't.....that'd be way too much for a college boy........and of course, the balcony!!.....i love balconies.....i absolutely love views....love being high up.....chillin at the balcony is something i have mad appreciation for.....its way better than looking out the window.....

some things need to be said......some things dunt yet...or maybe not even at all.......i think i'm goin to decide not to....

3 exams down........2 more to go........Luck Airik...
Aite...delivery is here now. peace (yes! peace! dunt like it?!)

Can't wait til exams are over......its dragging....argh.....a couple more dayz left and it'll be all over.......sooooooo pleased to get a break before summer skool.....need to slow down and regain some of that peacefulness....

Seriously in the mood to write a song these dayz.......gonna start with some lyrics when tis exam stuff is over.....lyrics seem to be the most problematic at the moment......hard to write about something that isn't too abstract, yet makes sense......i alway end up with something corny too......hopefully, i'll still feel that urge when exams are over........i want to write a whole song on ma own....something prob on the guitar and drums...

Can't believe......can't believe......the closest of ppl can act so selfish.........why is it so hard for ppl to believe in each other....trust one another.......and most importantly, be honest...........honesty can seem so direct, so not caring, or maybe even demanding........but at least it doesn't create more misunderstanding, more confusion.........i'm so glad i've finally stepped out to look at my surroundings once again.......i see immaturity....shit behind words.....disgust....boundaries that i neva thought would exist........i hope i dunt run into many more useless ppl in my life no more.......its so sad.....i feel sorry for our creation........people with such worthless, selfminded priorities.....man....i'm young...but i'm growing by day........stay if you want...but i'm gonna pass.......i'm running a step beyond, i see less respect and no more direction from y'all.....

Everyone of us has our own story......our own shit....our own objectives.....is it not possible for us to take a lil time away from our own sorry ass and check somebody elses story out??.....maybe if we did, we might finally see some more insight and meaning in our own.....learn from their mistakes instead of only from our own.....stop thinking about and for yourself....you dunt need to protect yourself...if you show understanding and kindred....they will too..........respect.....understanding....get it rite y'all....get it rite....know your role..

Sooooo many songs in mind.....i'm starting to get the feeling that there are songs i thought i've already put up but neva did......oh well....i needa try stick to one at a time.....what if i run out rite??! (Airik: ..........).....~~~ Liu Hong Hua - Gan ma (mandarin) ~~~.......this song reminds of KTV at taiwan........hehe...i should try make another trip there sometime.......was cool..........haha.....da bitch i sleep with....always on the smallest beds you can find too........sigh.....i want those meatballs....and 'ai yu bing' (lime jelly with ice).....

Sorry dude (hehe..no names)....nuthin personal k?....for only those that know....hahah......gonna hafta spit this one out ........hehe....did anybody say i had somebody on their knees yesterday at the AC??.......haha....... dang, doubt i've ever given anybody that typa spank before.........i was just feelin da bounce yesterday....swooping left...swishing right....

Erik.
"I'm your type. I kno it"....hehe......too much usher during studying.......oh, and T.T.P?~!

at the lab rite now.....gettin my last data struct program together to hand-in.....or should i say, i'm waitin for the program to come together?!!.....

i'm bored.......i want to ramble about something so that i make use of ma time.......hmmm....letz start wuth da song of the ramble?!....its good i always post a song everytime i come on.....usually helps trigger my other thoughts..... i mentioned last time i've been listenning to hybrid while i study these dayz, so i'll keep ma word and put some of their stuff on.......
i actually wanted to post some of their less popular stuff that i like....but i realized there are a lotta peepz out there that dunt even recognize them....so i'll just stick to their best stuff..~~~ Hybrid - Finished Symphony ~~~.......This song pretty much ties up hybrid's style....,damn nice break beats (the exact type of beats dat keep my heart thumpin everydya).....,the perfect manipulation of strings like nobody has ever done (these guyz seriously make those strings sound like an orchestra).....and lastly, a chill mellow trance melody.......except for that this track doesn't have vocals...its the perfect example of Hybrid work.......the progression of the song is also done extremely well too (yep, it peaks)......a good song to end a party i'd say...

Been playing ball a lil more these dayz....eventhough can't shoot for shit (its geting worse day by day too!!)....but yeah, nuthin else to do i guess.........its either eat, sleep, study, playoffs or ball.......exam period has been significantly more chill than it was last semester....hehe...i was smart this time, i made sure i had a spacious exam schedule...i learned my lesson last semester.......
rite now, i basically still got my soc, signals and data exam left.....should be bearable.......haha....i can't stop emphasizing how much more chill i've become over the semster.......i'm so relaxed rite now......while last semster was pure lib time for me....didn't even think about bloggin

MY CAR!!!.....argh.....i seriously can't wait til it happens (pray that it does!)....that day when i can finally walk up to pisan and say "hey, lets go out for drive...and chill...."........kyokyo =)
Haha....its weird though........cuz chances are i prob won't drive as much as i think i will when i finally get my car......its just knowing you have that freedom of going anywhere you want that makes it chill.....hopefully, i'll have something over the summer....it'll seriously make it so much more enjoyable......
its important to also note that i'll appreciate whateva my parents give me tho.....i'm no 2nd generation mutha fucka who can't give da shit about my parents and their wealth.....yep, i'd honestly be just as happy if they got me a bicycle??.....haha.....no, seriously.....ma dad works his life for my puny ass....and works even harder for my luxurys....hahah...anyhow, yeah, i spit the truth...enuff of that wannabe good son shitz....=P

I'm hungry....i'm goin to get over wuth my work...and head for my ration..

AIRIK.

- http://www.gatecrasher.co.uk/connected/events/summer/220602/ - diz iz da shite....every damn DJ is gonna be there...

Another study break.....yeah..daz pretty much my weekend.....either studying or watching the playoffs...hehe...anybody mention entertainment fees for watchin the game?!....mo mood..haha....

Been listennin to a lotta different stuff lately.....mainly due to the fact that i've been studying a lot more....so yeah, was listennin to a lotta hiphop stuff lately......but kinda changed today, mainly cuz the beatz and lyrics were starting to get into the way of my concentration.....so took out some less vocal oriented stuff....digweed....hybrid.......was thinking about putting up some of that hybrid stuff up...but i'll prob save that for ma next blog when i'm certain which song of theirs i wanna blog about......rite now, everybody enjoy diz one first...~~~ Chicane - Halycon ~~~....its been a while since i've put up anything more trancy.....so i thought diz one would be perfect...its chill...not repetitive for trance dislikes....not hardcore......yeah...i got this one on 12"...i like it....
gotta stick to my music roots you kno......electronic music...or should i say, mainly 'trance', got me into this whole music thing in the first place...

Ma new colors for the summer...hehe.....pink&white.....gold&white......yep........it'll look cool......can't wait to get those pink adidas superstar cell's.....pink polo.....and also pink shades.....can't think of any gold colored items yet tho..........
its weird how ppl tell me that i'm the 'only' guy that'd choose those colors......and somehow look normal wearing that stuff........haha...maybe cuz i like to look different....i think its damn cool to wear girly colored stuff, and still look masculine in it.......then again, its ma style....doubt the other guyz will agree....

dang, i'm outta rambles.....i had sooooooo many when i was working at my desk just now....wtf......i'm gonna stay tho...hahah....one more ramble at least.......

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@ the lib.......taking a study break........caffeinne wearing off maybe??

so much to blog......yet again, so much i won't remember to...

Been listenning to probably considered my fav hiphop CD...~~~ Guru's Jazzmatazz Street Soul ~~~...its damn damn good......i especially like the lyrics and the theme of the songs....i can't even pick and recommend one of them, cuz it wouldn't do the other songs justice......seriously, its worth every dollar spent.......if you're gonna own one Hiphop CD, make this the one......it features craig david, the roots, macy gray, angie stone, blah blah.........its chill...its a mixture of r'n'b, hiphop and has a little jazzy tingle to it....

Once again, retracing those D.I.Y shitz of mine again.....haha....i'm planning to make my own poster (i mean seriously goin to have it print and stuff)....its gonna be phat....i've got the ideas and all that in my mind already...just need to spend time on it....hehe....the 'airik' icon.......kinda dunt want to give it away to peepz who dunno about it yet....but yeah, its keeping me going....something i'll be workin on over the summer??.....it'll be cool to be able to look back at it when i'm older...and be able to say i made it when i was in college.....
yes...and all my other D.I.Y things....the t-shirt (i know how it should look already, anybody know where i can get plain white designer t-shirts?).....and my own album....*phew*....too much i want to do..too lil time to....

I was talking to somebody (i forgot who..haha) about my blog recently.......issues about letting "everybody" read about my feelings and wat goes on in my mind........well yeah.......at least at that moment, i thought it was important to address......from comments i've gotten from others, i've been getting the feeling most ppl believe that deeper feelings should be kept either to themselves or only with closer friends......its weird, cuz somehow, i'm getting influenced about it....at one point, i thought to myself about whether i should make it into my private blog..........i mean, should i?? (nah, i'm an individual!!!...haha)......i originally didnt see a reason for keeping things to myself tho.......i mean, why can't we be more open?...and simply be ourselves.....not hafta hide what we think and how we feel about stuff.....every person's character is the most distinct and spectacular thing they own......we should be proud of it.......
"My name is airik...these are my feelings"....i am what i am.......whats the problem?.......wouldn't this world become so much better if everybody was just more honest to each other....none of that two faced shit...none of that superficial crap....no guessing games...

hmm...wat else did i want to talk about.....

well...exams are coming.....starting from today onwards.....should expect to see me below M-level....yeah....well...hopefully at least......i've gotten so much more laid back this semster.....bad erik..bad...i dunt think i like this change.....hopefully, i'll be able to pull through exams just fine....get it all over with.....yep..last exam on may 14th.....and then gonna head down to ma bro's graduation that nite...meet up wuth family and stuff.........somehow, eventho its not exacty exciting or fun or anything...i want to hang out with them for a bit (14th-20th).....show my respect, love for them......especially my mom and dad for letting me become the person i am.....i know i'm the sole reason to why they work-on...live-on....i know i'm exactly what makes them happy and proud.......so i want to be able to give back what i owe them as well as i can......man, they've helped me get through those rough times...

aite...review session...haha...just wasted 30mins....aite. aite. out.

so much to say.............so much...i neva had the chance to.....

exams are up soon...gay.....needa get my act together and get it all over wuth.....have been missing class or just goin in there to day dream throughout the past couple weeks.....no mood to work at all.....just not feeling that stride......not motivated.......all that curve-competition thing at my skool is backfiring.....

Song TIME!...hehee.....i'm glad peepz actually d/l them and listen to this stuff....everyone of these songs build me.....makes me become the person i am......it sounds stupid....but itz true....i can't emphasize how much music means to my life.......always with me through bad times...good times (haha..notice how i mention bad times 1st)......i devote my life to music......haha......
just yesterday morning, the electricity was out at bradford.....i woke up feeling miserable becuz i couldn't put on some music through my hifi or comp.....i need to listen to something straight away......its like the morning coffee, you can't do anything else unless you have a cup first.......music is the tru opium of the masses....anywayz, here goes ~~~ Puff Daddy feat. Usher - I Need a Girl ~~~...

Roots Concert last weekend....hehe...was pretty good....haha...at our new AC (anybody mention raves there?!)......yeah, started out pretty dam good...kinda lost it towards the end tho....the solo's were cool....but not the best way to end a concert tho........i thought the drummer was pretty funky...his style is distinct......the keyboardist was aite...i liked the live jazzy stuff he played....i'm goin to learn how to do that sometime........and last of all, the human beatbox......fuck, he's good.......
haha...ppl smokin all around me in there........
man...ppl need to recognize this talented group........i shall put up a couple of their tunes so y'all should know whoz in that shitz.....~~~ Roots - double trouble ~~~ Roots feat. Erkyah Badu - You got me ~~~

Missed both other dayz of beer garden......argh....thats not cool at all........it closed on sunday cuz it was raining.....and on sat, i spent most of the day working on our design team setup (12 - 5pm both on sat and sun)....by the time i got there...all the beer was out already.....so gay......anyhow, friday was pretty good already....so i'll stop bitchin...

haha....i dunno wat to say to you.....no pushing.......i'll just hold back and wait........hahah......the umbrella...shit, neva even told you about it.....i'm such a stupid idiot.....
but yeah, i mean more than a good time too......i mean respect, care, and life just as much..........i will show it through consistency.........i...like regular friends...only ask for a chance.....

this is for you masta chuang....my fellow blog reader....'ecletic musical tastes'?!.......hahah...we should chat more...

oh, and again, my broz....haha...that lil meeting we had......i love u guyz......word.....we know us inside out.....we should do that more often

AIRIKizms.
"a heart is bounded. i agree. i will, however, only let it do so to a certain extent"


* laughing at all those n**guhs that call the new born child next door their 'bro' *

- Day 1 @ Beer Garden -
Damn chill........seriously, recommend all to check it out.....its not too late...still got sat and sun....12pm - 7pm man (hehee...woohoooo!!!).........
i lasted all the way from 4pm - 7pm...not bad not bad...considering it was only 15mins for me last year.....yep...so had fun......just sit around talk, chat....drink beer....drink more beer.....and drink even more beer...........

everybody is cashed out already......while i'm still wide awake (i passed out early for 20mins)...hehe...its only 10:30pm rite now.......wat a early end to the day....i'm bored now...

hmmm...nuthin else to ramble about really.....gonna drop down ma song..and i'm outta here ~~~ Moloko - Lotus Eaters (downtempo, triphop) ~~~...hehe..you all must be wondering where i find all these random songs...

Airik. pls, no stalking me.

just read my last blog....it sux....doesn't make sense to me....f*ck...must be becuz i was trying to retype what i had written earlier....argh..i dunt wanna edit it....i got better things to do..

Just wrote a nice long fine blog....its now gone cuz blogger.com suddenly went down......i'm so mad...so mad...argh....will try to retype as much as i remember...

gonna indirectly mess with somebodys feelings today...(just alil)..hehe...goal: make you smile

One of the main reasons why i'm up here rite now is because of this song...spent so much time online listenning to random R&B songs just to find it....now i've finally found it......its not toni braxton....hehe.....not biggie......brandy??.......not city high.......not mase......but Nate Dogg....
dang..here it is peepz ~~~ Another sad story - Nate Dogg ~~~ its not as good as I remembered it to be anymore tho........expectations maybe??.......but anyhow, yeah......itz all good.......it reminds me of Chiu driving, chilling in his car......
I did however, come across a really nice phat beat during my search tho......i'm not exactly into the "Yo Yo" musik industry....so yeah...i wouldn't know if everybody had heard of this beat already....wouldn't be surprised if everybody has already heard of it.......anyhow, letz give it a drop ~~~ Break your neck - Busta Rythmes & DMX (its instrumental) ~~~ perfect for freestyling i'd say..

Was raining earlier today......argh...i hate it......hehe.....rain is Ron's 'hak sing' (black star)......hahaha...even LL didn't goto signals this morning cuz of the rain......thats something new......i hate drizzles tho......thunderstorms, typhoons and all that are ok with me.....but i hate those measily 3-4 hours of slight drizzle.....damn, pour hard if you gonna pour you kno?.....rain hard all day at least.....

Ok, this is gonna be an exceptionally random blog......but i'm goin to put it on.....just becuz i want to...hey, its my blog...my space....i'm a man....hehe.....i can stick upto whateva i blog:
- Ok, so i've been living extremely ghetto for the past week or two.......the first thing that comes into mind when i'm hungry is ramen rite?? (well, power bars too, but thats not the point of the ramble rite now).......what are the things that usually stop you from having ramen when your wallet is dry and you're hungry??.....the dishwashing??.....the noodles are too hot??.....the taste of it? (assuming that you've been having it non-stop for the past couple dayz already)....hehe.....this ramble reflects my randomness completely...but yeah....erm....the thing that stops me from ramen is having to wait for the water to boil......don't ask questions!!....it just is...=/
Its like playing video games you know??......when you're bored...and you kinda wanna play........its like, you're not bothered to set it all up...(hey, setting it all up involves a lot you know?......you need to find/choose the game, put it into the console, turn on the TV and console.... and last but not least....wait for the game to load).....its like...i usually just hang around in front of the whole setup and decide upon whether all that setting up is worth it or not..........usually i end up not playing....
However, if the game was already set-up and ready to play........i'd just walk over, pick the controller up and start playing without thinking even if i didn't really want to play........similarly, if the noodles were cooked and prepared for me....i'd just go ahead and eat it just for the fact that i didn't have to go through that tedious procedure of cooking it..(in my case, waiting for the water to boil).....
Now that i've completely blogged my 1st random thought....i forgot my 2nd one....oh well...next time i guess....

New |MLM| Counter-strike server is up btw......1.4 is all ready and set up....go check it out... 66.93.53.238:27015....i haven't tried it yet...but i've seen it run on pisan's computer.....dang, no more jumping around and shitz....thats shitty.......damn cool spectator mode tho....

7-11 Meetings....yep....dang....its been a long long time......shit man.....we've upgraded......haha...its all cyber and stuff now......no more 'dim sum' and nestea......guyz....look how far we've gotten.......we're all over the place now....hehe.....east side hate yo....no poop love..........shit man....not to get all slimy and stuff (hehehe...i'm not the one that talks about this shit that often before).....we've changed....we've grown......we're all gay couples...we've bitched.......yet, we're still stickin it together and its still tite deep down *there*.......so wha about the acapella huh?? yes, its the shit....i loved every lil bit....no regrets.....so whatcha gonna say huh??......fratboy wannabe.......and you, u....u....u...you 'i'm going to quit' abuser.....haha...mad love....shit, you guyz have any clue how long since we all met up...

A sudden swoop up from the low......yeah...its weird...i dunno whats going on....i'm confused....so its a finale/not??......just gonna stay down there man...stay relaxed...no expectations...remember....no expectations...they hurt........

Balled the last couple dayz....feeling good about my stroke......gonna work on slowly speeding it up....can't last on court for too long tho......i'm gone by the end of the 3rd game......haven't been eating well enuff??.........probably.......i'm so wasted when i get home.......i comeback, take a shower, eat, and then pass out on the spot....

4:00pm today....somebody was downloading my song on audiogalaxy......i was like.......dang...nice...hehe........~~ King Airik - let the game begin ~~ for those who dunno it...its old tho.....maybe i should make a better 2nd song sometime...

Been getting comments that ma blog reveals too much of myself.....good/bad thing??....you decide....

Erik, the King.

**Add-on onto my side note a lil while ago**
those silver loop earrings i said i like.....yeah...i like the bigger ones (just bigger, not biggest)...

lunch break...hmm....made myself 'ma po' tofu for lunch....tasted like shit......only had half of it (yep, something must be really wrong if ERik eats only half his meal).....guess i'll just stick to the power bars........they dunt taste any better really.....but nobody told the Blazers not to start late game fouling......so i'll suck it up....

yeah, living ghetto as hell.......all the ebaying, online shopping has come to a stop in the last couple weeks....mo mood...mo money....diu....If there was one thing i can choose to take away from my priorities in life just to make everything else better...it would be money tho....money is nuthin compared to family, friends...happiness.....money cannot buy what we need the most....

music ramble time...this one is a Tm influence.....~~ Mojo - Lady (house) ~~ i'd expect the ladies to prefer this one more than the gentleman....its nice and groovy...

itz a sunny day today....cold tho......sunny with a chilly wind......if you guyz haven't noticed by now....i'm in love with the sun...it makes me trip..hehe........yep....its mostly the blue sky and the clouds (small ones only)....well, and also the sun light....the rays that beam through your window and into your room.....its relaxing......i can just sit by the window and chill.....listen to music (everythings got to do wuth it).......

Still feeling horrible.......its not even 'rollercoaster' no more......its like, staying low.....feeling miserable...feeling helpless.......argh...things just dunt belong i guess....things that you just can't own........can't have......is that true??....what you guyz think?....you guyz believe that you can own anything in this world as long as you have the stride and determination to do so?.........not trying to be sexist...but i think this is more like a guy sorta discussion...(hehe...yeah, we guyz (at least ma broz do) talk about this stuff...its not always what you ladies think)..............just things like.......money....college....jobs....cars....bitches....you guyz think we can own that stuff as long as you're determined to do so?.....hmmm......i still kinda think you can (hey, i've seen it happen)......at least i'd put in at least 101 before i raise ma hands up with dissatisfaction....=/

thanx broz, you know who u r, i needed that shit this week...i f*ckin needed it....wish me the grande finale.

Chanizms.

hmm...feels like its been a long time since i've blogged....had a lot of things i wanted to ramble about over the week.......will try to make sure i blog them all down...but its hard to say......i write the shortest blogs when i have the most to say...and the longest ones when i just write about bullshitz.....

first thing in mind...yep, a loud shoutout 'THANX' to all those who have told me that they like my blog.....finding it interesting....cool...enjoyable to read...helped them out wuth their prbs?? (damn, its not that great is it? =P )........hehe....yeah, it really encourages me to come back up here and blog a lil more......its great, knowing that I'm able to entertain others through such media, instead of having to sit down wuth me and let me talk all that shit.....
I gotta admit i can see why some peepz find it interesting tho.....this stuff i rite down is pretty close to the shit that goes through my mind everyday, i wouldn't be surprised if they can see 'ERIK' behind these blogs......yeah, anyhow, thanX to you all for such praise!!

Went to a christian acapella concert last weekend....yeah, dude....just ask me why i went.....haha....some of you guyz must think i've gone nuts or something...too much work at hopkins?!?!...(hhaha...nah, i've been slackin big time for the past 2 weeks).......its pretty good i admit....hehe...maybe becuz i'm that musical type person....i love music...all notes, tones, sounds, beats light me up like a star.......plus, hehehe....tonnes of eye candy......
Weird, somehow that msg about Christ sacrificing for us all throughout the concert enlightened me up.......its like, i see so much belonging in every single person in that hall....their beliefs are hard and bold.....integration at its best.....
Somewhere throughout, i figured that everybody in our society just lives the way they are...does what they do...and believes in what makes them content with life.......at some point, i couldn't see the difference between singing at an acapella and going out to a rave on saturday nights...hmmm.....i see such meaning behind those ppl....i want to know more about what absorbs them, but at the same time its like scary cuz it seems so deep...okok...enuff BS...next topic..
oh yeah, gotta thank ahm for sitting through that shit wuth me..

Lost $40 yesterday.....argh...damn NBA playoffs......was so close........shit.....i'm goin make that cash back next weekend...

hehe....M - Class?!....a chance that my parents are gonna send me one from Vancouver.......nicenicenice....shit, i do not mind one of those for sure....hopefully i'll get something (yeah, nearly anything) this summer.......it'll be phat.......chill, drive, music...go somewhere nice for dinner...or mall...or movie....or whatevaz.....=)

Music of the Ramble....hmm...can't ever forget this one.....so many songs i wanna put up here tho.....i've always thought about putting up something more hardcore on...but i always end up choosing something thats more easily enjoyable.....i'm gonna stick to this hardcore thing this time....can't decide between the two
~~~ LTJ Bukem - ourworld ~~~ LTJ Bukem - watercolours ~~~ (drum&bass)....sounds a lot better wuth bass turned up

Finally woke up from another dream.......gotta get myself back together again....sux.....why can't i dream on?...why can't i stay asleep?....why me?!......i'm just hoping i'll go back to sleep soon...i wanna dream on....i want to.......i'm sick of waking up from another sweet dream only to realize that it wasn't real.......how gay....is it me??...or am i just an unlucky bitch.....pls...god....pls give me a chance to prove myself.....

Ok...i've obviously only blogged about half the things i wanted to say...but i'm gonna stop here cuz i feel like it...

airik is out.

back to my public diary =)

chillin rite now w/ a Bud.....the past couple dayz have been extremely hot, just like back home in HongKong......yep...its good tho...i like the hot weather a lot more than the cold.....ppl always say they like the cold more cuz you get to wear more layers to show off your clothes and stuff....but i dun think thats true.....summer fashion is like simple and chill......shirt/t-shirt....sun glasses....shorts.....nice shoes w/ extremely low cut socks...or nice sandals......yepyep...i like that style....somehow i see more style in that....but oh well...

got a lil tanned already......from sitting at the beach....just chilling and doin anything but work during the week...its great.....college is supposed to be like that.....man, the library is only for working...not for sticking around at 24/7....

its been a good week so far....yep...heehee...unexpected results....man, i feel like i'm constantly driving in circles......i'm dizzy and i dunno wats happenning....yet somehow content w/ life........

Anyhow....song of the ramble ~~~~ David Tao - Regular Friends ~~~~ this one is for you yo...and i mean it..you'll see =) i wonder when you'll get hooked into my rambles...or will you??.....time will tell...

DAmn....this Bud Ice stuff is chill........perfect timing man...needa thank jan for contributing w/ this one...

I'm seriously wondering how many ppl check my rambles out.....as in, read it from time to time......somehow, i get the feeling that more of my Aol buddies read this stuff more......the info's are more straightforward and meaningful i guess....not like ICQ, ppl put up all this useless bullshit in......

Now that signals midterm is over....i have one data program and one more paper to hand in before exams.....argh...i got 5 exams......its gonna suck...believe me...i know it will........man.......that means 24 hour lib time....gay.....hopefully i'll have chilled enough to be ready by then....

Spring fair is coming...nice...i like that time....BEER GARDEN!!!!...heheheheheeh....nicenicenicenicenicenice.......and also 'Roots' are gonna be here too.....yep, its gonna be great from now til exams.....

Aite, i'm out.

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