Airik: dude man
this sounds like the gayest shit
but ev and you are fukin great
i honestly don't think my life would be half as much without you guyz
Ron: hahhaha what's the sudden burst of emotion but true same here
Airik: when life sux
Airik: i can turn to you two foos
Airik: thats fukin what life should be all about
Airik: the connection between one and other
Airik: none that fukin material shit we have
Airik: or want to own
Ron: yeah man that's what friends are for that's why i always watch friends
Airik: .........
Airik: ok
Airik: you can go away now
Airik: gonna find ev
Ron: fucl you man

my computer broke down yesterday......58 viruses....an assortment of medulla, something horse, and mostly worm klez h......was bad...this is something i hate.....to wake up and findout your computer is messed up....and then to spend the rest of the day fixing it....
In the end, i had no choice but to format my drive.....ahn jo man.....all cuz of that stupid email attachment.......it might as well just eat me.....

I hate food......food sux.....

ok...i figured...since i spent so much time figuring out how to put my pics up.......
i wanted to emphasize how red my hair used to be....

Haha.....this is weird as hell....i hate pics....but here it is..........and 'YES', i know a lot of you (the ladies) will think it used to be so much better.......but too bad for you!!!...haha...

BEFORE





AFTER

I buzzed my hair......haha.....all my red highlights are gone......this probably doesn't mean much to some guyz that have short hair.....but for me, for a person that hasn't ever had short hair in his life.....its different.........hehe......i like it...its clean.....its 'kyo'......its a change........it was actually a one day decision, haha, during phyfound (yeah, when else would i been thinking about stuff like that??)....more random spontaneous acts of mine i guess........but yeah, i know so many of you just can't imagine me with my hair short like that.......i will definitely put up 'before and after' photos when i get them together and stuff.......and for now??....you'll just have to let your imagination run wild for a bit......

thanksgiving is coming.......holy god......wats going to happen??.......holygod.......i'm excited........its been a while guyz........i can only imagine the best of highskool memories (fuck northfield...like there were many memories there)......but yeah, a big *smile* =))))))))))))))

Many great songs for the moment......erm.....its gonna be a special day today........3 songs for the day......not to show less respect for any of them at all.....but i figured it'll take a while for me to put them all up considering how less frequently i blog now....
~~~ Incubus - Drive ~~~....so many of you have definitely heard of this one.........well, i just realized it was such an awesome song a while ago.....i especially like the guitaring throughout the song (starting from the intro).............
~~~ Airlock - Awakening ~~~....thank my all-time-blog-maker for this song.....its good....more chill for the soul......actually, its the better the more you hear it.....if you need more chill stuff w/vocals....chek it.............
~~~ the Avalanches - Since I left you ~~~......yet, another chill song....i actually like this one more...its definitely a lot more well known too........erm....yeah, its good.....what else to say??
~~~ Queens of the Stone Age - No one knows ~~~......dave grohl back drumming......i like.

I'm done with all my summer apps......woohoo.....nicenice....did take up some free-time throughout the last couple weekends...but its finally all over........its great.....just 3 exams, thanksgiving and i'm off back to home.....home sweet home.......heard from my bro theres been some changes in my house too....so i can't wait to check it all out.......

Lifes been good for the most part....cept for the occasional "normal" bad days....everything has been great....just doing my thing.....getting stuff done.....chillin as i go......anywayz..its time for the weekly black man's steak.....so gotta run and grab da shit....will try post pics asap.

Airik

Lemon Jelly and Craig David new albums.....nicenice.

I completely forgot all my German....i used to know enough German to have basic conversations with ppl, but i completely lost it now....i haven't spoken German since highskool in HongKong....and that was like......friggin 5 years ago.......as much as i want to look at that stuff once again, theres too much other stuff I would probably be better off doing instead......for example, practice some of my mandarin or just generally learning new things and new skills........German would probably be one of the less important languages in my life (i can't be for sure, but thats what it seems like).......given the intensity of my curriculum at hopkins, i highly doubt i'll have the chance to take some german classes (not some, but not even one).....haha....goodbye German (as in the language)......10 years of that stuff......i think i'm more than halfway recycling that memory in my mind already.......so i guess i might as well just let it....

I've been living a somewhat efficient life for the past week...always busy doing stuff.....healthy stuff...hehe....i relax a bit every once in a while, but I spend most of the time working and getting my stuff together......i guess i can't bum too much (uptight?!)......can't procrastinate....its not one of my skills i suppose ^^.......i feel useless if i relax for too long.....i feel like i can be doing better things with my time......like anything, wash my clothes, more practice on the guitar, look up work related stuff........yeah, i hate the feeling of being behind.....or the feeling when everybody but I, is doing stuff......

my blog has gotten shitty.....maybe cuz theres too much deeper thoughts in it these dayz......less simple diary-like thingys......i dunno......i can't really be bothered to make it nice, clean and evened out or whateva......i'll just let it flow...

no music for the day...haha....

AIERIK. go eat now!

I'm a B-logger....inside my log, theres no match...the catch?....its becuz i'm all alone....all airik...fully fukin blown....maximized on your screen....nobody to pick a screen......I can talk my shit....nobody will bitch.....tho, this log is never to pick fights......its a place for me to ramble at my height.....talk about what music is tite.....i see it like my back yard hoop.....its the same loop.....i come here once in while to practice my shoot....the catch?....i choose to share it with the public.....i'm proud of what i am....just another man....good or bad you can see it through the video cam......i hear good music, i say 'damn'.....you find a new entry and you shout 'nice shit man'.......

alrite...enuff...haha.......i only have that much time to blog.......got work??.....hehe.......stupid summer job apps.........but anyhow, haha...writing rythmes are hella fun.....don't take long after you get used to it too.....only takes 10 min or so to write a paragraph like this......

I honestly dunno why i came up.....i just felt like it......i really should be getting a shower or better yet, watching the european MTV awards rite now.........hmmm........here we go first of all........~~~ Utada Hikaru - Simple and Clean ~~~.......its the theme to the disney and squaresoft 'Kingdom Hearts' game.......anybody played it??.......the cc definitely looks awesome......all the disney characters and stuff......

aiteaite....the evil monster (television) is seriously driving me away from my blog.......will go now..

Erik.

8 Mile was real and inspiring. I feel it, what we can do with our lives....what we live on to get us going...everyone of us have our own moments, our own dreams....its crazy.....to live in our each and individual worlds.......everyonce in a while, i really wonder how it would be like to live somebody elses........
this might sound a lil stupid, egoistic...and worst of all, sound like every other guy that says the same thing.....but i'm gonna live upto my dream....i want to be successful, somewhat rich, happy and to someday feel that i have my life and my world under control......even though uptil this day, i still might not know exactly what i want but i definitely have a good idea of what i feel and what i can do......i know i can succeed in whateva i want to do.......its all within.....

Some deutsch pride........y'all check this shit out......its some quality foreign stuff.....~~~ Freundeskreis - Mit Dir ~~~.....chek dat deutsch hiphop rnb out......

HAha....boycotting......like eggs rotting.....so old they're gonna be thrown....thinking you gonna be owning......this world is international, its only rational.......fobby shit malicious....haha i find it fukin facetious.......cuz thats lame as fuck.....lemme give you a pacifier to suck.....you lame ass faggot.....you're outta luck...dat shit ain't gonna make me split.....you immature piece of shit.....this no ballad........its a fukin rap......so check my map......dat crap is not gonna make me give a crap......go home and sit on your slutty moms lap.......and don't slap back.....you're not shaq......you're a pussy unanswering lil brat......i'm done with that shit......scared little bitch.....i grew up being thrown those hits........i'm over the wall.....i'm not gonna trip on your tiny balls......i have them at lunch everyday, spaghetti and meatballs........its not gonna ever be your way......as long as i'm here, you sit and stay......goody doggy dear.......stay here and don't piss on your pants queer......now i'm done with my beef....so next time jeez, don't do that intentionally to pull my leaves......its not cool, dont live life like you gotta rule....you stop, and i'll stop yule.

Aiteaite...tired.

How is everybody today? =)

Don't get me wrong...i'm not in a good mood today....well, not in a bad one either.....just one of those dayz i suppose......i went to class, ate.....worked.....spent most of the day on campus i believe.....the funny thing is i haven't had a conversation with anybody today....only til now i realize i was on campus doing my own thing all day, didn't interact much with anybody other than nodding my head to say 'hi'..........i think i hate these dayz, they're boring......i spend half the time conversing with myself....and the other half in silence....

I stress agian, if i haven't made my point clear enuff last nite.....I'm goin to make the most out of my time from now til thxngiving.....want to straight things out.....i want to be as complete as i can be.....and i want to be on track with how i want my life to roll out....

I haven't been up here for a bit.....so i'm gonna give a quick 'Whats inside Erik's mp3 list' over the past week or so:
The Reelists - Freak Mode
Hyde - Shallow Sleep (j-rock)
Jimmy Eat World - the middle (acoustic version)
Walkmen - Wake up
Third Eye Blind - I Want You
Goo goo Dolls - Here is Gone
Garbage - Cherry Lips
The Roots - What they do
Maroon 5 -This Love

Aite, nap time.
Airik.

I really should be sleeping or studying rite now.....we have so little time to waste in our lives.....to come and think about it, i never understood why i started blogging......i have so many more important things to do like work and skool and straightening out my life (ok, maybe i can consider blogging straigtening my life)....but still.......at least for the past week or so, i've been feelin that i haven't been using my time efficiently enough.......i should be constantly doing something, and most of this time should be spent on skool work (I HATE PHYSFOUND BTW).....

Was down at philly last weekend......was way cool.....chek jon's joint out.....i love 'typical' colleges......so cool....so chill.....mad love for chilling........old skool shitz...winning11...bballing....haha ("Bet thats the first time an azn do that shit to you").......that shit we talked over again and again......they just hoes man....they just hoes..........dunt need to give a F...

really need sleep...will be back.

....in this world....we live the slaves of our own creations......

Theres seriously absolutely no understanding whatsoever......its as if the connection between each and every individual is bounded by a brick wall......the sad thing is that I believe i see so much greatness between every one of us.....when i'm say 'greatness', i mean anything more than one person can accomplish.....its neither something of only materialistic value nor a self accomplished task........the reason behind that is that it takes at least one more person to appreciate the traits or skills of others.......

Our relationships are such fragile connections.....one wrong phrase, one wrong action can shatter it into pieces....a broken glass window that will never be exactly the same anymore no matter how well put back together.....I wonder if theres anything in this world called a "plastic window" relationship....elastic, hard.....and definitely takes more than a blow to put it apart....

Its either me, i'm just wrong.....or i see mobile problems around me everyday....these problems speak, act, and sometimes even don't make sense to me.....i'm not saying problems are bad, i mean, i have problems too......but most of time, not acting for the good of it just disturbs me.........we shall all learn to live and grow better lives within each of our individual lifes........

Its sad to see that those that are crazy or deviant are seen as outkasts......especially those that share their lives for the well being of this world and what it means to them......the most simplest things in this world...the most wacky, nitty, crazed things in this world have A LOT of meaning behind them.....(crazy is defined as 'wrong' in my dictionary, thats what i just mean as really wrong)......Theres so much appreciation in this world.....so much greatness......why aren't we focusing on stuff like that rather than satisfication through our own created problems......the more we live our supposedly life, the more problems we create for ourselves....

Everything was so much simpler when you were young........but as we grow up....we tend to lose the ability to be honest and truthful......all our experiences get complicated every time you come around it again.....

Now i'm asking myself. What can i do to make this life of mine better? or better yet, make everything around me better??.....i hate complaining....when i hear people complain, i always tell them to think about how-to make it better from then on........so now, i'm gonna ask myself how to put an end to my own misery........i definitely can't go around telling people i'm going to be different, cuz i'm definitely going to get a "Airik is going crazy" response......i'm gonna stfu when i should.....i'm gonna be helpful, generous, have a positive attitude all the time, continue to believe in the 'greatness', and make the best for both yours and my life. (haha..sounds like i'm writing some sort of mission statement).......

i shall believe....

Erik.
- i shall turn to music with others and not for its relief from others -

Us again.....

Sukendar: http://www.cnn.com/2002/US/West/10/18/offbeat.alaska.bird.reut/index.html
Ec4K: hah
Sukendar: believe?
Ec4K: course
Sukendar: mutant terrorist
Ec4K: ....
Ec4K: stop tryin to make it to my blog

Airik's Apartment

Enjoying a lil yogurt-on-a-knife rite now as i blog......hahaha.......so chill.....i got phyfound to study and i'm basically not doin much about it......but oh well......yeah, back to my yogurt-on-a-knife........haha......saving some of my plastic cutlery.......i got this big box of plastic cutlery (yes, for the lazy me) at costco, with spoons...knives....and forks.....its great, all easily disposable after your meal.....but yeah, my cutlery box is starting to become uneven........i have a lotta of knives, some forks and not that many spoons left.....so therefore, i'm making myself eat my yogurt with a knife to balance the box back.....sounds very stupid (haha..like always), but i've been tryin very hard to make myself live a 'perfect' live.......and of course, my apartment needs to be perfect too.......everything needs to be in its place at the right moment at the right time........

Theres this friggin fly in my apartment.....its hella bothering me......i want to be alone....i wanna do my own thing, and its driving me nuts.....for the past two weeks, i've been using this scented candle to drive him away from areas of my apartment i don't want him to be......the problem however, is that it doens't wanna leave the place in general......its not like i'm not washing my dishes, not throwing my trash away, i have no clue why its still around.......i leave my window and door open so that i get a lot of air flow in the apartment, but still it doesn't leave.........
I actually caught this lil nuisance once in the living room.....it was on the ceiling and it didn't move, so i used a transparent plastic bowl to trap it against the ceiling.......the problem after that was that i didn't know what i should do next........i wanted to somehow bring him down from the ceiling, but i couldn't move because i was tip toeing so that i could reach the ceiling.....it was tough, i had to slowly move across to the dining table where i could grab a piece of paper and get on top of a chair to slide a piece of paper over the bowl to bring him down...........my muscles were seriously straining cuz i had to make sure the bowl was completely over the fly all throughout......so yeah, i finally had him in between the piece of paper and bowl.......i had two choices: 1. Run out into other end of the hallway of the floor in the apartment, and let him out 2. TORTURE HIM!! for annoying me......so yep, my decision is obvious.....i couldn't think of how i'd do it tho, it was flying all over the place inside the bowl.......the first thing that came to my head was to drown it in the sink, it was stupid......basically i turned on the faucet and hoped that the water would soak through the paper and slowly fill up the bowl so the fly would be trapped and would finally drown............the problem was that water didn't soak through.....and i dunno how, but somewhere along my failure it flew back into my apartment.....

Today, i went to supermarket.....and i got some air freshner and flying insects insecticide.......the first thing i did when i got home was to walk all over my apartment with my spraying air freshner (i somehow believe flys hate stuff that smells good, my insecticide was my special weapon...haha..).....but yeah, as idiotic as it sounds.....i was suffocating from the air freshner....maybe i over did it or something but it was giving me a headache.....

Airik Apartment End.

~~~ David Tao - Kitrina ~~~ erm....good song??..need i say much??...its english....its simple...its a guitar song....i actually wrote a song right after i heard it....its very similar......i don't want to fill up my blog with my music, so just ask me if you wanna see the chords and the lyrics...

Oh, and also....i got muffins, eggs, cheese and ham at the supermarket today too...i can't wait til breakfast tomorrow....its all mine, all mine...

Its very interesting to see that airik's blog is suddenly amazingly active...

Ec4K: did i tell you?
Sukendar: tell what?
Ec4K: i'm fukin in love with music now
Ec4K: well
Ec4K: if you read my blog
Sukendar: yeah i slept with it
Ec4K: you'll prob figure that out already
Sukendar: ...wtf
Ec4K: hahaha
Ec4K: seriously man
Ec4K: you remember that canto movie?
Ec4K: the weird one
Ec4K: the guy sleeps with the BB gun?
Ec4K: i'd sleep with my guitar
Ec4K: haha
Sukendar: oh nic tse movie?
Ec4K: yeahyeah
Ec4K: that one
Ec4K: the one he's director
Sukendar: dun like that movie
Ec4k: ........
Ec4k: ........
Sukendar: you want indonesian song?
Sukendar: american indonesian song
Ec4K: nah
Ec4k: hahahah
Ec4K: i'm sorry
Sukendar: hahahahahahhaha
Sukendar: i thought you love music
Ec4K: i do
Ec4K: but not bothered
Ec4K: i know you only mean good for me
Ec4K: but its ok
Ec4K: haha
Sukendar: hahaha
Sukendar: fuck you slut
Sukendar: it sounds like thai i know
Ec4K: haha

If we really spend the time to think about why most parents scold and tell their kids off, its because THEY CARE.....we tend to think those that don't nag you, don't tell you anything you don't want to hear, treat you well, and just generally seem all chilled all the time are the ones that know whats going on.....its funny how most ppl think those are actually the ones that understand......think about it like this, if they really are the ones that understand and care, why aren't they critizing you??....could it be because they only want to be on your good side?
seriousyly....the next time when ever somebody tells you off for something you have done wrong and is too critical about what you do.....step back.....try think straight....and try understand where they are coming from......try understand most ppl in this world don't criticize others just to make themselves feel better.....but rather that they only just care......they only want the better for you.....they risking their relationship with you to make things better for you....

Ppl who talk may also be just as good listeners as the ones that don't........another common misperception.........people that talk like to share......people that don't talk have nothing to share......it really has nothin to do with them being more chill....more laid back.....and better people to talk to.......
ARgh...i can't be fuct to talk.....

~~~ Gitaroo - The Legendary Theme (Acoustic) ~~~...chill lil video game song.....easy two guitar parts....

Another song for all you music chillers......once again, from my fav "soothe me out" artist.....~~~ Zero 7 - This World ~~~....yepyep....for those that liked 'Destiny'...this one is great too!!....so chek it...

Just spent the last 4-5 hours on the web....chatting....downloading....sucking up my dsl like a boy with his new toy........so awesome....hehe...the wonders of the net......10 years from now, lets all imagine then what life was like back in the day when internet did not exist.........i mean, seriously....no aol, no icq.....talking to your friends only through the fone........no emails..so all offices have piles and piles of documents and memos........damn.....most us youngsters these dayz have already intergrated our lives with the web.........i can't imagine just how much more important it will be to us in the future......

I'm tired.....haha...too much comp today...boo to you readers....
late
airik.

Definitely more chats for the soul....cheers!!


Ec4K: so wsup
erick: not much yo
erick: just got back from bus law a bit ago
erick: its raining now
Ec4K: is it?
erick: yeah
erick: when me el and joe were coming back i twas
Ec4K: so wat u upto?
erick: not much
erick: just ordered some campusfood
erick: telling cindy about my little mermaid 2 story
erick: haha
erick: im STARVING!
erick: gotta do some intro to alg hw soon too
Ec4K: haha
Ec4K: mermaid?
erick: yeah
erick: like i had a rough frosh year
erick: so my mom sent me a care package with three dvds
erick: two normal ones
erick: and the last one was the little mermaid 2
erick: so i asked my bro about it
erick: and he said that he told her to get me any given sunday
erick: but she said no. i know what erick likes. and he likes little mermaid
erick: so i got it
erick: watched it a couple months later
erick: and i kinda liked it
erick: haha my mom knows me yo
erick: i like disney movies even if they are cheesy
Ec4K: haha
Ec4K: haaha

Its just another friday......yes...aka my rest day.......no class....no nuthing to do......its great.....its sorta like a head start to the weekend, gives me a little more breathing room before h/w sundays......

Eventho i constantly emphasize that this is my blog and i can do whateva a F about it......i feel pressured to write right now.......its been so long since i'be been up here.....i don't want to come here and lose the inspiration to blog........i'm scared this is the end.....an end to this blog...that really would be quite upsetting........its kinda like when you want to do something that you just can't do no more.........hopefully the fact that my DSL will be up at my apt soon it'll change.....

A song for the you ~~~ Craig David - Seven Days (Acoustic Version) ~~~ yes....you probably maybe all heard of this song....but the acoustic version of it???....its awesome......i saw the craig david episode of 'Music in Higher Places' on MTV a lil while ago......all his songs on his 'Born to do it' album played with an acoustic guitar....so cool so cool.........but yeah, I learned how to played 'seven days' on my baby too.......so sweet....

Finally wrote a brand new song on my comp.......its done....and its RnB style.......i finally figured out how to post pics and files on my blog....so i'lll do just that when i get my own DSL........yep, i got lyrics for it.....and made the whole song from scratch.....all me all me..hehe........Just one last problem.....I need a two singers....one male another female.....preferably with a soulful voice........record that on and its like complete complete....

Been messing with my tables a lot this week.....got myself a copy of DJ Qbert's - Do it Yourself Scratching DVD.....so i've been sitting in my living room in front of my tables practicing and practicing and practicing........hey, i'm getting significantly better at it too........its awesome....

Haha....i have no clue why i'm blogging about this......but i sorta started this new bad habit of mine since i've gotten back to skool......been listennin to a lot of hip hop and rap these dayz (A LOT of Eminem)......and somewhere along, i was like 'wow, wouldn't it be cool if i could freestyle to some phat beats'....just chillin you know, do some of that Jin tha shit......like, i know that stuff comes from all practice.......you just gotta listen to a lot of freestyling....and practice practice practice......most ppl are wrong when they think stuff like freestyling...turntabling..playin the guitar...bballing...breaking......is all about talent.....i mean, not that talent doesn't take a role, but its such a small one compared to practicing.........but anywayz, yeah.....so i've been tryin to figure out and spit out all these rythmes.......tryin to get da flow goin......and what i've been starting to do is to shake my hand as i go......you know, with your fingers pointing out and then kinda twist your arm clockwise and anti-clockwise very quickly.....
so now that i've been doing that for quite a bit......i've noticed i've been doin that freestyling hand thingy all the time.....when i talk.....and especially when i'm tryin to explain something.......i nearly even accidently started to do the shaking thing durin my presentation in business communication class.......crazy man crazy...
So yeah, now that i'm on the subject.....i want to talk about actually freestyling......its funny how so many guyz (girls not interested..haha) have problems voicing out and practicing........haha.....i mean, yeah, maybe i wouldn't want to practice in front of crowds.....but its ok to do it with friends and stuff.....its not like we expect you to get that stuff down the first couple times around......c'mon guyz......not something to be embarrassed about.........its all good......obviously, not the next freestyler in town.....just chill...confidence for the ladies yo...

BOo BOo
AIRIK

oh, and also...i dunt try to be black..

Wow.....i'm bak.....its been quite a bit i must admit....considering i used to blog every couple days or so......can't be here for long tho......you will all understand soon....

I just turned in my psyfound h/w....or should i say ahm just did it for me.......yes, that would be technically the correct thing to say......let me emphasize 'TURNED IN'.........its there in the h/w box....with my name on it....it represents work from me.....hehe....alrite...we get the point.....

Yep......i got up way early today do get my h/w done with.........i plan to stick around at ahms a lil longer for this blog...and then go back to my apt to my mommy for lunch....then drive out for my guitar lesson...and lastly, class....java and psyfound......
Ok.....i just went through a lot of different things......this is to let those non-jhu readers catch with with my life..........yep, i got my apartment and my car......all setup and stuff cuz mommy came to visit me (hey, she got nuthin to do at home....had to follow daddy's orders and let her come).........but yeah, my place is all setup due to her visit.......so great tho...makes life so much easier, puttin the whole apt together......plus, home cooked food.....
Next thing.....YEAH!...i just started guitar lessons......its awesome.......i figured it'll be hard for me to get better without some direction....so now since i have my car, i can drive out for that now.......so so fun....i need a jamming partner man.......
Class has started for nearly a month.......work load has been ok so far......i am doin csf, intro java and bus com....so other than psyfound, everything should be able to be on top of......

Got no internet/DSL at home......yeah...maybe explains why i dunt blog often (well, ontop of my 'i dunno whether blog will continue thing').......

I lost motivation soooo soon...aite, gonna go...hopefully i'll come up with something more crazy/interesting next time...
Erik.

OH dang...forgot........The song of the moment....~~~ Til I Hear it From You - Gin Blossoms ~~~........very easily liked song.........its from the movie 'Empire Records'....aite

I feel alive. For the first time since i've returned to b'more, i feel alive. I can think clearly, and everything around me makes sense. I am finally enjoying a normal stable life. Nothing is going against me, and i am not craving for anything/anybody that will take me apart. As much as i feel alive right now, i really feel that i'm getting older too. I see all these freshmen hanging around campus, and it makes me feel that my crazy days are over. I'm nearly done with college already, omg. I might be only just half way through college, but in my mind, i'm soon done. My classes don't even rape anymore, that stuff is all over...my schedule is chill...all planned out....and i don't feel the long list of requirements for my degree threatening me anymore.
Its very odd to know that I've never thought as a kid, that i'd someday be sitting here talking about what i am right now. I never dreamed that i'd be sitting high up in this apartment near JH blogging while looking out the balcony. I can relate this to my future...that i have no damn clue what/where i will be 5 years later.

Its Friday nite. Not a reason to party anymore. Rather i'm sitting here alone at pisan's desk blogging. I just came back from bball......its either i'm outta shape, i'm getting older, or i'm finally understanding my body when its tired.....no more crazy bball workouts i used to have years ago......i'm finally learnin the basics of taking care of your own body....as stupid as it sounds, but i never gave an f about my body much before......but now that i learn of the risks i go through without taking care of it, i'm starting to spend the time to think again about the consquences and what i'm putting myself through...

I'm proposing that 'airik's ramblings' will end soon. yes, i'm sorry guyz. I really hope that i can keep this blogging thing for at least the next two years, but out of no-where i've suddenly come to the idea that its time to stop. Its weird, its had to explain, but its kinda becuz i feel that i've grown up. Its like i've passed this period of time when i've grown to become this much, and now its time to move on. No doubt, i've grown tremendously throughout the year of blogging, i would certainly admit that writing down my ideas and thoughts has helped me significantly. It helps me sum up what i need to realize, what i know, and puts it alltogether into words rather that scattered thoughts in my brain.
The thing is, i feel that its not upto me to decide upon whether i should keep the blogging or not. At this moment i'm doubting i will have much interest in doing so.....hey! who knows??....i might feel that i should do it later in the semester....but yeah, just letting you all know....

Its funny how every once in a while i'm get strange looks from peeps at skool...haha....its obviously the red highlights.......they'd stare at it, and want to comment on it, but nothing comes out of their mouth....hehe....interesting.....but yeah, i like it man..."punky" as i said originally...gonna post a pic of me with my highlights for those that haven't seen me for a bit.....thats if i can get that html shit at blogger to work....

Airik.
Is my crazy punky taste leaving me??

( sorry can't get to work yet..and not bothered..haha..)

One of the things at the top of the 'make me angry' list....is to find out that you wrote a blog entry that got erased in the process of publishing........everybody, pls spend 5 secs of slience and feel my pain...

Ok...so what now??.....i just wrote a great entry about the randomest things in the world.....nice, fresh and minty.... straight outta my mind for all my fellow readers.......but its gone........argh......so what now??...write again??.....try rewrite??......man...it'll never be the same.....diz not math (not even in math it'll be the same...haha)....

aite aite i'm gonna try:

Back once again to waste time (and of course some of yours too in the near future)....

I just spent the last 15mins reading the diaries of some people i don't even know personally.......haha....wow....i'm surprised at the length of the list of 'links to other diaries' in some of them........ok, so you might think, why the hell am i reading the diaries of some random kids i dont even know instead of my friends??.........to tell you the truth, its becuz they got none......or to be more precise, they don't give a f*ck about stuff like......i think they either got better things to do...or at least feel that they do......haha......all good........but yeah, while they read my blog and stick their noses under my tree....i'm forced to stick mine under those that i dunt even know....
Now back to the diaries of others........dunt you think these diaries we write reflect our personality and thought so well!!....i mean, wow!!...i'm surprised at the differences between the diaries that we write......i like to use '.....'s to show a pause or change in thought.......i write short incomplete phrases......i dunt spend time writing grammatically correct english....i don't write good english and neither use wordy words.......to me, in my diary, the most important is to get the message and meaning across......its the content but not how it is presented that matters to me..........
Its great.......just like the individuals we are......we write such individual diaries........all shown through the content and style........its as if you can hear the person talk about the same stuff next to you.......some ppl like to write well thought out or nicely written english (they really care about how they are presented).....some ppl like to doodle (must be day dreamers!!)......some like to talk about whats on their mind 24/7( the usual case, uptight about work)........some like to write short one sentence paragraphs....some like to write about their theories......blahblah....too many.......man, we all so different.......i do admit tho, i care about what others read in my blog...and what others see of me through it.....its gay......but its only human......don't we all care??!!
So i ask myself (i'm realizing i dunno what i'm talkin about now).....why the hell am i blogging??....what am i trying to do with it??.....what msg am i trying to convey across to my readers??..........hmmm......good question....good question.......i think there are two answers to this question........the first is that i like to talk to myself (i will further on explain later).........the second...hmmm...i dunno......depends on my mood i guess?......depends what i just happen to think about?....about what i did today......about an event....an airik theory........something i'd like to share......its weird.......i logon blogger.com everyonce so often........i face this empty text editor in which i fill up with stuff that comes in and out of my head everyday....whether its something i just want to ramble about...or something that i thought may have been interesting for my readers on my blog........its a place for me to talk to somebody i suppose (man..no friends williing to listen...*sigh*...).........so why am i blogging about all this??......and why the hell are you spending the time to read it??.......beats me ^^;
Oh, and back to the first answer......i like to talk to myself.......hahaha....exactly what i did just now (if anybody noticed that is)......yeah, i like to ask questions.....i always open discussions to my questions without even having to spend the time to try answer them first on my own.........yes, its pathetic....but i do it.....i ask questions and answer them myself....its like talkin to yourself.........haha.....the point of questions is to have an unknown answered....but what about asking a question in which the answer can be answered by the questioner?.......haha...where the hell did that come from.........again, i ask questions i can answer myself.......why???.......beats me........but ask me, and i'll beat you......

Ok...enuff crazy talk.........theres exactly 12 hours left til i leave vancouver.......still gotta pack....hehe....jackin all this stuff from home.....saving some dough.....including my auto...i've also got...an amplifier...a nice sony stereo....otherstuff.......and of course....tonnes of FOOD!! (ration to be exact...)......

OHOH...music....of.........da......ramble (i actually think 'music of the ramble' sounds so gay...nxt time and from then on...it'll be called something else)..........hmmm.......i dunt remember whether i've put this song on before......but whateva.....its real real good....so its aite...~~~ Coldplay - Yellow ~~~....so what you waiting for???!!.......GO DOWNLOAD.!!!...BUY!!!...STEAL!!....WHATEVA!!!...GO GET IT!!!..

=Pack time.
Ariik.
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YEAH!!!....its finally done....better written??..not as well written.....man...i dunt wanna care.....

some last crazy talk...reward myself (myself?!) for having spent the time to rewrite all that thought which got erased....
so yeah.....hehe....all you diary writers can prob relate...hehe.....nearly everytime before i choose to click on the publish entry button....i've learned to add an extra routine.....and that is to copy and paste my entry somewhere else just in case shit happens.......its only through mistakes you learn (sigh!..so sad).........so why the hell did i mess up just now??........its cuz i clicked on the publish button without copy and pasting........'duh!!!' you might say......so whats my point?.......the thing is, a lil dialog box popped out asking me to confirm my publishing.......and i, like always, quickly chose to 'cancel' the confirmation without thinking becuz i had forgotten to copy and paste (my supposedly way to help me save my work)..........yep, and so everything got erased cuz i canceled the confirmation to publish.......the reasoning behind it? my stupid copy and paste scheme to save my work backfired...........gay...

Lesson learned: You can't stop shit from happenning.

Haha...came across some random stuff on jon's xanga.......man, i like how you can write comments and give out eProps......i wish i could get a lil more repsonse from my readers......stupid blogger.com!! (ok, i don't mean it...don't band me)....i need some encouragement yo!!....*hint* *hint*....otherwise i'll threaten to quit bloggin!!!....kekeke.......
But anywayz, yeah....hahah......a perfect example of different perspectives from my mates at skool:

every1 wants to grow up soo fast... so do i... however.. i think i grow up too fast.... like i have un normal stress..... who ever thinks that a kid like me... will have big business decisions..... hahaa.... i'm leading a line of different computer products.... service oriented..... dont' wanna give away my ideas to other people... but.... man.... stress.... and should i be a partner in da company... own a 20% stake in it.... stress.... some times i wonder.... am i normal... i mean most kids who are 20 worry about dumb stuff.... like my rents dont' let me go out... or i need a gf or..... some dumb stuff like dat.... like is it cool to do this... or should i relax.... people who read this give me some input......

company assets 100k (liquid)

contracts 175 k

my product line... 3 wks of inception... 50k to date....

i think i can boost dis company... up crazy amout...

wut u think? go for it jon... or relax and b normal.... plz post comments
Posted 7/28/2002 by jonisgod at 3:04 am
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i think you are really amazing. you are the greatest. every day i sit in my room and cry that i was cursed to be me and not you.
Posted 7/28/2002 at 3:37 pm by erickio

man....haha...my friends always gimme new surprises.....

Boo to you.
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Haha....i figured the best way to give everybody a good laugh without offending anyone would be to make fun of oneself......always the stupidest things or most human-like things we do are give a good laugh....
So yeah, I drove my Dad out today to his chiropractor, massage therapist, chinese doctor (whateva you want to call him, we get the point).....ok, so this therapist is pretty famous for the shit he does........he's always fully booked eventho its friggin expensive per hour.... but anywayz, in meat and bones, what he really does is massage your tendons and ligaments.......i'm telling you man.....its PAINFULL!......it'd be impossible to describe the pain... but he claws onto you and puts pressure on you all the way down to your bones and massages your tendons.....pushes deep in between your ligaments and stuff......i've actually had a previous appointment with him for 30mins before for stiff shoulders and I came out of that place with totally drenched pants cuz my legs just kept sweatin (i didn't piss in them).......haha....so embasrassing......
Anyhowz, i drove my dad for his appointment today........and when i came back to pick him up, i spent 15mins of his appointment to massage my thumb.....damn, and guess why i decided to have it checked??......hahaha....*blink*.....my stupidest weakness if any of you recall................*sigh*....Music..........wtf....this is how far i'd go to do what my heart is at.........i made myself go through another worse time of my life so that i can barre my guitar better and endure longer while i practice (well, it was injured already cuz i've been over playing) ........hahaha....i know its friggin stupid as hell....but yeah, i did it.......and its idiotic.......well, dats me...haha........i put my life and energy into whateva i want to do well in.......
my thumb is still numb...

Music of the Ramble time....~~~ System of a Down - Aerials ~~~.......I never liked this song much when i first saw it on MTV (about an alien lookin kid)......but i've gotten to like it the more i hear it.........yep..i've always liked those type of songs where you don't quite like at the beginning....... but the more you hear it the more you get to like it later........its those songs that you like the first time you hear are always the ones that get borin soon...........but yeah, this song gives me a deep, sad feeling...........hahaha.....i think this quote i got off volcom 3 describes it best.....'the more i see people, the less i want to become one'......well, its something like that....he's not online....so i can't ask him...haha......

....boo

to all the ML ppl last summer 2001....man, now i realized i had a great great time....

Either i'm generally running of out of rambles.......or maybe, i'm just not quite bothered to blog nemore........haha....feels like there are better things to do instead.....rather watch TV...eat....sleep....

Yes. To those that think its another crazy airik doing, I had music lessons......And to those that think its cool, I had guitar and music theory lessons a couple dayz ago.......i thought it was great......a straight two and a half hour lesson of music theory and lil bits and pieces to put all that i know into order........was especially interesting and informative cuz i like all that stuff anywayz.....not that the theory is interesting, but knowing that it'll help expand the power i have with my music was just way cool......i mean, it was only some basic music theory too....helping me put the songs i'm writing together...structuring it all.....what sounds better, what doesn't...

I can't think of anything to blog about rite now.....music of the ramble time i suppose....haha......~~~~ David Usher - Black Black Heart ~~~....this guy is great....he's CANADIAN!!!.....hehe.....pride man pride.......it sorta reminds me of jap rnb stuff.....but yeah, its a very special song.....after i heard this for the first time, i was like 'woah~!...repeat repeat!!'......i think i'm gonna check his CD out.....its called ~ Morning Orbit ~...go check him out with me =)

Got all the stuff to send my auto ready today.....yep.......i'd really like my own license plate too....too bad i don't have enough time to make it tho.....i'm gonna have it made during chrismas for sure.....i've decided to simply make it 'AIRIK'.......hehe, everybody that ma car!!...........yep, anyhow, i'll be sending it early next week before i leave.....should get it a week or two into skool....

Same shit going on here in Vancouver like last time...nuthin new to talk about....the same ol' do whateva i want.....shopping, driving range (i'm just plain smackin them now ^^), TV, movies, guitar, drums, video games, chatting, eating anything i want....blah blah blah......yeah, not exactly interesting interesting..........just relaxing......getting ready to get back to skool....getting some sleep....... finally enjoyin my chill part of the summer........Will prob see kyle tomorrow....hangout..do something....all good....

haha.....i dunt have anything to talk about.....gonna bed.

Bloggin once again from Vancouver....its great to be back home....haven't stopped downloading songs ever since i got back two nites ago.....just sucking up on the web..chatting, surfin, downloadin all sorts of new music....getting some good rest.......and of course, gettin the 'livin at home' royalties...

Been spending time with rents so far.....groceries....eating out......even went play some golf today....its been such a long time since i've played......no time for stuff like this in college i suppose......didn't exactly play well.....kinda rusty and stuff......but its all good.....i'll prob play again soon enuff.....and i'll pick my game back up.....i like golf........i gotta admit the learning curve is kinda steep....but its great when u get the groove of it and you start to hit some great shots in da game.....

All these new cd's, movies, magazine from HK.........argh...makes me miss home even more.......haven't even had much time for that stuff tho......got lil bro hanging around.....haha.....hes got all these games and anime dvd's......hehe......so geeky......but i've watched 30 more episodes of hunter x hunter in the past two days already........i like warcraft 3 and all, but i guess i just lost the love for the games......too much gaming when i was a kid.......don't even play when i got nuthin to do now....not to mention playing for fun.....

Seems like vancouver has gotten more and more crowded over the past years.....more ppl walking around the streets.....a hella lot more nice looking apts.......and just generally ppl doing stuff all over the place......i've gotten to like this place a whole lot more in the past couple dayz.......it used to be boring and dull..but now its nice and chill..........perfect place to hang out with broz.......

I've changed since when i first started blogging last november-december......yep...i can really see a difference now.....i've gotten to become more in touch with my feelings.....my attitude towards life has changed significantly to a positive perspective........and most important of all, i've gotten to become a happier and relaxed person........i think i've grown...and still growin everyday........i go through everyday making the most and best out of it rather than feeling lonely miserable and depressed......you guyz prob dunt read my blog, but i want to thank my roommates especially for helping me climb out of the shit hole i used to be in back then (you guyz helped me out out of everybody!!)......life was not cool back then.....i was blind..i could not hear....and i lived in a world where my emotions smouldered me......

I'm sick of shallow people.....i'm sick of living in a world where everybody is self absorbed....selflish......and unreal........those ppl that dunt admit their true feelings.....those that live in a totally social world no matter how much they think they don't.........sooo insensitive to others lives.....they dunt understand the true friendships that could be.......all they care is what those other shallow ppl think about them......what other ppl see of them instead of what they really are........all want to be popular...all want to be known....all want to be center of attention......all want to be in the crowd.........urgh..i'm sick...

Music of the Ramble....~~~ The Vines - Get Free ~~~......haha..sorry guyz.....still more rock and alternative......these guyz are somewhat similar to the hives i mentioned earlier a couple blogs ago...

ARIK

Hee.....SHOUT OUT TO BROZ....U GUYz are ALWAYS GReat...u know who u r deep down...