Instruction Set #1 "Self Whitewash":
1. Find a big thick pile of snow
2. Stand 5 meters away from it
3. Run towards it
4. Dive superman style
5. Roll completely around twice
Definitely something you must try with the crew.....mad jackass style....gives you a great adrenaline rush.....those would know...haha..
Thursday, February 13, 2003
blahblahblah....i guess i just feel like typing at the spurt of this moment.....i dunno what i'd like to come up to talk about...but yeah, i'm up here.....and i'm typing as i watch characters pop up on the screen...its sorta cool actually....i'm just sitting back, and just thinking about stuff....typing what i feel or want to say is sorta second nature rite now....hehe...a lil crazy talk to start off my entry....or should i say, hopefully an entry??
eh....say something......(silence)..........nuthin to say......eh.......how about whats on my mind??.......nuthin....hahaha....
i don't feel like bitchin about anything rite now.......theres nuthin to bitch about....lifes been cool for the past couple weeks, just working......taking it all a step at a time...well, actually, a week at a time....its been all good.....spending my free time on the 3 most absorbing activites of all time....TV, music, chatting....yep.......its great....definitely not the best life to live, but i suppose thats what college is all about....getting educated for the 'real money' in this world........i guess i'm gettin the good dosage here......its good to know my time and my family's money isn't being wasted on nuthing.........yep......those that say college is the best time of your life are only those that have shitty jobs.......hehe....
ok....i sorta just blabbered a pointless paragraph....i hate those types of paragraphs......its sorta like the movie "25th hour".....there are good parts here in there, but in the end, its absolutlely pointless...............i suppose some ppl enjoy pointless movies, paragraphs......i'm definitely not one of them.......
vday is coming...i'm waiting on my cookies =))))).......soft pls!!........hahha.....its cool, i'll probably have one cookie.......but it'll be awesome.....somehow, i find that so cool...its so sweet......i dunno.....haha......i have this awesome idea to post a do-it-yourself 'airik' vday gift for everybody to make at home......but that'd spoil stuff for ppl, i guess it won't make it up here this year.....maybe next time.......however, if you're my friend, msg me about it (yes both M/F are fine..its an act of friendship)....and i'll make sure i let you know the details....
aiteout.
eh....say something......(silence)..........nuthin to say......eh.......how about whats on my mind??.......nuthin....hahaha....
i don't feel like bitchin about anything rite now.......theres nuthin to bitch about....lifes been cool for the past couple weeks, just working......taking it all a step at a time...well, actually, a week at a time....its been all good.....spending my free time on the 3 most absorbing activites of all time....TV, music, chatting....yep.......its great....definitely not the best life to live, but i suppose thats what college is all about....getting educated for the 'real money' in this world........i guess i'm gettin the good dosage here......its good to know my time and my family's money isn't being wasted on nuthing.........yep......those that say college is the best time of your life are only those that have shitty jobs.......hehe....
ok....i sorta just blabbered a pointless paragraph....i hate those types of paragraphs......its sorta like the movie "25th hour".....there are good parts here in there, but in the end, its absolutlely pointless...............i suppose some ppl enjoy pointless movies, paragraphs......i'm definitely not one of them.......
vday is coming...i'm waiting on my cookies =))))).......soft pls!!........hahha.....its cool, i'll probably have one cookie.......but it'll be awesome.....somehow, i find that so cool...its so sweet......i dunno.....haha......i have this awesome idea to post a do-it-yourself 'airik' vday gift for everybody to make at home......but that'd spoil stuff for ppl, i guess it won't make it up here this year.....maybe next time.......however, if you're my friend, msg me about it (yes both M/F are fine..its an act of friendship)....and i'll make sure i let you know the details....
aiteout.
Wednesday, February 12, 2003
~~~ My Friends - Red Hot Chilli Peppers ~~~ tis song for my bros.....it for the "fui" society....but i think our teenage depressions are over already by now...anywayz, i got this one down on my guitar for you guyz....
~~~ Fila Brazilia - Nightmare on Wax ~~~....probably one of FB's finest songs.....its real downtemp, so recommended for those that like that stuff only...
haha...not bothered to blog now...
Sunday, February 09, 2003
Ec4K: did you have snow day yesterday?
Ec4K: we had snow day over here
Sukendar: yeah nasty
Ec4K: yep
Ec4K: it was
Sukendar: still eat snow with gatorade?
Ec4K: hahahah
Ec4K: ......
Ec4K: i told you that?
Sukendar: man, you eat that on the way back to crossley from gym
Sukendar: i was like "shit man, we're around nuclear area"
Ec4K: oh shit
Ec4K: haha
Ec4K: its good yo
Ec4k: ging jeng ging jeng ar..
Sukendar: .......
Sukendar: nuclear snow
Ec4K: ......
Ec4K: gum doh duk?
Ec4K: we had snow day over here
Sukendar: yeah nasty
Ec4K: yep
Ec4K: it was
Sukendar: still eat snow with gatorade?
Ec4K: hahahah
Ec4K: ......
Ec4K: i told you that?
Sukendar: man, you eat that on the way back to crossley from gym
Sukendar: i was like "shit man, we're around nuclear area"
Ec4K: oh shit
Ec4K: haha
Ec4K: its good yo
Ec4k: ging jeng ging jeng ar..
Sukendar: .......
Sukendar: nuclear snow
Ec4K: ......
Ec4K: gum doh duk?
Saturday, February 08, 2003
My Baby
I missed my baby. Its been a while since i last time i gave it a good stroking. The last time being december 7th 2002...when its strings snapped on me.....Now that my break is over, the bridge is fixed and its strings have been replaced.......its once again in the hands of its beholder!!! Playing the guitar is in some ways very similar to playing basketball...there are good days and bad days......sometimes the chords and notes feel ever so fresh....you know, feel and hear that you're just rocking the house with it in your hands.......its like being 'in the zone' when you play bball......everything all of a sudden becomes so easy to execute.....you play with perfect timing...you can hear what the guitar will do long before it screams out of the amplifier.......
All throughout the Christmas and all of Jan 03'...i've been playing an acoustic....i suppose it was good technique training........the strings are stiffer......the notes are harder to play.....i suppose the acoustic is a more sturdy, edgier and down to earth guitar compared to the electric......so for the first time, in nearly two months, i plugged in my electric and rocked!!........i was just killin it.......
For those that don't know......i have a sorta glossy purple guitar.....its an Ibanez SA 170.....it has an ultra thin fretboard and neck.....the radius of the neck is really small, which allows for very comfortable soloing.....i've definitely been accustomed to it by now........its weight, its finish, its feel..........i love it.
~~~ Always with me Always with you - Joe Satriani ~~~....for guitar crazes only......
I missed my baby. Its been a while since i last time i gave it a good stroking. The last time being december 7th 2002...when its strings snapped on me.....Now that my break is over, the bridge is fixed and its strings have been replaced.......its once again in the hands of its beholder!!! Playing the guitar is in some ways very similar to playing basketball...there are good days and bad days......sometimes the chords and notes feel ever so fresh....you know, feel and hear that you're just rocking the house with it in your hands.......its like being 'in the zone' when you play bball......everything all of a sudden becomes so easy to execute.....you play with perfect timing...you can hear what the guitar will do long before it screams out of the amplifier.......
All throughout the Christmas and all of Jan 03'...i've been playing an acoustic....i suppose it was good technique training........the strings are stiffer......the notes are harder to play.....i suppose the acoustic is a more sturdy, edgier and down to earth guitar compared to the electric......so for the first time, in nearly two months, i plugged in my electric and rocked!!........i was just killin it.......
For those that don't know......i have a sorta glossy purple guitar.....its an Ibanez SA 170.....it has an ultra thin fretboard and neck.....the radius of the neck is really small, which allows for very comfortable soloing.....i've definitely been accustomed to it by now........its weight, its finish, its feel..........i love it.
~~~ Always with me Always with you - Joe Satriani ~~~....for guitar crazes only......
A lots been around yo. Time is gone in a blink of an eye. Weekdays have been just packed with school, getting my life in order and getting as much sleep as i can in between. While over the weekends, i bum around and i sit at my desk trying to get my work done ready for my next jackass weekend. That'd be presidents day weekend.....hehe...
My parents just left his morning. Damn, if only i had a digital camera, i absolutely need a "before and after" fridge pic...hehe.....i swear i am stocked up......i have everything to keep me alive for the rest of the semester....
Talking about my parents, i think they had a decent stay at Baltimore this week....Haha......I don't talk to my dad as often as i do to my mom, but I just realized over the week that my dad is like da shit.....seriously......like, he doesn't give a f*** about anything other than what he does.....in many ways, i think he's sorta like how ozzy osbourne functions.....he's rich, he can do whateva he wants...........all he does is make money (music in ozzys case)......its funny cuz he can't do anything else without taking the longest time to figure out how stuff works.......he's normally sooooo slow, but he's just like *clicked* when it comes to work......seriously, i just watch him at home....and he's just living and enjoying what he's worked for his whole life.........I wanna be like that someday......even if it means to lose most of the other aspects of my life.....i can simply just chill.......my mom is like the no.1 house wife of all.....shes dedicated to keeping the family together and she basically does what a man would want a women to do........shes home when you're home......she's out taking care of her stuff and not bothering you while you're at work......man......thats cool.......to be fully dedicated til the point you lose control of other stuff...which is 'alrite' cause you are supported by your full dedication........i'd like to be like that maybe 20 years later.....
We own such radical minds......its crazy.......a while back, volcom 3 and i were just talking.....and i mentioned how our minds control so much of what we feel......the best example being the "sitting in class theory" (haha..more airik theory)......like you know how you often get real tired and unfocused towards the end of the class.....this is the thing......why always towards the end of class??.......if we sit through a 50min class, you often don't look at your watch (starting to feel unfocused) until at least the 30-40min point.........while if you're sitting at a 3 hour class, you almost always don't look at your watch til at least after an hour is through.......doesn't make sense rite?.....don't we normally lose concentration depending on time and material we study??.........inside our minds, we always get mentally prepared for what is to come.........so what if we live life without such restrictions??....what if we goto a 50min class with a mind set that is prepared to sit for 3 straight hours??......then would we sit through class focused all the way til you're told class is over?!
Theres this imaginary girl in my mind. I'm starting to believe that she'll never exist in my life. Shes cute, shes fine, and best of all she see things so differently...its as if i sometimes feel like i live parallel lives she does.........some of you that know me might know what i'm talking about.....its like the total package......top to bottom....outside inside....backside frontside..........shes not the type that might just happen to walk by you yesterday or last week.......i'm talkin about the type that you probably wouldn't meet in just one life time.....life is too short.....those that you meet are too random..........i'll know if i ever stumble across this girl....i'd feel it deep inside, and i wouldn't be embarrassed to go up to her, say 'hi' and truly be myself........this no girl that you just hold onto for spiritual, emotional, sexual or physical support.....
Airik.
My parents just left his morning. Damn, if only i had a digital camera, i absolutely need a "before and after" fridge pic...hehe.....i swear i am stocked up......i have everything to keep me alive for the rest of the semester....
Talking about my parents, i think they had a decent stay at Baltimore this week....Haha......I don't talk to my dad as often as i do to my mom, but I just realized over the week that my dad is like da shit.....seriously......like, he doesn't give a f*** about anything other than what he does.....in many ways, i think he's sorta like how ozzy osbourne functions.....he's rich, he can do whateva he wants...........all he does is make money (music in ozzys case)......its funny cuz he can't do anything else without taking the longest time to figure out how stuff works.......he's normally sooooo slow, but he's just like *clicked* when it comes to work......seriously, i just watch him at home....and he's just living and enjoying what he's worked for his whole life.........I wanna be like that someday......even if it means to lose most of the other aspects of my life.....i can simply just chill.......my mom is like the no.1 house wife of all.....shes dedicated to keeping the family together and she basically does what a man would want a women to do........shes home when you're home......she's out taking care of her stuff and not bothering you while you're at work......man......thats cool.......to be fully dedicated til the point you lose control of other stuff...which is 'alrite' cause you are supported by your full dedication........i'd like to be like that maybe 20 years later.....
We own such radical minds......its crazy.......a while back, volcom 3 and i were just talking.....and i mentioned how our minds control so much of what we feel......the best example being the "sitting in class theory" (haha..more airik theory)......like you know how you often get real tired and unfocused towards the end of the class.....this is the thing......why always towards the end of class??.......if we sit through a 50min class, you often don't look at your watch (starting to feel unfocused) until at least the 30-40min point.........while if you're sitting at a 3 hour class, you almost always don't look at your watch til at least after an hour is through.......doesn't make sense rite?.....don't we normally lose concentration depending on time and material we study??.........inside our minds, we always get mentally prepared for what is to come.........so what if we live life without such restrictions??....what if we goto a 50min class with a mind set that is prepared to sit for 3 straight hours??......then would we sit through class focused all the way til you're told class is over?!
Theres this imaginary girl in my mind. I'm starting to believe that she'll never exist in my life. Shes cute, shes fine, and best of all she see things so differently...its as if i sometimes feel like i live parallel lives she does.........some of you that know me might know what i'm talking about.....its like the total package......top to bottom....outside inside....backside frontside..........shes not the type that might just happen to walk by you yesterday or last week.......i'm talkin about the type that you probably wouldn't meet in just one life time.....life is too short.....those that you meet are too random..........i'll know if i ever stumble across this girl....i'd feel it deep inside, and i wouldn't be embarrassed to go up to her, say 'hi' and truly be myself........this no girl that you just hold onto for spiritual, emotional, sexual or physical support.....
Airik.
Monday, February 03, 2003
yesyesyes....first of all...music for those that only visit this site for that purpose.....erm....i got time....i'll try to drop a couple...
~~~ You Don't Miss Your Water ('Til The Well Runs Dry) - Craig David ~~~....yesyesyes..its CD again...i actually got his new album the 1st week it came out...i just never spent the time to listen to the whole thing.........tiz actually a pretty good CD, don't understand why he aint getting much MTV and radio time for it.....
~~~ Take me away (into the night) - 4 Strings ~~~.....i'm out of the trance scene already........i'm sure every clubber has heard of this club-hit millions of times and thinks its cheesy as hell.....but whateva.....
~~~ Heavy Metal Drummer - Wilco ~~~....i've always wanted to put this song up.....its good....its rock...aint got much to say about it....
~~~ Norah Jones ~~~ errrrr.......get the album...its all recommended...haha......
I think i'm still in la-la land.....the past month has just been awesome.....it just gets better and better....seriously....the last of which was chinese new year at NYC....haha....yes, its in my blog now......lei tiu yau....ging cheat.......haha...and double S...ging wan winning11.....haha....ging jeng ging jeng...ging diu....
I haven't been that trashed in a while man.....i swear to god....if i recall that last time was at LA last summer?!.......my drive back to skool felt like an hour or so......i was hung over and i phased out most the trip......eventhough my pockets are pretty much dry by now, i had an "awesome" (yes, awesome!~!) time......and of course, thank those that made it such a wonderful time for me.....
I'm happy with the way i am as of now. My confidence is back and Mr. nice guy is gone. I feel like i've pretty much gotten rid of my ji-bai shit by now. Eventho I'm in a lotta ways a lot more not caring now, when it comes down to it, i'm living a life i'm happy with. And that matters. I'd rather spend more time talking and doing what i want to do rather than having to stop and realize how vunerable i'd be if i did it.
Its funny to know that since my trip back to hongkong, i've suddenly gotten so much closer back with my azn connection. Listenning to chinese music, reading entertainment magazines, speaking and chatting in chinese......even my blog aint exactly the same.....i used to hardly use chinese syllables when i write......i'm glad i've unknowingly made this change.......i seriously didn't realize i was so "american" before the holidays.....
Mommy and Daddy will be here tomorrow. Soooo hectic, a visit after another. Doesn't stop does it?
Congrats to my bitch. another new point of interest. haha. Yep, Umaryland.
AIRIK.
oh, yeah...She f**** hates me. hehe.
~~~ You Don't Miss Your Water ('Til The Well Runs Dry) - Craig David ~~~....yesyesyes..its CD again...i actually got his new album the 1st week it came out...i just never spent the time to listen to the whole thing.........tiz actually a pretty good CD, don't understand why he aint getting much MTV and radio time for it.....
~~~ Take me away (into the night) - 4 Strings ~~~.....i'm out of the trance scene already........i'm sure every clubber has heard of this club-hit millions of times and thinks its cheesy as hell.....but whateva.....
~~~ Heavy Metal Drummer - Wilco ~~~....i've always wanted to put this song up.....its good....its rock...aint got much to say about it....
~~~ Norah Jones ~~~ errrrr.......get the album...its all recommended...haha......
I think i'm still in la-la land.....the past month has just been awesome.....it just gets better and better....seriously....the last of which was chinese new year at NYC....haha....yes, its in my blog now......lei tiu yau....ging cheat.......haha...and double S...ging wan winning11.....haha....ging jeng ging jeng...ging diu....
I haven't been that trashed in a while man.....i swear to god....if i recall that last time was at LA last summer?!.......my drive back to skool felt like an hour or so......i was hung over and i phased out most the trip......eventhough my pockets are pretty much dry by now, i had an "awesome" (yes, awesome!~!) time......and of course, thank those that made it such a wonderful time for me.....
I'm happy with the way i am as of now. My confidence is back and Mr. nice guy is gone. I feel like i've pretty much gotten rid of my ji-bai shit by now. Eventho I'm in a lotta ways a lot more not caring now, when it comes down to it, i'm living a life i'm happy with. And that matters. I'd rather spend more time talking and doing what i want to do rather than having to stop and realize how vunerable i'd be if i did it.
Its funny to know that since my trip back to hongkong, i've suddenly gotten so much closer back with my azn connection. Listenning to chinese music, reading entertainment magazines, speaking and chatting in chinese......even my blog aint exactly the same.....i used to hardly use chinese syllables when i write......i'm glad i've unknowingly made this change.......i seriously didn't realize i was so "american" before the holidays.....
Mommy and Daddy will be here tomorrow. Soooo hectic, a visit after another. Doesn't stop does it?
Congrats to my bitch. another new point of interest. haha. Yep, Umaryland.
AIRIK.
oh, yeah...She f**** hates me. hehe.
Wednesday, January 29, 2003
ok...i'm finally back at skool....to be more precise, i'm back at skool and classes have started......to be even more precise, i'm back at school and classes have started for 2 big days already......
I had a crazy holiday. It was awesome (haha...awesome this awesome that)......it was a hella an adventure i suppose.........3 weeks back in hongkong just doing my thing .....getting my life back into order i call it......lesson learned: never ever ever leave your home like that again!!!.........and everybody was telling me i was crazy for not going home......i think i finally realize what they mean by that now........
so yeah...there was sorta an attempt to blog this one time on christmas day......it was hard.....it was spilt milk.....i had nuthin to blog about...and what i did think about did not cut into blog.......you know, the "keep it private" stuff........i propose i turn into another person everytime i go back to hongkong.........so much more outgoing, less emotional, less in touch with feelings, more energetic, more wild....all in all, its a different me........i think i like hongkong airik slightly more......i'm more confident, less caring about the details......
And i thought there was no such better place than my room back at home.....nah-nah-nah.....i think my apartment at skool now stands a good fight...or maybe its better?!....one thing for sure, i feel like i'm in no better place to be when i'm home in my apartment or in my room in hongkong.......i feel so free.....its awesome to feel like you're safe and sheltered away from the darkness lingering in this world.....just being alone or hanging out with "those friends".......you know who you are...
1st week of holiday was just shocking. I couldn't speak cantonese properly, i couldn't communicate properly....i felt like i had tape across my mouth.........i wouldn't know how to react to things...i wouldn't know what to say.........i mean, seriously....wtf?!!..........thats not cool man......thats not me in my world.......i felt like everything was just so ahead of me.....fashion.....people....technology.....bars...clubs...........it got a hella lot better towards the end of the holiday....after a trip to tokyo.....hanging out with the same bunch.... again, lesson learned: go home from now on!!!
TRIP TO TOKYO W/ FAMILY...=)))))))))))) period
All sorts of trips before skool started..........mad jackass.....ging jeng!! chiu jeng!!.......pittsburgh, boston, nyc........nyc again this weekend?!...hey, its chinese new year!!
I think i lost my thing for music.....hopefully it'll return this semster.....but sad enough, i can't write no more....i don't feel the music in my bones anymore........not that i don't like it, but i'm not as interested as i used to be......was it just a phase??........i don't listen to it as much as i used to anymore.....
HongKong is not for the weak hearted. This holiday, i realized how others in hongkong feel about things i never used to before. Is it becuz i grew up? Or is it becuz i've changed from my long absent from home? Sometimes when you feel like its so hard to do something the first couple times you do it, you don't understand you're only a step away from having it come together where it all makes sense. The later you try to make it work, the harder it becomes....and at some point...you give up. I feel like i fought a long battle this holiday.
okok..its getting late....blah....nite ppl.
~~~ Air - Playground Love ~~~
Erik.
I had a crazy holiday. It was awesome (haha...awesome this awesome that)......it was a hella an adventure i suppose.........3 weeks back in hongkong just doing my thing .....getting my life back into order i call it......lesson learned: never ever ever leave your home like that again!!!.........and everybody was telling me i was crazy for not going home......i think i finally realize what they mean by that now........
so yeah...there was sorta an attempt to blog this one time on christmas day......it was hard.....it was spilt milk.....i had nuthin to blog about...and what i did think about did not cut into blog.......you know, the "keep it private" stuff........i propose i turn into another person everytime i go back to hongkong.........so much more outgoing, less emotional, less in touch with feelings, more energetic, more wild....all in all, its a different me........i think i like hongkong airik slightly more......i'm more confident, less caring about the details......
And i thought there was no such better place than my room back at home.....nah-nah-nah.....i think my apartment at skool now stands a good fight...or maybe its better?!....one thing for sure, i feel like i'm in no better place to be when i'm home in my apartment or in my room in hongkong.......i feel so free.....its awesome to feel like you're safe and sheltered away from the darkness lingering in this world.....just being alone or hanging out with "those friends".......you know who you are...
1st week of holiday was just shocking. I couldn't speak cantonese properly, i couldn't communicate properly....i felt like i had tape across my mouth.........i wouldn't know how to react to things...i wouldn't know what to say.........i mean, seriously....wtf?!!..........thats not cool man......thats not me in my world.......i felt like everything was just so ahead of me.....fashion.....people....technology.....bars...clubs...........it got a hella lot better towards the end of the holiday....after a trip to tokyo.....hanging out with the same bunch.... again, lesson learned: go home from now on!!!
TRIP TO TOKYO W/ FAMILY...=)))))))))))) period
All sorts of trips before skool started..........mad jackass.....ging jeng!! chiu jeng!!.......pittsburgh, boston, nyc........nyc again this weekend?!...hey, its chinese new year!!
I think i lost my thing for music.....hopefully it'll return this semster.....but sad enough, i can't write no more....i don't feel the music in my bones anymore........not that i don't like it, but i'm not as interested as i used to be......was it just a phase??........i don't listen to it as much as i used to anymore.....
HongKong is not for the weak hearted. This holiday, i realized how others in hongkong feel about things i never used to before. Is it becuz i grew up? Or is it becuz i've changed from my long absent from home? Sometimes when you feel like its so hard to do something the first couple times you do it, you don't understand you're only a step away from having it come together where it all makes sense. The later you try to make it work, the harder it becomes....and at some point...you give up. I feel like i fought a long battle this holiday.
okok..its getting late....blah....nite ppl.
~~~ Air - Playground Love ~~~
Erik.
Thursday, December 26, 2002
Home
soooo hectic.....everyday back at home is like a whole new experience on its own......ten things accomplished in 24 hours instead of three.......
everything has changed.....my friends, my house, my family, my life, hongkong, and me........theres so much going on....i don't have time to waste and blog...
soooo hectic.....everyday back at home is like a whole new experience on its own......ten things accomplished in 24 hours instead of three.......
everything has changed.....my friends, my house, my family, my life, hongkong, and me........theres so much going on....i don't have time to waste and blog...
Saturday, December 14, 2002
Luck to phyfound.
~~~ Our Lady Peace - Imagine (live) ~~~
Its weird, i'm actually a pretty logical person....but i was thinking to myself just now....how come i hate pictures of any sort - related to human flesh and stuff......its only natural right??....so it should be ok to see natural things rite?!..
I heard from somebody that if you close your eyes and say 'home' ten times, you might open your eyes to find out that you just woke up at home on a Sunday.......................................dope......nevamind...
~~~ Our Lady Peace - Imagine (live) ~~~
Its weird, i'm actually a pretty logical person....but i was thinking to myself just now....how come i hate pictures of any sort - related to human flesh and stuff......its only natural right??....so it should be ok to see natural things rite?!..
I heard from somebody that if you close your eyes and say 'home' ten times, you might open your eyes to find out that you just woke up at home on a Sunday.......................................dope......nevamind...
I'm up again.....to hide away from the evil karma that spreads into every BME whose irritated by the amount and difficulty of this class.........not that the material is super duper hard, but its definitely a hell of a lot..........and yeah, the thing is that its actually only basic BME stuff.....i personally think its a lil too much for me to handle.....but then again, this is hopkins bme, i have no more to say......this stuff should really be for those that have a deep appreciation for biology and engineering....
Haha....if this can only be a guitar exam instead, i'd be busy practicing day in day out throughout the year.......killing all exams as i see.....
While i'm on the subject of doing things that you like/appreciate......i think i'm definitely a loser when it comes to this category.......i know what i want all the time, but i never happen to be doing that when it comes to work......studying all sorts of random math, science, bio, blah blah has never really been my thing.........i just kinda study it.....cuz its called work......and you're not supposed to like it........i sorta just suck up whateva i need to study.....learn whateva is given to get through it............sometimes, i wonder if i'll ever be satisfied with the work i have in my life.......especially, after college, when i finally find a job out there in the real world........i know i have so much drive and self-motivation when it comes to something i like (for example music)......but what about doing something that'll let me get a good paycheck too??..........every once in a while, i wonder to myself.... i just have to have hope.........i just have to rely on the fact that this world is sooooo damn big, theres so much money going around.....and that there'll be one position out there that'll make the best out of me ( and also gimme that fat paycheck).....
I want to write about daily thingys here......its been a while since i've blogged about some more simpler issues like what i've been doing and all........the thing is, there really isn't much tho.......i study when i'm up.....i eat when i must.....and i avoid work by sleeping long hours til i can't fall asleep anymore...........period...........shit, what else is there to say?.......erm.......some more less important things include my guitar strings broke........i fell on my ass cuz of some ice on the floor..........i sold my new mp3/cd player and cell fone on ebay and plan to get new ones when i go back home..........erm.........some even less important things includes: i've been averaging 3 bottles of water a day....i've been watching men & women NCAA soccer on ESPN.......oh yeah, and also, i'm trying to waste time and avoid studying by talking about irrelevant matters on my blog......
.....
....
...
haha....i'm an A+ when it comes to keeping myself entertained.....
Anywayz......time for some music everybody??.......lemme see......wah i got for you all today........
~~~ Dishwalla - Every Little Thing ~~~......i don't quite remember if i put this one on before.......erm........yeah.....i'll choose another just in case i did before already.......
~~~ Travis - Side ~~~.....ok....if i've already put this one up too before.....then i'm sorry, life will have to go on for you.....
bye.
Haha....if this can only be a guitar exam instead, i'd be busy practicing day in day out throughout the year.......killing all exams as i see.....
While i'm on the subject of doing things that you like/appreciate......i think i'm definitely a loser when it comes to this category.......i know what i want all the time, but i never happen to be doing that when it comes to work......studying all sorts of random math, science, bio, blah blah has never really been my thing.........i just kinda study it.....cuz its called work......and you're not supposed to like it........i sorta just suck up whateva i need to study.....learn whateva is given to get through it............sometimes, i wonder if i'll ever be satisfied with the work i have in my life.......especially, after college, when i finally find a job out there in the real world........i know i have so much drive and self-motivation when it comes to something i like (for example music)......but what about doing something that'll let me get a good paycheck too??..........every once in a while, i wonder to myself.... i just have to have hope.........i just have to rely on the fact that this world is sooooo damn big, theres so much money going around.....and that there'll be one position out there that'll make the best out of me ( and also gimme that fat paycheck).....
I want to write about daily thingys here......its been a while since i've blogged about some more simpler issues like what i've been doing and all........the thing is, there really isn't much tho.......i study when i'm up.....i eat when i must.....and i avoid work by sleeping long hours til i can't fall asleep anymore...........period...........shit, what else is there to say?.......erm.......some more less important things include my guitar strings broke........i fell on my ass cuz of some ice on the floor..........i sold my new mp3/cd player and cell fone on ebay and plan to get new ones when i go back home..........erm.........some even less important things includes: i've been averaging 3 bottles of water a day....i've been watching men & women NCAA soccer on ESPN.......oh yeah, and also, i'm trying to waste time and avoid studying by talking about irrelevant matters on my blog......
.....
....
...
haha....i'm an A+ when it comes to keeping myself entertained.....
Anywayz......time for some music everybody??.......lemme see......wah i got for you all today........
~~~ Dishwalla - Every Little Thing ~~~......i don't quite remember if i put this one on before.......erm........yeah.....i'll choose another just in case i did before already.......
~~~ Travis - Side ~~~.....ok....if i've already put this one up too before.....then i'm sorry, life will have to go on for you.....
bye.
Friday, December 13, 2002
Back. It seriously took a bit this time to push myself to come up here. Haha.....phyfound? or blog? that is the question....haha....believe me (giving you the stern look)....I was soooo close to phyfound......unimaginably close.....i guess, it was this guys xanga that tipped the iceberg......for the first time in my life, I read a diary that actually made sense to me.....theres still hope...theres still ppl out there that have a clear honest true character...
I need to study....yes, i do....so much to learn and so lil brain to do it.....there seems to be a constant battle inside my head to push myself to sit at the studying table to start studying.....this one time during this week of studying, i pushed myself so hard i felt sick....I keep telling myself, theres only one exam left (ok, the hardest one by far too)....i tell you, this is exactly what goes on inside my head.....INSIDE: just this little bit more left airik!!....push push push....don't fall now airik!!...you're so close....push push push......if you want to show you're strong you push it.........don't let anything stop you.....just push on and you'll be fone....
So yeah, i'm currently dead sick......homesick too.....i miss home...my life back home...my friends......hongkong is seriously my source of confidence.......to know that I have a whole life back home waiting for me every break.......And more importantly, after I get out of my supposedly good education in america....it makes me feel so much better........
I haven't been home for too long....i need to go back and make stuff happen the way it used to be always when i go back.....
hah...its funny how since i made it to hopkins, i never thought studying a week before a midterm/exam was unusal....(ok, i feel like i'm backtracking my earlier phyfound thoughts........
.....
....wow....
....
....i have stuff to say again....holy god.....i actually feel like writing.....
......
....thats what i've been trying to say again and again for the past couple months....that feeling of wanting to write....
....)
.....anywayz, yeah.......i sound like i'm crazy when i tell people i plan to study usually a week or half a week before my tests depending on the difficulty of the test......i always thought most ppl spent that much time too......
this leads me to my 2nd thing.......i'm glad I found out who i am this semester......yep...when you goto college, you do find that you have your own path to take....whilst in the middle of your own, you find that everybody is just taking their own path......they do cross yours....meet up with yours...try to mess with yours.........for better part, I know what i'm doing........as much as i am an outkast.....as much as ppl tell me I'm wrong for what i am (yes, and thank those ppl....i do look at myself and sculpt myself accordingly).......i know what i'm doing...........i know my goals.....i know i'm living the way i'm supposed to.....its definitely not perfect....i am wrong everyday......let me say again, if that i didn't make myself clear enough.....i am wrong all the time!!!........the thing is i have control over myself every single individual day......every tomorrow, I live to live a better life that i previously did......not to only make up for the past....but for the better well being of myself and those that would appreciate that better well being of mine.......
"if i want to talk, I would first have to spend all my time defending what needs to be said".....i don't want to waste my time having to defend what i have to say this time.........whether it is taken the correct way or not... i cannot judge.....i can only hope those that don't would take the time to understand....
there are ppl in this world that can't face the reality.......there are also a lot of ppl in this world that can't face up to the things they do or say........they avoid/back up what they have behind the light...behind what they think of as "too real" or too much to deal with..... they deem themselves as too chill to have the guts to have things the way they want in an honest open fashion.......and to answer all your prayers before more 'uptite' or any other such symbols are called out behind the curtain, i would like to open any discussion regarding anything i do say........i'm sorry, but not being able to confront your personal dislikes is just sad.....not to mention, not understanding that you're only a dislike of yourself is even worse.........all in all, don't be fake.....and don't hate...
to respond to those that are 'chill':......why are you going to class?? why do you goto skool??..why do you take exams??...why don't you just sit on your ass so that your parents can pay for the rest of your nonexistant education?.....or have you been contradicting yourself with what you've been labeling others with?
phyfound needs me.
Erik.
I need to study....yes, i do....so much to learn and so lil brain to do it.....there seems to be a constant battle inside my head to push myself to sit at the studying table to start studying.....this one time during this week of studying, i pushed myself so hard i felt sick....I keep telling myself, theres only one exam left (ok, the hardest one by far too)....i tell you, this is exactly what goes on inside my head.....INSIDE: just this little bit more left airik!!....push push push....don't fall now airik!!...you're so close....push push push......if you want to show you're strong you push it.........don't let anything stop you.....just push on and you'll be fone....
So yeah, i'm currently dead sick......homesick too.....i miss home...my life back home...my friends......hongkong is seriously my source of confidence.......to know that I have a whole life back home waiting for me every break.......And more importantly, after I get out of my supposedly good education in america....it makes me feel so much better........
I haven't been home for too long....i need to go back and make stuff happen the way it used to be always when i go back.....
hah...its funny how since i made it to hopkins, i never thought studying a week before a midterm/exam was unusal....(ok, i feel like i'm backtracking my earlier phyfound thoughts........
.....
....wow....
....
....i have stuff to say again....holy god.....i actually feel like writing.....
......
....thats what i've been trying to say again and again for the past couple months....that feeling of wanting to write....
....)
.....anywayz, yeah.......i sound like i'm crazy when i tell people i plan to study usually a week or half a week before my tests depending on the difficulty of the test......i always thought most ppl spent that much time too......
this leads me to my 2nd thing.......i'm glad I found out who i am this semester......yep...when you goto college, you do find that you have your own path to take....whilst in the middle of your own, you find that everybody is just taking their own path......they do cross yours....meet up with yours...try to mess with yours.........for better part, I know what i'm doing........as much as i am an outkast.....as much as ppl tell me I'm wrong for what i am (yes, and thank those ppl....i do look at myself and sculpt myself accordingly).......i know what i'm doing...........i know my goals.....i know i'm living the way i'm supposed to.....its definitely not perfect....i am wrong everyday......let me say again, if that i didn't make myself clear enough.....i am wrong all the time!!!........the thing is i have control over myself every single individual day......every tomorrow, I live to live a better life that i previously did......not to only make up for the past....but for the better well being of myself and those that would appreciate that better well being of mine.......
"if i want to talk, I would first have to spend all my time defending what needs to be said".....i don't want to waste my time having to defend what i have to say this time.........whether it is taken the correct way or not... i cannot judge.....i can only hope those that don't would take the time to understand....
there are ppl in this world that can't face the reality.......there are also a lot of ppl in this world that can't face up to the things they do or say........they avoid/back up what they have behind the light...behind what they think of as "too real" or too much to deal with..... they deem themselves as too chill to have the guts to have things the way they want in an honest open fashion.......and to answer all your prayers before more 'uptite' or any other such symbols are called out behind the curtain, i would like to open any discussion regarding anything i do say........i'm sorry, but not being able to confront your personal dislikes is just sad.....not to mention, not understanding that you're only a dislike of yourself is even worse.........all in all, don't be fake.....and don't hate...
to respond to those that are 'chill':......why are you going to class?? why do you goto skool??..why do you take exams??...why don't you just sit on your ass so that your parents can pay for the rest of your nonexistant education?.....or have you been contradicting yourself with what you've been labeling others with?
phyfound needs me.
Erik.
Tuesday, December 10, 2002
i dunt come up here nemore......things have changed.....i don't have the urge to blog nemore...i think i have better things to do now......i think i've changed both in some ways more and in some ways less this semster....its hard to explain....its crazytalk.....definitely living alone at my lovely apartment has influenced the way i am and think.......
I think i've become back to more of a serious person (uptight!! yes!!) this semester.....so much more determined and straight forward with what needs to be done....I feel thats more erik....thats the way i've always been, and it seems like life works better for me this way......'to chill' is like something i've been through during phases and i guess its just not my thing........a reason why i say this is because I look back to my previous blogs.....and i was just thinking how immature i was then......its like, no matter what i say, I've opened myself to signs of stubborness..........however, before, i used to look back at my blogs and liked exactly what i wrote on each and every blog...
Then again.....its just a thought.....maybe i'm still the punk i was......
~~~ Lifehouse - Spin ~~~......repeated again and again on my comp....its darn good......my world makes much more sense when i listen to this song.......its been keeping me alive....
I'M GOING HOME SOON. WOW.
i love thanxgiving....i do.....i remember a couple years back.....back in the day of misery...those same ol days at northfield......i always had such a good time during thxngiving........going to NYC....visiting my bro......going shopping...eating at nice restaurants......those are the type of times i'll always remember........they go by sooooo quickly too....but yet, after its over, in your memory you feel like that was the longest time ever...so action packed...did so much shit.........the thing is, its only a weekend like everyother each week.............its like, when you go back to skool....meet back up with hell.....you feel like you were away for two weeks or something.......thats what a good time is all about....hehe....azn jackass....
aite...late.
one of couple last blogs.
Erik
I think i've become back to more of a serious person (uptight!! yes!!) this semester.....so much more determined and straight forward with what needs to be done....I feel thats more erik....thats the way i've always been, and it seems like life works better for me this way......'to chill' is like something i've been through during phases and i guess its just not my thing........a reason why i say this is because I look back to my previous blogs.....and i was just thinking how immature i was then......its like, no matter what i say, I've opened myself to signs of stubborness..........however, before, i used to look back at my blogs and liked exactly what i wrote on each and every blog...
Then again.....its just a thought.....maybe i'm still the punk i was......
~~~ Lifehouse - Spin ~~~......repeated again and again on my comp....its darn good......my world makes much more sense when i listen to this song.......its been keeping me alive....
I'M GOING HOME SOON. WOW.
i love thanxgiving....i do.....i remember a couple years back.....back in the day of misery...those same ol days at northfield......i always had such a good time during thxngiving........going to NYC....visiting my bro......going shopping...eating at nice restaurants......those are the type of times i'll always remember........they go by sooooo quickly too....but yet, after its over, in your memory you feel like that was the longest time ever...so action packed...did so much shit.........the thing is, its only a weekend like everyother each week.............its like, when you go back to skool....meet back up with hell.....you feel like you were away for two weeks or something.......thats what a good time is all about....hehe....azn jackass....
aite...late.
one of couple last blogs.
Erik
Tuesday, November 26, 2002
Airik: dude man
this sounds like the gayest shit
but ev and you are fukin great
i honestly don't think my life would be half as much without you guyz
Ron: hahhaha what's the sudden burst of emotion but true same here
Airik: when life sux
Airik: i can turn to you two foos
Airik: thats fukin what life should be all about
Airik: the connection between one and other
Airik: none that fukin material shit we have
Airik: or want to own
Ron: yeah man that's what friends are for that's why i always watch friends
Airik: .........
Airik: ok
Airik: you can go away now
Airik: gonna find ev
Ron: fucl you man
this sounds like the gayest shit
but ev and you are fukin great
i honestly don't think my life would be half as much without you guyz
Ron: hahhaha what's the sudden burst of emotion but true same here
Airik: when life sux
Airik: i can turn to you two foos
Airik: thats fukin what life should be all about
Airik: the connection between one and other
Airik: none that fukin material shit we have
Airik: or want to own
Ron: yeah man that's what friends are for that's why i always watch friends
Airik: .........
Airik: ok
Airik: you can go away now
Airik: gonna find ev
Ron: fucl you man
Sunday, November 24, 2002
my computer broke down yesterday......58 viruses....an assortment of medulla, something horse, and mostly worm klez h......was bad...this is something i hate.....to wake up and findout your computer is messed up....and then to spend the rest of the day fixing it....
In the end, i had no choice but to format my drive.....ahn jo man.....all cuz of that stupid email attachment.......it might as well just eat me.....
I hate food......food sux.....
In the end, i had no choice but to format my drive.....ahn jo man.....all cuz of that stupid email attachment.......it might as well just eat me.....
I hate food......food sux.....
Friday, November 22, 2002
I buzzed my hair......haha.....all my red highlights are gone......this probably doesn't mean much to some guyz that have short hair.....but for me, for a person that hasn't ever had short hair in his life.....its different.........hehe......i like it...its clean.....its 'kyo'......its a change........it was actually a one day decision, haha, during phyfound (yeah, when else would i been thinking about stuff like that??)....more random spontaneous acts of mine i guess........but yeah, i know so many of you just can't imagine me with my hair short like that.......i will definitely put up 'before and after' photos when i get them together and stuff.......and for now??....you'll just have to let your imagination run wild for a bit......
thanksgiving is coming.......holy god......wats going to happen??.......holygod.......i'm excited........its been a while guyz........i can only imagine the best of highskool memories (fuck northfield...like there were many memories there)......but yeah, a big *smile* =))))))))))))))
Many great songs for the moment......erm.....its gonna be a special day today........3 songs for the day......not to show less respect for any of them at all.....but i figured it'll take a while for me to put them all up considering how less frequently i blog now....
~~~ Incubus - Drive ~~~....so many of you have definitely heard of this one.........well, i just realized it was such an awesome song a while ago.....i especially like the guitaring throughout the song (starting from the intro).............
~~~ Airlock - Awakening ~~~....thank my all-time-blog-maker for this song.....its good....more chill for the soul......actually, its the better the more you hear it.....if you need more chill stuff w/vocals....chek it.............
~~~ the Avalanches - Since I left you ~~~......yet, another chill song....i actually like this one more...its definitely a lot more well known too........erm....yeah, its good.....what else to say??
~~~ Queens of the Stone Age - No one knows ~~~......dave grohl back drumming......i like.
I'm done with all my summer apps......woohoo.....nicenice....did take up some free-time throughout the last couple weekends...but its finally all over........its great.....just 3 exams, thanksgiving and i'm off back to home.....home sweet home.......heard from my bro theres been some changes in my house too....so i can't wait to check it all out.......
Lifes been good for the most part....cept for the occasional "normal" bad days....everything has been great....just doing my thing.....getting stuff done.....chillin as i go......anywayz..its time for the weekly black man's steak.....so gotta run and grab da shit....will try post pics asap.
Airik
Lemon Jelly and Craig David new albums.....nicenice.
thanksgiving is coming.......holy god......wats going to happen??.......holygod.......i'm excited........its been a while guyz........i can only imagine the best of highskool memories (fuck northfield...like there were many memories there)......but yeah, a big *smile* =))))))))))))))
Many great songs for the moment......erm.....its gonna be a special day today........3 songs for the day......not to show less respect for any of them at all.....but i figured it'll take a while for me to put them all up considering how less frequently i blog now....
~~~ Incubus - Drive ~~~....so many of you have definitely heard of this one.........well, i just realized it was such an awesome song a while ago.....i especially like the guitaring throughout the song (starting from the intro).............
~~~ Airlock - Awakening ~~~....thank my all-time-blog-maker for this song.....its good....more chill for the soul......actually, its the better the more you hear it.....if you need more chill stuff w/vocals....chek it.............
~~~ the Avalanches - Since I left you ~~~......yet, another chill song....i actually like this one more...its definitely a lot more well known too........erm....yeah, its good.....what else to say??
~~~ Queens of the Stone Age - No one knows ~~~......dave grohl back drumming......i like.
I'm done with all my summer apps......woohoo.....nicenice....did take up some free-time throughout the last couple weekends...but its finally all over........its great.....just 3 exams, thanksgiving and i'm off back to home.....home sweet home.......heard from my bro theres been some changes in my house too....so i can't wait to check it all out.......
Lifes been good for the most part....cept for the occasional "normal" bad days....everything has been great....just doing my thing.....getting stuff done.....chillin as i go......anywayz..its time for the weekly black man's steak.....so gotta run and grab da shit....will try post pics asap.
Airik
Lemon Jelly and Craig David new albums.....nicenice.
Wednesday, November 13, 2002
I completely forgot all my German....i used to know enough German to have basic conversations with ppl, but i completely lost it now....i haven't spoken German since highskool in HongKong....and that was like......friggin 5 years ago.......as much as i want to look at that stuff once again, theres too much other stuff I would probably be better off doing instead......for example, practice some of my mandarin or just generally learning new things and new skills........German would probably be one of the less important languages in my life (i can't be for sure, but thats what it seems like).......given the intensity of my curriculum at hopkins, i highly doubt i'll have the chance to take some german classes (not some, but not even one).....haha....goodbye German (as in the language)......10 years of that stuff......i think i'm more than halfway recycling that memory in my mind already.......so i guess i might as well just let it....
I've been living a somewhat efficient life for the past week...always busy doing stuff.....healthy stuff...hehe....i relax a bit every once in a while, but I spend most of the time working and getting my stuff together......i guess i can't bum too much (uptight?!)......can't procrastinate....its not one of my skills i suppose ^^.......i feel useless if i relax for too long.....i feel like i can be doing better things with my time......like anything, wash my clothes, more practice on the guitar, look up work related stuff........yeah, i hate the feeling of being behind.....or the feeling when everybody but I, is doing stuff......
my blog has gotten shitty.....maybe cuz theres too much deeper thoughts in it these dayz......less simple diary-like thingys......i dunno......i can't really be bothered to make it nice, clean and evened out or whateva......i'll just let it flow...
no music for the day...haha....
AIERIK. go eat now!
I've been living a somewhat efficient life for the past week...always busy doing stuff.....healthy stuff...hehe....i relax a bit every once in a while, but I spend most of the time working and getting my stuff together......i guess i can't bum too much (uptight?!)......can't procrastinate....its not one of my skills i suppose ^^.......i feel useless if i relax for too long.....i feel like i can be doing better things with my time......like anything, wash my clothes, more practice on the guitar, look up work related stuff........yeah, i hate the feeling of being behind.....or the feeling when everybody but I, is doing stuff......
my blog has gotten shitty.....maybe cuz theres too much deeper thoughts in it these dayz......less simple diary-like thingys......i dunno......i can't really be bothered to make it nice, clean and evened out or whateva......i'll just let it flow...
no music for the day...haha....
AIERIK. go eat now!
Monday, November 11, 2002
I'm a B-logger....inside my log, theres no match...the catch?....its becuz i'm all alone....all airik...fully fukin blown....maximized on your screen....nobody to pick a screen......I can talk my shit....nobody will bitch.....tho, this log is never to pick fights......its a place for me to ramble at my height.....talk about what music is tite.....i see it like my back yard hoop.....its the same loop.....i come here once in while to practice my shoot....the catch?....i choose to share it with the public.....i'm proud of what i am....just another man....good or bad you can see it through the video cam......i hear good music, i say 'damn'.....you find a new entry and you shout 'nice shit man'.......
alrite...enuff...haha.......i only have that much time to blog.......got work??.....hehe.......stupid summer job apps.........but anyhow, haha...writing rythmes are hella fun.....don't take long after you get used to it too.....only takes 10 min or so to write a paragraph like this......
I honestly dunno why i came up.....i just felt like it......i really should be getting a shower or better yet, watching the european MTV awards rite now.........hmmm........here we go first of all........~~~ Utada Hikaru - Simple and Clean ~~~.......its the theme to the disney and squaresoft 'Kingdom Hearts' game.......anybody played it??.......the cc definitely looks awesome......all the disney characters and stuff......
aiteaite....the evil monster (television) is seriously driving me away from my blog.......will go now..
Erik.
alrite...enuff...haha.......i only have that much time to blog.......got work??.....hehe.......stupid summer job apps.........but anyhow, haha...writing rythmes are hella fun.....don't take long after you get used to it too.....only takes 10 min or so to write a paragraph like this......
I honestly dunno why i came up.....i just felt like it......i really should be getting a shower or better yet, watching the european MTV awards rite now.........hmmm........here we go first of all........~~~ Utada Hikaru - Simple and Clean ~~~.......its the theme to the disney and squaresoft 'Kingdom Hearts' game.......anybody played it??.......the cc definitely looks awesome......all the disney characters and stuff......
aiteaite....the evil monster (television) is seriously driving me away from my blog.......will go now..
Erik.
Saturday, November 09, 2002
8 Mile was real and inspiring. I feel it, what we can do with our lives....what we live on to get us going...everyone of us have our own moments, our own dreams....its crazy.....to live in our each and individual worlds.......everyonce in a while, i really wonder how it would be like to live somebody elses........
this might sound a lil stupid, egoistic...and worst of all, sound like every other guy that says the same thing.....but i'm gonna live upto my dream....i want to be successful, somewhat rich, happy and to someday feel that i have my life and my world under control......even though uptil this day, i still might not know exactly what i want but i definitely have a good idea of what i feel and what i can do......i know i can succeed in whateva i want to do.......its all within.....
Some deutsch pride........y'all check this shit out......its some quality foreign stuff.....~~~ Freundeskreis - Mit Dir ~~~.....chek dat deutsch hiphop rnb out......
HAha....boycotting......like eggs rotting.....so old they're gonna be thrown....thinking you gonna be owning......this world is international, its only rational.......fobby shit malicious....haha i find it fukin facetious.......cuz thats lame as fuck.....lemme give you a pacifier to suck.....you lame ass faggot.....you're outta luck...dat shit ain't gonna make me split.....you immature piece of shit.....this no ballad........its a fukin rap......so check my map......dat crap is not gonna make me give a crap......go home and sit on your slutty moms lap.......and don't slap back.....you're not shaq......you're a pussy unanswering lil brat......i'm done with that shit......scared little bitch.....i grew up being thrown those hits........i'm over the wall.....i'm not gonna trip on your tiny balls......i have them at lunch everyday, spaghetti and meatballs........its not gonna ever be your way......as long as i'm here, you sit and stay......goody doggy dear.......stay here and don't piss on your pants queer......now i'm done with my beef....so next time jeez, don't do that intentionally to pull my leaves......its not cool, dont live life like you gotta rule....you stop, and i'll stop yule.
Aiteaite...tired.
this might sound a lil stupid, egoistic...and worst of all, sound like every other guy that says the same thing.....but i'm gonna live upto my dream....i want to be successful, somewhat rich, happy and to someday feel that i have my life and my world under control......even though uptil this day, i still might not know exactly what i want but i definitely have a good idea of what i feel and what i can do......i know i can succeed in whateva i want to do.......its all within.....
Some deutsch pride........y'all check this shit out......its some quality foreign stuff.....~~~ Freundeskreis - Mit Dir ~~~.....chek dat deutsch hiphop rnb out......
HAha....boycotting......like eggs rotting.....so old they're gonna be thrown....thinking you gonna be owning......this world is international, its only rational.......fobby shit malicious....haha i find it fukin facetious.......cuz thats lame as fuck.....lemme give you a pacifier to suck.....you lame ass faggot.....you're outta luck...dat shit ain't gonna make me split.....you immature piece of shit.....this no ballad........its a fukin rap......so check my map......dat crap is not gonna make me give a crap......go home and sit on your slutty moms lap.......and don't slap back.....you're not shaq......you're a pussy unanswering lil brat......i'm done with that shit......scared little bitch.....i grew up being thrown those hits........i'm over the wall.....i'm not gonna trip on your tiny balls......i have them at lunch everyday, spaghetti and meatballs........its not gonna ever be your way......as long as i'm here, you sit and stay......goody doggy dear.......stay here and don't piss on your pants queer......now i'm done with my beef....so next time jeez, don't do that intentionally to pull my leaves......its not cool, dont live life like you gotta rule....you stop, and i'll stop yule.
Aiteaite...tired.
Wednesday, November 06, 2002
How is everybody today? =)
Don't get me wrong...i'm not in a good mood today....well, not in a bad one either.....just one of those dayz i suppose......i went to class, ate.....worked.....spent most of the day on campus i believe.....the funny thing is i haven't had a conversation with anybody today....only til now i realize i was on campus doing my own thing all day, didn't interact much with anybody other than nodding my head to say 'hi'..........i think i hate these dayz, they're boring......i spend half the time conversing with myself....and the other half in silence....
I stress agian, if i haven't made my point clear enuff last nite.....I'm goin to make the most out of my time from now til thxngiving.....want to straight things out.....i want to be as complete as i can be.....and i want to be on track with how i want my life to roll out....
I haven't been up here for a bit.....so i'm gonna give a quick 'Whats inside Erik's mp3 list' over the past week or so:
The Reelists - Freak Mode
Hyde - Shallow Sleep (j-rock)
Jimmy Eat World - the middle (acoustic version)
Walkmen - Wake up
Third Eye Blind - I Want You
Goo goo Dolls - Here is Gone
Garbage - Cherry Lips
The Roots - What they do
Maroon 5 -This Love
Aite, nap time.
Airik.
Don't get me wrong...i'm not in a good mood today....well, not in a bad one either.....just one of those dayz i suppose......i went to class, ate.....worked.....spent most of the day on campus i believe.....the funny thing is i haven't had a conversation with anybody today....only til now i realize i was on campus doing my own thing all day, didn't interact much with anybody other than nodding my head to say 'hi'..........i think i hate these dayz, they're boring......i spend half the time conversing with myself....and the other half in silence....
I stress agian, if i haven't made my point clear enuff last nite.....I'm goin to make the most out of my time from now til thxngiving.....want to straight things out.....i want to be as complete as i can be.....and i want to be on track with how i want my life to roll out....
I haven't been up here for a bit.....so i'm gonna give a quick 'Whats inside Erik's mp3 list' over the past week or so:
The Reelists - Freak Mode
Hyde - Shallow Sleep (j-rock)
Jimmy Eat World - the middle (acoustic version)
Walkmen - Wake up
Third Eye Blind - I Want You
Goo goo Dolls - Here is Gone
Garbage - Cherry Lips
The Roots - What they do
Maroon 5 -This Love
Aite, nap time.
Airik.
Tuesday, November 05, 2002
I really should be sleeping or studying rite now.....we have so little time to waste in our lives.....to come and think about it, i never understood why i started blogging......i have so many more important things to do like work and skool and straightening out my life (ok, maybe i can consider blogging straigtening my life)....but still.......at least for the past week or so, i've been feelin that i haven't been using my time efficiently enough.......i should be constantly doing something, and most of this time should be spent on skool work (I HATE PHYSFOUND BTW).....
Was down at philly last weekend......was way cool.....chek jon's joint out.....i love 'typical' colleges......so cool....so chill.....mad love for chilling........old skool shitz...winning11...bballing....haha ("Bet thats the first time an azn do that shit to you").......that shit we talked over again and again......they just hoes man....they just hoes..........dunt need to give a F...
really need sleep...will be back.
Was down at philly last weekend......was way cool.....chek jon's joint out.....i love 'typical' colleges......so cool....so chill.....mad love for chilling........old skool shitz...winning11...bballing....haha ("Bet thats the first time an azn do that shit to you").......that shit we talked over again and again......they just hoes man....they just hoes..........dunt need to give a F...
really need sleep...will be back.
Thursday, October 31, 2002
....in this world....we live the slaves of our own creations......
Theres seriously absolutely no understanding whatsoever......its as if the connection between each and every individual is bounded by a brick wall......the sad thing is that I believe i see so much greatness between every one of us.....when i'm say 'greatness', i mean anything more than one person can accomplish.....its neither something of only materialistic value nor a self accomplished task........the reason behind that is that it takes at least one more person to appreciate the traits or skills of others.......
Our relationships are such fragile connections.....one wrong phrase, one wrong action can shatter it into pieces....a broken glass window that will never be exactly the same anymore no matter how well put back together.....I wonder if theres anything in this world called a "plastic window" relationship....elastic, hard.....and definitely takes more than a blow to put it apart....
Its either me, i'm just wrong.....or i see mobile problems around me everyday....these problems speak, act, and sometimes even don't make sense to me.....i'm not saying problems are bad, i mean, i have problems too......but most of time, not acting for the good of it just disturbs me.........we shall all learn to live and grow better lives within each of our individual lifes........
Its sad to see that those that are crazy or deviant are seen as outkasts......especially those that share their lives for the well being of this world and what it means to them......the most simplest things in this world...the most wacky, nitty, crazed things in this world have A LOT of meaning behind them.....(crazy is defined as 'wrong' in my dictionary, thats what i just mean as really wrong)......Theres so much appreciation in this world.....so much greatness......why aren't we focusing on stuff like that rather than satisfication through our own created problems......the more we live our supposedly life, the more problems we create for ourselves....
Everything was so much simpler when you were young........but as we grow up....we tend to lose the ability to be honest and truthful......all our experiences get complicated every time you come around it again.....
Now i'm asking myself. What can i do to make this life of mine better? or better yet, make everything around me better??.....i hate complaining....when i hear people complain, i always tell them to think about how-to make it better from then on........so now, i'm gonna ask myself how to put an end to my own misery........i definitely can't go around telling people i'm going to be different, cuz i'm definitely going to get a "Airik is going crazy" response......i'm gonna stfu when i should.....i'm gonna be helpful, generous, have a positive attitude all the time, continue to believe in the 'greatness', and make the best for both yours and my life. (haha..sounds like i'm writing some sort of mission statement).......
i shall believe....
Erik.
- i shall turn to music with others and not for its relief from others -
Theres seriously absolutely no understanding whatsoever......its as if the connection between each and every individual is bounded by a brick wall......the sad thing is that I believe i see so much greatness between every one of us.....when i'm say 'greatness', i mean anything more than one person can accomplish.....its neither something of only materialistic value nor a self accomplished task........the reason behind that is that it takes at least one more person to appreciate the traits or skills of others.......
Our relationships are such fragile connections.....one wrong phrase, one wrong action can shatter it into pieces....a broken glass window that will never be exactly the same anymore no matter how well put back together.....I wonder if theres anything in this world called a "plastic window" relationship....elastic, hard.....and definitely takes more than a blow to put it apart....
Its either me, i'm just wrong.....or i see mobile problems around me everyday....these problems speak, act, and sometimes even don't make sense to me.....i'm not saying problems are bad, i mean, i have problems too......but most of time, not acting for the good of it just disturbs me.........we shall all learn to live and grow better lives within each of our individual lifes........
Its sad to see that those that are crazy or deviant are seen as outkasts......especially those that share their lives for the well being of this world and what it means to them......the most simplest things in this world...the most wacky, nitty, crazed things in this world have A LOT of meaning behind them.....(crazy is defined as 'wrong' in my dictionary, thats what i just mean as really wrong)......Theres so much appreciation in this world.....so much greatness......why aren't we focusing on stuff like that rather than satisfication through our own created problems......the more we live our supposedly life, the more problems we create for ourselves....
Everything was so much simpler when you were young........but as we grow up....we tend to lose the ability to be honest and truthful......all our experiences get complicated every time you come around it again.....
Now i'm asking myself. What can i do to make this life of mine better? or better yet, make everything around me better??.....i hate complaining....when i hear people complain, i always tell them to think about how-to make it better from then on........so now, i'm gonna ask myself how to put an end to my own misery........i definitely can't go around telling people i'm going to be different, cuz i'm definitely going to get a "Airik is going crazy" response......i'm gonna stfu when i should.....i'm gonna be helpful, generous, have a positive attitude all the time, continue to believe in the 'greatness', and make the best for both yours and my life. (haha..sounds like i'm writing some sort of mission statement).......
i shall believe....
Erik.
- i shall turn to music with others and not for its relief from others -
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
Posts
