Sunday Morning.

I've been stressed lately. The reality of our world has taken me by surprise. The spread out civilization across California is getting to me. All of a sudden, I realize that I live in such a lonely world. Everybody lives for themselves. It's like a phone call that will not be answered at 4am. A reason why people turn their back at you....

So I ask myself once again...what the hell am I doing in this world? As much as I think I am living the life, I hate it. I hate it for its systems. I dislike the fact that we live in such a sad self-centered adult society. Its where at many points of time in my life it has caused me to just leave who and where I am. Just hop onto the car and drive away... far far away somewhere I can be alone and unknown.

You're a queen that I will always believe in
Its not where but who you are.
Many butterflies fly by me
In a daze, bebel vibrates your ears

Its pretty obvious I don't deserve a flower
Its not the beach. Neither the sun.
The truth is there is none
Just an apartment threatening to lose youself

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Erik.

I had an awesome 4 day road trip from Vancouver to LA. Plenty of new memories to live for. The scenery I saw while driving along the coast was not something I expected. It was unreal. I don't think I can use words to describe how beautiful it was. Long, Jeremy, Cheuk and I would just stare at the blankly at the scenery with our jaws wide open.
Memorable moments of our trip included: sleeping in the car in front of the cinema, diversion at Mendocino(hehe), brewery at Eureka (best tangerine and white beer), the best piss, the strawberries, the gangsta lighting, the view, the view, the scenery, the view and jamming in front of the view.
Note to self: You are a moron for not bringing your VDO camera =/

~~~ Maroon 5 - This love (acoustic) ~~~

Erik.

Lunch time.....

Sometimes I really wonder what the hell am I doing. What am I trying to get at? Is this what I want? Who am I? Do I like my life?
I'm lost. Even if I had the world under my hand right now, I would still feel lost. I don't know why, but I've been feeling like I'm all alone over the past couple days. Its as if I'm just living a life in my world. Dealing with my own issues and my own state of mind everyday. I don't feel very well. Maybe its just one of those days....maybe I'm not getting enough sleep these days. I've been avging 6 hours a night compared to 10 hours for the past half year.

I went to the X games last weekend. I saw the Big Air Skateboard event. It was pretty crazy stuff I must admit.... you don't realize how big these ramps are and how much air these guys pull off until you see it live in front of your face. Props to the big air ramp designer and winner of the competition Danny Way. His 70 foot jump and 27 foot quarter pipe made the event just that much more cinematic. Its unreal.

Gonna drive my car down to LA from Vancouver later this week. Its going to be wicked (haha, unless I run into any unexpected situations). Nice ~4 day road trip down the west coast. I'm sure it'll be another crazy experience all together. Hopefully it will bring me back to the living, crazy me =)
Note to self - bring VDO camera.

~~~ Incubus - Talk Show on Mute ~~~ I LOVE THIS SONG.

Erik..

At Work....

So yeah....giving the fact that I am a music freak...I finally invested in the new click wheel 40Gb iPod. And after a little more than a week of product evaluation, I rate this product a 7/10. I personally think the iPod is overrated. I mean, sure, its got a chic design, it handles pretty well in your hand (looks and feels mad cool)...but thats as far as it goes. Aside from the fact that the accessories are way way way over priced, managing your music on your iPod/iTunes is just unbelievably crappy. If I have 40Gb of music on my portable music player, there better be better ways to access/manage my music on it. Its pretty user unfriendly when it comes to porting music into your device. I had problems being able to access my iPod through two different computers, deleting songs (doesn't reflect that I have deleted songs in my iPod storage space), and also have plenty of songs that do not have names...I have duplicate artists names such as 'Zero 7', 'Zero7' and 'Zero Seven' (and so, for those that know me....obviouslyI spent hours and hours tagging and renaming all my files using all sorts of scripts and mp3 file managing software....)
On a good note, however, I could confirm that I feel "powerful" with my new iPod tho. 40Gb of music on-the-go in my pocket is something to die for....(yes, and only if its organized)

Been mostly studying over the weekend (yeah..and I thought schooling would be over forever!!). Just hacking at some directx9 stuff. I'm learning how to do some 3D graphic programming. Its going pretty well, I think being able to create my first/third person shooter in the near future wouldn't be much of an overstatement. I will post a link to my work as soon as it is done. Hopefully, you will all check it out when its complete. I really look forward to my demo. Man, thank god for taking computer integrated surgery.

Went to the beach again over the weekend. Body boarding at Manhattan beach. Its so awesome. I am definitely going to make it a habit. Going surfing or body boarding during the weekends after a full week of work is a dream. I'm going to make it come true.
The waves were pretty huge too over the weekend. So yeah, I had a couple major wipeouts...haha...but its cool. Its all for the best. I like the learning process...its a challenge. I need to invest in a wet-suit in the near future though, it gets a little cold a 2-3 hours into the ocean. Both my hands were pale purple at the end of the day, they were numb and shaking.

I'm so going to stay in CA.

Erik.

Its Sunday Morning.
 
Went out to the beach yesterday. Was great. I like the outdoors. Getting together with friends to just do stuff. We drove down to Manhattan Beach for some bodyboarding, beach volleyball, and vodka chucking. I was dead by the time I got home (after a fat-ass Japanese meal).  Passed out nicely on my couch. Hehe.
 
~~~ Hoobastank - The reason ~~~
 
Got stuff to do.
 

I got a QA testing job at Activision.
Yep. Working at the headquarters in Santa Monica, California baby. Not a very well paid job yet....but hey, I'm working on it. For me, I'm just hoping its a baby step like this that will grow huge one day =)
 
My office will always be known as video game la la land to me. Game posters, arcades, anime, plenty of game consoles hooked up to monitors in every corner or cubicle of the office. Its quite awesome (haha, especially if you are a true gamer), people decorate their desks with so much game junk I am confident to say that they are making themselves at home.
 
Working in the west coast is laid back. People are more understanding in terms of everybody elses life. There are less formalities and people are more ultra modern. I like it. Productivity does not go down in these environments. Thats what its about. Working hard and living your life.
 
I'm getting so busy these days its not even funny. I haven't really worked in a long while. Going to work is tiring eventho I am technically in many ways just playing games all day. =P
 
 
Erik

I think I've finally come to the point where I have met my revelation. I want to be a video game developer. I think its time for me to stop mucking around and focus on this goal. I should start tighten my window of opportunities and stop applying to anything that sounds interesting. I think I have met my new challenge....

Checking in at Las Vegas...

What an unreal city. Flashy lights, huge hotels/casinos, lots of people, plenty of shows and lots of high rollers. This is surely a city of adult entertainment.
As much as my first day here was all fascination and excitment, I don't like this place. It really gets into you when the hotel-casinos look and feel exactly the same regardless of the time, weather or day here. It feels like a 24-hour cracked-out drug den. It really does. It makes sickens me when I am indoors at these hotels while knowing that the sun is shining bright outside.
I like unreal places. But Las Vegas gives me this feeling of an evil money making presence behind the nice flashy lights. I'm assured that there are probably businessmen greeding over this money made from the casinos. All they want is you to spend more money and gamble. Its all front. Its like the evil jester or clown that is all for show. They offer nice all-you-can-eat buffets and nice big cheap hotel rooms while small little stuff such as internet and drinks are way over-priced. How am I expected to dish out $2.50 for a small bottle of Nestea? Or even worse, $5 per 5 minutes of internet use anywhere down the strip? Its bullshit.

Out.
Erik.

OH YEA! Celebrating entry #201!

I didn't know that a gmail account was anything special until I heard about being able to register through invitations only the other day. 1Gb of account space. Hmm. Interesting. I can store a movie and a half onto my email account: erik.chan@gmail.com

I went to Stanley for BBQ last nite. I don't think I've had a good time like that in a long long while. Although it was VERY hot, we got lost more than once on our way, had problems setting up our fire, etc... I had an awesome time. I love group activities. I love it all: buying our food at the supermarket...taking the time to cook the food perfect and having to drop it onto the floor afterwards...its a really awesome way to share and make moments in life memorable with your friends....cuz in the end, not everybody likes to go out and drink....as much as I have spent nights out, I don't think I have ever met a close friend out at a bar or club...
I personally think that I need more outgoing friends. People that are willing to do and try new stuff. People that don't let materialistic luxuries define their ways. I think its a big part of life to go out there to experience and discover. I know way too many (spoilt, conservative, lazy or/and boring) kids. My opinion is that they are wasting their life. I understand that its not upto me to decide upon how somebody lives their life and what they do every weekend. But I just think its really sad that it takes so much of my effort to get the people I am close with to join (not to even mention 'organize') some sort of group team work type activity.

~~~ Jars of Clay - Overjoyed ~~~

Will be heading to LA and NYC once again in a couple days!!

ERik.

Some cool online material to share:

Sport shoes artwork ~ www.davewhite.me.uk ~ check out the Air Max 97 in the 'latest section', thats my favourite.

The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry ~ http://www.geocities.com/Athens/Rhodes/1916/online.html ~ A story by a french writer that explores the purpose of our life, how our society affects it and other symbolic stuff about how we appreciate what we take for granted.

Web traffic Stats ~ http://www.visitorville.com/ ~ A cool and original methodology to indicate web traffic. I can really appreciate this IT geek culture originating from the valley.


Except for my two day excursion to Macau with my Dad, I've been busy with parties over the past week in Shanghai.....karaoke, clubbing, bar hopping and all of that sort. Mostly because the summer has begun here, the school year at Fudan is over and either friends are arriving back home in Asia (visiting or residing in Shanghai) or they are leaving back to their homes abroad.

THE DETROIT PISTONS rocked the Lakers to perfection. This is basketball. Team work, defense, and stepping it up. Although I am not a Pistons fan, I can respect their game and a championship to them. Go home LA, your time is officially over.
Its going to be nice to see Kobe and Shaq start all over again elsewhere. I don't doubt they will play any worse elsewhere. And to the rest of the Lakers? They might as well just sit around and rot.

Euro Cup 2004. I've been fortunate to stick around late enough into the morning to watch the games. The two comeback matches Czech Republic 3 - 2 Holland and France 2 - 1 England were classics.

~~~ Interpol - Obstacle 1 ~~~

I'm in a state of peaceful confusion. As confused as I am about my life and career at this point of my life, I am getting a good dose of time to analytically sort out and tackle my issues. Maybe in the end, I'll still be doing exactly what I would have chose to do half a year ago, but at least I'd know what i'm getting myself into now. I won't start asking the same questions I am doing now 5-10 years into my career.

I think I have explored and lived Shanghai long enough to know what its all about now. Whether I want to stick around is a completely different story. Maybe in 10 or so years.

Erik.

My excursion to Nanjing was a memorable one. Its these little things you choose to do in life that makes all the difference...cuz I definitely enjoyed this trip. Haha, we definitely live and learn.

I'm blank, motivated, and ready to absorb.

ERik

~~~ Air - Alone in Kyoto ~~~

Its only a matter of time until I switch to Linux. Not that I have any huge problems with the windows operating system, but I truly believe in open sourcing. I'm sure Microsoft has some incredible talent, but that can never beat 'the masses' behind free-for-all programming. Plus, you rid of any monopolies contained within our computer experience...
Its going to be a difficult fight for open sourcing though. Maybe the powerful will always stay powerful...

Erik.

Good Evening Shanghai. I'm back.

Spent most of today whizzing around downtown. I'm going to be honest here, but Shanghai (and most probably the rest of China) is a boring place for a recently graduated student from America just like me. Yes, this city is rapidly growing and incredibly dynamic but my future in this city is definitely not in the next 5 or so years. I don't have the experience to be boss, and neither do I have the expertise to be a professional here.
I'm trying really hard not to be bias here, but Hong Kong is so much more than Shanghai. As much as Shanghai is under heavy development to become the next asian metropolitan, its people are lacking. The typical Chinese still lacks culture, respect, education and free-thinking. I believe all that can only be developed in time. And I believe that may probably be the reason why I feel I am starting to dislike it here. I do, however, believe it is only in this type of market where you can make unreal profits from.

+++ ??? Demo Collection Volume 1 - Favorites +++ This is a must get CD. I love it.

Erik.

I'm back in Hong Kong after my "different moment" in New York City. The past 3 weeks has been intense, sane, and fun. I don't think I realize I traveled half the world in that time span. There was no post-trip time to digest what I experienced.

Although I would prefer a job in Manhattan, chances are that I will be better off staying at home in Hong Kong where my path can be cultivated more closely by my elders. Sometimes there is just too much I want to do in my life. In reality, I really am actually just another soul racing against time. But I know ‘success’ is the type of life I want to lead though. And I understand that only with loss, there is gain.

Not only do I have intense passion for music, I love people, women, sports, culture, knowledge, appreciation, experiences, my friends and family, and a list that will continue forever. If anything, it’s that I hate to have to choose only one path (yes, even though it is an individual and distinct one). The truth is I want to live them all. I can be seen as greedy, but I’ve always wanted to live in the shoes of every soul. Be it hardship, luck, or hope, I want to try and live it. Nothing is ever easy, be it you rich or poor, smart or dumb.

~~~ Evanscence – My immortal ~~~
~~~ Bent – Always ~~~
~~~ Murphy Lee – What da hook gonna be ~~~

Erik.

JHU Commencement day 2004

I had a blast. Seeing old faces, getting to know a bunch of new kids..what was I thinking when I said I didn't want to come back?

Commencement went through like a breeze. Bill Cosby put up a nice funny commencement speech/act. The weather was nice. It was a nice way to end college. Great senior week to give it a final touch.

I will miss Baltimore and life at Hopkins. I proved myself at many things during my time here. Not only did I discover a huge part of who I am, I realized many things about our world and society. I probably won't choose to take the same path I once did if I had to do it all over again, but I'm glad that things turned around just fine. I'm sure all things happen for a reason.

I'm now a Hopkins Alumni. Proud to say I graduated from this academicly intensive college. Now begin the next chapter of my life...

May 19th

Its Kevin Garnett's birthday today. On top of having lost my cell, I dissapointed my parents by arriving to dinner as late as I could have ever gotten tonite....
What else did I do today? Oh yeah, I ran around campus running errands one last fukin time...didn't even get to eat properly.

I still remember the amount of luck I was having a year ago from today....I suck.

Erik.

Just spent the last 30mins reading old entries on my blog. I've written 192 entries over the last 2 and a half years. Haha, I'm embarassed to say that I have plenty of typos and grammatical errors within them. My apologies to all my readers.

+++ Thievery Corporation - Mirror Conspiracy +++ One classic downtempo album.

I found the 'Mae - Destination: Beautiful' album here in NYC. I was so happy. I've been searching for that album for a while already. Only in NYC I can find all sorts of less mainstream and underground music. The album was everything I want and more. The lyrics are sooo worth checking out, its definitely my cup of tea.

The NBA playoffs are really starting to get pretty exciting. All the series are tied 2-2. Lakers vs. Spurs, Timberwolves vs. Kings, Nets vs. Pistons, and Pacers vs. Heat. Haha, I know I'm making a bias comment but THE KINGS WILL WIN!! Although the Kings do not play the same style I used to admire 2 years ago, I will still root for them. They deserve a championship (ok fine, so do the Timberwolves...). I'm glad to be in America during this time of the year, staying or waking up early in the morning to watch the game in Asia has been driving me nuts.

Zero 7 is performing in the city on the 21st. Hopefully I'll be able to make it.

Erik.

Exert from my moleskin diary(yes, the more personal one):

At YVR. Chemical beats knock Business Week, AWSJ and other finance articles into my head. I read them all (soaking up every fact and given theory), and wonder once again how much of a slave I am of this society. I think I'm at this point where I constantly pursue knowledge for the betterment of my future rather than for myself. To better put it, I'm at the point where I've gotten in the habit of following up on all this finance, politics, economics and business shit without even second thinking whether it is to my interest of not. I personally think thats a little f'd up. I'm blood thirsty for knowledge cause I think it'll benefit me in the long run.
Maybe I'm just too driven to let anything stop me from reaching my goals.

To think about it, I am a biomedical engineer. Why start educating myself the materical I can learn studying a different major after I graduate? Or should I say, why major biomedical engineering? I really wonder...



I LOVE NYC. Thats a stone-hard fact. I will definitely miss this place a great deal if I end up spending the next couple years working somewhere in Asia. I like NYC for its style, its food, its numerous cultures, and its wide range of people from all over the world and in different social classes. Its a crazy place. They have top of the world art and design talent, broadways, and most important of all, its own metropolitan like culture that cannot be found anywhere else in the world.
I feel alive everytime I step out from the apartment into the city. Theres the East and West village, SOHO, Times Square, Chinatown, little Italy, Broadway, Union Square, Saint Marks, Central Park, Upper East side, Columbia University on the upper west, Wall Street, and plenty more. This place is packed with everything.
What am I talking about? I'm gonna go out and breath more of this city right now.

Erik.

Back and relaxed on my bed in Hong Kong. What else could beat those tiny moments in your life - laying on your bed with a nice cup of ice cold nestea beside you as you type away your next internet diary entry on your laptop.
I've always had wireless broadband at home here in Hong Kong, although, I've never made any use of it until two days ago. I guess I've sort of changed into a traditional consumer over the years. Instead of adopting early new technologies that will supposedly make your life more efficient, I've slowly turned into the type of person where I like to stick to things that work. I will only switch to new technologies that are showing signs of maturing. Maybe its a sign of growing up.... realizing that stability has become much of a priority.

Another bit of truth of my life - I'm a spoilt brat. Over the past couple months, I've been constantly observing how easy my parents have made my life for me. From the type of clothes and accessories I own to the amount of work that is being done for me at home makes me feel sick of myself. I think I'm starting to really have problems accepting the way of my life. I feel worthless when I know that there are plenty of people in this world that need to take care of many more daily errands than I do. I have always had that extra budget inside my wallet to take care of problems for me. Sometimes, I don't think I even deserve this type of life. I didn't work for it. Its not good enough even if I appreciate and understand where its coming from. I don't think theres anything I can do to really change this around, I guess life just goes on, and you are given what you are born with. Maybe all things do happen for a reason.

Finally got a haircut today. I don't think I quite enjoyed my last hair cut at Tony & Guy in Shanghai. Haha, a little bit of anti-advertising here, but I advise you all to avoid T&G in Shanghai. Its cheap, but really not that great.

I'll be off to Singapore and Kuala Lumpur in two days. I can't wait to get some good food. Yum.

The Spurs are gonna give the Lakers a smacking. Haha, was definitely worth staying up until 7am.

ERIK.

great...3 hours of work down the drain.....I'm am not going to write it back all out......I should have known that my post was not going to go through.....

~~~ Daft Punk - Something about us (love theme from Interstella 5555) ~~~ Very very chill.
~~~ Stan Getz & Joao Gilberto - The girl from Ipanema ~~~

Basically, I talked about my opinions of Shanghai. Its just too much work to type it all back out and go through the thought process. For once, it was a very written long paragraph citing my experiences here and there over the past year. sigh. F it.

this is bullshit

I've been sick this week. My Dad came to Shanghai on Thursday, and brought me along during his business trip at Hang zhou and Tong Li. So yeah...back to why i'm sick....I wore a polo out to this trip cuz it was bright and sunny during the morning (30+ celsius around here already).....I'm guessing I caught a cold cuz it suddenly started raining late afternoon and it got real windy at night (I continually resisted putting on the coat my dad offered me..haha)....or then again, it could also be due to the 2 bottles of red wine I had over lunch and dinner (DAMN Chinamen!!)....
But yea, being sick here in China is not fun at all. Unless you have the money to hire a private doctor, any other such medical help around here would probably do me worse than good....excluding the fact that I may contaminate other diseases and viruses at the hospital or ward, theres a good chance I will already get even more sick from waiting forever in line....

I feel like i've grown/matured/become more experienced since I arrived Shanghai. My study abroad is so worth it. Not only have I learned the language, more about the culture and other very factual entities...I've gotten to learn and realize a lot more about who and where I stand among this world.
I feel like I've been taking my surroundings and contempory lifestyle for granted over the years (and I think I will always do so). Having visited more rural areas like Yuan An (where people still live in caves, and nearly everything they own is made of twigs and branches), learning about the wages of the peasants in China, or maybe even going out with the local or other international students at Fudan really makes me realize how fortunate I am. It really puts things into perspective. The lesson I've learned, however, is not that I'm lucky though...its that I should be thankful for what I have and go make the best of the best of what I have been blessed with. (man, I starting to sound so religious...)
As I've been saying many times over the past couple weeks...you really don't need to have been to India to know what Nann bread is.....i mean, sure....maybe you dunt even have the resources to try it, its still not an excuse to not know what it is. I really don't know what to say sometimes. I may sound like Mr. Know-it-All, but I can't believe how uneducated, unexperience, ignorant some people are in this world. Its like, some people have no adventurous characteristics within them. They're satisfied with their life, their world, their friends, their routine.....they aren't curious about what type of lives other people around them are living.

On top of my belief that everything in this world is based on your perspective on it (how life can be great even during sad or non-eventful periods or how life can be miserable and gloomy even when you have the world under your feet), there are also plenty of things that can be learned around us depending on our perspective of it. Some things are obvious some others may not be. Letz say...... a trip to the local 'xiao long bao' restaurant for some xiao long......ok, maybe I just think too much, but over a simple trip like this for me.....I could look upon this event culturally, economically, from a business point of view, from my point of view (a foreigner), a local customers point of view, etc... The possibilities are endless when you use an experience like this to contrast and compare it with your previous experiences.

A tiny little thing like my name...'Erik'....and having been sent me to starters (an english kindergarten) and a chinese kindergarten at the same time really reveals a lot about what my parents were thinking when they were younger. 'Erik' with a 'K' is quite a bit of a twist for a Chinese family, and sending me to a German Int'l School is definitely also not a very traditional chinese either. Its like, my parents had set me a path different than a lot of other kids before I was even born. And only through these sort of roots, I can trace back out how and why I've gotten to become who I am. Its crazy. Things you don't realize until you grow up.

My cell got stolen today. Boo hoo. I lost all my numbers. I don't even want to mention how, why, and where.

I'm leaving back to Hong Kong next week!!! Ahh, I miss home. I can't wait to get back and get some real cantonese food. The sweet and strong taste of Shanghainese food is really driving me nuts. I can't take it everyday. But yeah, before I settle in, I'll be making a trip to Singapore and Malaysia(business field trip with Dad again!!)....can't really say much about that right now...maybe after I go (uh-huh..like i'll have the time to blog).....after that, its back to NYC (yes yes 2nd Ave 5th Street....you kno where the joint is....haha)....and then last of all, final destination, senior week at back at friggin Baltimore for my Hopkins graduation (did i ever mention Bill Cosby is the speaker?). Its gonna be a crazy month. And i'll be skipping school here in Shanghai all throughout this time.

~~~ Jurassic 5 - Thin Line (feat. Nelly Furtado) ~~~

its the small things we churn out in life...that makes it interesting

- Erik

Wanda De Sah & Sergio Mendes - So Nice
Nada Surf - Inside of Love
Rooney - Losing All Control
Something Corporate - Space
the Vines - Ride
Beta Band - Squares
Mae - Embers and Envelopes

Only til now I realize how much of a music promoter I am. I never realized until my friend was stating the obvious. I'm not only a music freak, but I constantly promote it to everybody around me with all my heart. Its like, I want to share this understanding and appreciation for music. I educate others to learn and love it, no strings attached. Damn, how come I never realized.
I think i've talked to everybody I know about music. I swear to god. Every single friend of mine.... I must have at some point spent time talking and recommending music. I've actually made a huge effort doing it too....ranging from burning CD's for other people, recommending music, playing music for others....wow. Haha, I can't believe how many of my family and friends have been affected due to my appreciation. Especially my close friends and two bros, it would never be justifiable how much I talk about it until you ask one of them about it....I talk about music every day.
I'm a music freak. I even categorize all the types of CDs in my CDS case into 'CD I haven't heard of', 'All-time' favourite, 'Giving it another chance', 'In the mood for it these days' and 'pretty good CD that makes it to the disk case everyonce in a while'.
Thinking back to all those things I have done to promote and appreciate music. I'm shocked. Its a huge part of my life.

Erik.

I'm at X'ian. Its my second day here. Fun? Hell Yea. Haha.

Been noticing all sorts of things over the past two weeks. Mainly the differences between Shanghai, Beijing, and the rest of inland China (haha..its really only X'ian and Yuan an..but whateva..LoL). I must say its quite different though, and I say this ranging from the standard of living to the local culture and attitudes....I don't feel like I should mention specifically how I feel about these cities though, mainly because I guess I don't qualify to evaluate them yet. Especially not with the short period of residency I've only had here in China. Maybe you could ask me personally......but yeah, anywayz, everyday in China has still been a bit of a brain drain for me....I'm still a sponge soaking up everything I see.....

I feel so bad. I really want to blog a lot more often than I do in China. I guess I just have no time, theres always something in the way...something more important or more desirable to do....Hopefully sometime, I'll be able to talk about my experience in more detail...Theres so much to talk about.

Tired as Hell. Went to see the terracotta warriors today.

~~~ Usher - Yeah! ~~~

Oyasumi.
Erik.

Haha. Its been a while since I've been back. Let me start off with a variety of music:

~~~ Zion I feat. Grouch - Silly Puddy ~~~
~~~ Elefant - Misfit ~~~
~~~ Duncan Sheik - On a High ~~~
~~~ ????? - ??????????????~~~

Been busy. Edwin was here. Edmund was here. Ronny was here. Seriously been exploring Shanghai quite a bit I must say. I dunt think it would be possible to even describe much of what I have experienced and went through over the past couple weeks....haha, I guess the best way to put it is that theres way too much to talk about and can't be bothered to. LoL.

Although I don't do that many things everyday, I often feel tired. I have a feeling its cuz I mentally work myself out everyday. Probably a combination of worrying, stress and striving to absorb everything my 5 senses allow me to. Even though my bed is stiff and hard, I somehow sleep incredibly well every nite. (Damn my hard bed!!)

I've been culture shocking. Haha. Seriously, every once in while I go through these random culture shock moments. Its like, I'm sick and tired of all this chinese around me. I'm sick of pronouncing chinese words, sick of speaking it and seeing it all over me. I feel like I need a break from it all. Just one day of english..only speaking and reading english. Even my cantonese is starting to turn into mandarin, its insane. Sometimes, I have to cut back on what I say (haha, yesh, we all know I always have a lot to say) cause i just can't figure out how to say it in mandarin. Man, I'm sick of having to translate everything I say in cantonese or english before I say it....

I'm going to Beijing and Xian next week. Gonna be great.

Erik - haha. ended not talking about any of the acutal experiences.

- I mentioned that Chinese music is a long way behind other parts of the world. I think I have to take that back. Maybe I'll talk about it next time -