I realized its time to start labelling the music I recommend. From now on, the easier to listen to stuff are called 'A-tracks', and the 'B-tracks' are for hardcore people like me.
A-Tracks
~~~ Nelly - My Place feat. Jaheim ~~~ Played out, but I like.
~~~ Lenny Kravitz - Lady ~~~ Only cuz my guitar is in the video..haha..
~~~ David Tao - Fated ~~~ New album for the fans.
B-Tracks
~~~ Alpinestars - Burning Up ~~~ Not for everybody.
~~~ My Chemical Romance - I'm Okay (I promise) ~~~
~~~ Death Cab for Cutie - Title and Registration ~~~
~~~ Hawthorne Heights - The transition ~~~ Punk/Emo i've been into recently
Monday, January 31, 2005
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Maybe I'm just not the average video gamer...
I don't want to come up here and recommend just another game thats on the top-seller list (unless its well deserved of course..heh). Its what I think makes me different from the typical gamer. I like games like 'Bejeweled'. Its original, quick and addictive. From a marketing perspective, a super low budget game like this could succeed very well. The reason for that is because even some inexperienced programmer (such as me) could write a polished version in a week or so. Thats a miniscule input compared to the games we see and play today. Just compare the price of 'Bejeweled' (if you choose to install it) and any average game on the shelf at the game store. And if you say, who would pay for 'Bejeweled'? HAha. My mom would. I mean it.
Recently, I've spent a lot of time in search of bright game ideas. Mostly just asking others what their dream game would be if they could make anything (hehe...soo much easier you know). For the most part, I hear of the same already existing genres but with a different scheme/setting. I don't normally tell them, but in most of these cases, the scheme/setting mentioned have been developed before already. They just never made it big, and hence, wasn't heard by too many. Why? I think its obvious. I do, however, find it contradicting that the consumers aren't revealing a lot. Could it be because they are happy with what already exists?
Ideally, I'd love to develop something brand new or original. Haha, I have been told that thats such an 'Erik' comment. But yeah, when I say something original, I don't mean games that fall into the misc. category of games (such as Wario Ware, Katamary Daimacy, blah blah). I meant something genre breaking. Or to better put it, the birth of a genre on its own.
I don't quite have 'the idea' yet. But I do have ideas. I've already previously mentioned the potential of multiplayer, portable, wireless gaming. The birth of that realm, thanks to the PSP and DS, is screaming for ideas. Its just like the internet, not many could have envisioned Google, Blogs, Ebay, etc... Other ideas include balancing the pace of games. It can change a game significantly, an example I love is 'Counterstrike'. It remade the pacing in FPSs; through short 5-10min action packed battles, it made the player wait if they died. This in turn, glorified stats, incorporated more teamwork, made the player play safer (much more realisitic...we are shooting each other...), etc... I mean, to think about it it is where the term 'camping' originated.
Time to go. I shall continue next time, eventhough I know its most probably not going to happen.
Recently, I've spent a lot of time in search of bright game ideas. Mostly just asking others what their dream game would be if they could make anything (hehe...soo much easier you know). For the most part, I hear of the same already existing genres but with a different scheme/setting. I don't normally tell them, but in most of these cases, the scheme/setting mentioned have been developed before already. They just never made it big, and hence, wasn't heard by too many. Why? I think its obvious. I do, however, find it contradicting that the consumers aren't revealing a lot. Could it be because they are happy with what already exists?
Ideally, I'd love to develop something brand new or original. Haha, I have been told that thats such an 'Erik' comment. But yeah, when I say something original, I don't mean games that fall into the misc. category of games (such as Wario Ware, Katamary Daimacy, blah blah). I meant something genre breaking. Or to better put it, the birth of a genre on its own.
I don't quite have 'the idea' yet. But I do have ideas. I've already previously mentioned the potential of multiplayer, portable, wireless gaming. The birth of that realm, thanks to the PSP and DS, is screaming for ideas. Its just like the internet, not many could have envisioned Google, Blogs, Ebay, etc... Other ideas include balancing the pace of games. It can change a game significantly, an example I love is 'Counterstrike'. It remade the pacing in FPSs; through short 5-10min action packed battles, it made the player wait if they died. This in turn, glorified stats, incorporated more teamwork, made the player play safer (much more realisitic...we are shooting each other...), etc... I mean, to think about it it is where the term 'camping' originated.
Time to go. I shall continue next time, eventhough I know its most probably not going to happen.
Sunday, January 23, 2005
Downtempo for the Masses
Downtempo/Groove (many of which I probably may have already named):
~~~ Air - All I Need, Playground Love, La Femme D'argent ~~~
~~~ Bent - Irritating Noises ~~~
~~~ Blackenized - 360 'vibe'rations ~~~
~~~ dj Food - gold in my pocket ~~~
~~~ Royksopp - Poor Leno, eple ~~~
~~~ Telepopmusik - Breathe ~~~
~~~ Tosca - Honey, suzuki ~~~
~~~ Destiny - Spinning, Destiny ~~~
~~~ Mr. Scruff - cheeky ~~~
~~~ Kruder Dorfmeister - Orozco ~~~
~~~ Royksopp - Poor Leno ~~~
~~~ Lemon Jelly - Life of King Rahm, In the bath ~~~
Ok. Here are some non-downtempos:
~~~ Lifehouse - Only One ~~
~~~ Lostprophets - last summer, make a move ~~~ Soo good.
~~~ Chromeo - Needy Girl ~~~
~~~ Phoenix - Run Run Run ~~~
~~~ Air - All I Need, Playground Love, La Femme D'argent ~~~
~~~ Bent - Irritating Noises ~~~
~~~ Blackenized - 360 'vibe'rations ~~~
~~~ dj Food - gold in my pocket ~~~
~~~ Royksopp - Poor Leno, eple ~~~
~~~ Telepopmusik - Breathe ~~~
~~~ Tosca - Honey, suzuki ~~~
~~~ Destiny - Spinning, Destiny ~~~
~~~ Mr. Scruff - cheeky ~~~
~~~ Kruder Dorfmeister - Orozco ~~~
~~~ Royksopp - Poor Leno ~~~
~~~ Lemon Jelly - Life of King Rahm, In the bath ~~~
Ok. Here are some non-downtempos:
~~~ Lifehouse - Only One ~~
~~~ Lostprophets - last summer, make a move ~~~ Soo good.
~~~ Chromeo - Needy Girl ~~~
~~~ Phoenix - Run Run Run ~~~
More moments of inspiration
Knowing that I'm all about the band sound, my (anime junkie) little brother introduced this new anime called 'Beck' to me. I can really relate to it: the love for modern rock music, the guitars, the riffs, finding band-mates, etc... It inspires me to find my own sound. Play in my own band. Get into the scene for myself.
I'm super jealous band music is huge in Japan. I recall visiting numerous music shops and listenning to plenty of jap indie band records when I visited Tokyo last Christmas. Oh yea, and of course, was fortunate enough to be brought to a gig too. Something I would not have been able to do if it weren't that China brought me =).
But yeah, the music industry in Japan is something a guy like me would die to live in. To say the least, I can at least enjoy such animations such as 'Beck'.
~~~ Amber Pacific - Always You ~~~
~~~ Beck - Wheres it at ~~~
~~~ Taking Back Sunday - A decade under influence ~~~
I'm super jealous band music is huge in Japan. I recall visiting numerous music shops and listenning to plenty of jap indie band records when I visited Tokyo last Christmas. Oh yea, and of course, was fortunate enough to be brought to a gig too. Something I would not have been able to do if it weren't that China brought me =).
But yeah, the music industry in Japan is something a guy like me would die to live in. To say the least, I can at least enjoy such animations such as 'Beck'.
~~~ Amber Pacific - Always You ~~~
~~~ Beck - Wheres it at ~~~
~~~ Taking Back Sunday - A decade under influence ~~~
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Prelude to Eden
Michel Gagné showed up at my school today. Definitely an individual I respect. He's not exactly what I want for my own life & career, but I could definitely learn to apply the same attitude of pushing oneself to make things evolve or happen. Check out his 'Prelude to Eden' animation.
Over the past couple of days, I've been settling down here in Bellevue/Redmond for the most part. Furniture shopping, starting services, looking for a band-mates (Heehee), getting into the groove of school, and other errands.
Speaking of school, I realized I haven't spoken much about it on my blog. I think it may be because I'm really still trying to decipher it myself. My video game school 'DigiPen', aka 'Nintendo U', is not exactly as cool and fun as it sounds. Other than the plaques of articles from every magazine you can name/find on the walls, nobody would be able to distinguish it from any other tech school.
And so this brings me to the part that creeps me out slightly: all the students seem so uptight. Yes, I know I am too, but still. The students, which typically come across as a mixture of weird, hippy, or geek (HAHa. Sounds so me!), seem so disciplined. Meaning they are all focused on getting a job in the industry? Hmm..I can't say for sure.
But anyhow, the halls and classrooms at my school are dull, white, and no fun.
Over the past couple of days, I've been settling down here in Bellevue/Redmond for the most part. Furniture shopping, starting services, looking for a band-mates (Heehee), getting into the groove of school, and other errands.
Speaking of school, I realized I haven't spoken much about it on my blog. I think it may be because I'm really still trying to decipher it myself. My video game school 'DigiPen', aka 'Nintendo U', is not exactly as cool and fun as it sounds. Other than the plaques of articles from every magazine you can name/find on the walls, nobody would be able to distinguish it from any other tech school.
And so this brings me to the part that creeps me out slightly: all the students seem so uptight. Yes, I know I am too, but still. The students, which typically come across as a mixture of weird, hippy, or geek (HAHa. Sounds so me!), seem so disciplined. Meaning they are all focused on getting a job in the industry? Hmm..I can't say for sure.
But anyhow, the halls and classrooms at my school are dull, white, and no fun.
Thursday, January 13, 2005
Starting New
Its been a hell of a week.
Moving into my new apartment, starting school, and coping with jet lag at the same time has definitely been a mission. I'm glad to say things are working out nicely though. If anything, I'm most happy about the area I reside in now. Its nice and quiet at Le Chateau in Bellevue, but also at the same time I'm 5 minutes away from a mall, a cinema, and a variety of cuisines (and I mean a huge variety!! Including Vietnese, Japanese, Thai, Jamba Juice, Coldstone, blah blah blah....hehe).
Speaking of food, here is my late new year resolution: I will eat a maximum of 2 or 3 fast food (high cholestral and fatty foods) meals a week. Yep, it'll be an intelligent 2nd step after my previous goal....which was to get food into the stomach as often and consistently as I can. So I suppose now that I have access to a variety of cuisines as I was mentioning earlier, I have no excuse. Haha.
Its going to be a relaxing semester. Two or three CS classes, one Math (oh dear... --; ), and one computer animation class. Should be ok. Hopefully I'll be able to make something out of the extra time I'll be supplied with. I tend to think life (not only school) is a learning process. Its what you make out of it every minute.
+++ http://www.guardian.co.uk/online/weblogs/story/0,14024,1388466,00.html +++ Haha. Watch what you say in your blog.
Moving into my new apartment, starting school, and coping with jet lag at the same time has definitely been a mission. I'm glad to say things are working out nicely though. If anything, I'm most happy about the area I reside in now. Its nice and quiet at Le Chateau in Bellevue, but also at the same time I'm 5 minutes away from a mall, a cinema, and a variety of cuisines (and I mean a huge variety!! Including Vietnese, Japanese, Thai, Jamba Juice, Coldstone, blah blah blah....hehe).
Speaking of food, here is my late new year resolution: I will eat a maximum of 2 or 3 fast food (high cholestral and fatty foods) meals a week. Yep, it'll be an intelligent 2nd step after my previous goal....which was to get food into the stomach as often and consistently as I can. So I suppose now that I have access to a variety of cuisines as I was mentioning earlier, I have no excuse. Haha.
Its going to be a relaxing semester. Two or three CS classes, one Math (oh dear... --; ), and one computer animation class. Should be ok. Hopefully I'll be able to make something out of the extra time I'll be supplied with. I tend to think life (not only school) is a learning process. Its what you make out of it every minute.
+++ http://www.guardian.co.uk/online/weblogs/story/0,14024,1388466,00.html +++ Haha. Watch what you say in your blog.
Thursday, January 06, 2005
The DVD Monster
I swear I'll catch it one day. And on that day, I will burn it alive in triumph for all the trouble it has given me. I've wasted way too much time looking for those lost dvds of mine. I will not forgive it.
I bet it lives up up at the attic or something. Sniggering while munching on those dvds it has stolen from my family and I. You will pay! And if for anything, especially for taking the Family Guy season 3 stuff!
~~~ Dragon Ash - Under Age's Song ~~~ Their first hit single way back.
~~~ Coheed in Cambria - Blood Red Summer ~~~ Punk.
I bet it lives up up at the attic or something. Sniggering while munching on those dvds it has stolen from my family and I. You will pay! And if for anything, especially for taking the Family Guy season 3 stuff!
~~~ Dragon Ash - Under Age's Song ~~~ Their first hit single way back.
~~~ Coheed in Cambria - Blood Red Summer ~~~ Punk.
Sunday, January 02, 2005
Welcome to 2005.
~~~ Lostprophets - Last Train Home ~~~ One of those songs that hit me hard
So many things have changed in the past couple of weeks. It feels like as if my life spun around. And all of a sudden, I'm heading towards a direction completely different than I was originally. My goals seem so much clearer to me now. My doubts are finally behind me. I'm extremely happy about that.
I'm not hoping because I know only good things are to come in the future.
So many things have changed in the past couple of weeks. It feels like as if my life spun around. And all of a sudden, I'm heading towards a direction completely different than I was originally. My goals seem so much clearer to me now. My doubts are finally behind me. I'm extremely happy about that.
I'm not hoping because I know only good things are to come in the future.
Saturday, December 18, 2004
Home
"In Hong Kong, there are 105.75 mobile subscribers for every 100 inhabitants."
Hong Kong is an dynamic and eccentric city. I believe most of my family and friends here would concur. There is no other asian city as extravagant as this. And definitely no replacement (sorry, but "whatever" to Taipei and Shanghai).
Hong Kong is deep. It may be physically small, but the thought behind the many communities here are very knowledgable and realistic. In fact, its very intense and in your face. I would never compare it to other metropolitans like Manhattan which is probably a lot broader and varied, but Hong Kong is definitely not just another city. Hong Kong is crazy and I love it. Its where I grew up and call home.
~~~ Handsome Boy Modeling School - White People ~~~
Hong Kong is an dynamic and eccentric city. I believe most of my family and friends here would concur. There is no other asian city as extravagant as this. And definitely no replacement (sorry, but "whatever" to Taipei and Shanghai).
Hong Kong is deep. It may be physically small, but the thought behind the many communities here are very knowledgable and realistic. In fact, its very intense and in your face. I would never compare it to other metropolitans like Manhattan which is probably a lot broader and varied, but Hong Kong is definitely not just another city. Hong Kong is crazy and I love it. Its where I grew up and call home.
~~~ Handsome Boy Modeling School - White People ~~~
Friday, December 17, 2004
Flip Flap Inspired Morning
I finally got my own Flip Flaps. Hehe. I got the orange, blue, and white one. Its something about the charming plastic bold colored scheme that has me. They remind me of the old Mario Bros. backgrounds. Those 8 or 16-bit flowers that only move back and forth in the background as you play. I plan to place mine by my desk to accompany me while I program hardcore next year..haha.
+++ http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?i8uglfpswcs +++ My ridiculous homemade Tomy Flip Flap Ad.
+ Others +
- Oh yeah. I'm already in Hong Kong. And Tokyo for Xmas!
- My modded Xbox has been banned on Xbox live....sigh...
+++ http://artpad.art.com/gallery/?i8uglfpswcs +++ My ridiculous homemade Tomy Flip Flap Ad.
+ Others +
- Oh yeah. I'm already in Hong Kong. And Tokyo for Xmas!
- My modded Xbox has been banned on Xbox live....sigh...
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Game of the Year
Many mega blockbuster games are taking on the shelves this holiday season. If I had to choose one among all these great games...Half Life 2 by Valve is the winner. I don't think the game is perfect, but I like the direction the developers of this game have taken. Their source engine has helped simulate a world more closely resembling our reality:
Characters - Advanced facial animation system delivers the most sophisticated in-game characters ever seen. With 40 distinct facial "muscles," human characters convey the full array of human emotion, and respond to the player with fluidity and intelligence.
Physics - From pebbles to water to 2-ton trucks respond as expected, as they obey the laws of mass, friction, gravity, and buoyancy.
Graphics - Source’s shader-based renderer, like the one used at Pixar to create movies such as Toy Story® and Monster's, Inc.®, creates the most beautiful and realistic environments ever seen in a video game.
AI - Neither friends nor enemies charge blindly into the fray. They can assess threats, navigate tricky terrain, and fashion weapons from whatever is at hand.
I'd like to add that level design is also worth noting. It keeps the adrenaline rushing and the game is fast paced consistently. Other things include all those little things like shooting the birds and breaking/throwing random objects throughout the world.
The minimum specs of this game, however, are pretty high. And I do advise playing it on a cutting edge PC. I wouldn't waste the time otherwise.
Note: My pick was among games like Halo 2, Metal Gear Solid 3, World of Warcraft, GTA: San Andreas, NFS Underground 2, Sims 2, etc... I do still need to check out Prince of Persia: Warrior Within and Gran Turismo 4 before the year end.
Characters - Advanced facial animation system delivers the most sophisticated in-game characters ever seen. With 40 distinct facial "muscles," human characters convey the full array of human emotion, and respond to the player with fluidity and intelligence.
Physics - From pebbles to water to 2-ton trucks respond as expected, as they obey the laws of mass, friction, gravity, and buoyancy.
Graphics - Source’s shader-based renderer, like the one used at Pixar to create movies such as Toy Story® and Monster's, Inc.®, creates the most beautiful and realistic environments ever seen in a video game.
AI - Neither friends nor enemies charge blindly into the fray. They can assess threats, navigate tricky terrain, and fashion weapons from whatever is at hand.
I'd like to add that level design is also worth noting. It keeps the adrenaline rushing and the game is fast paced consistently. Other things include all those little things like shooting the birds and breaking/throwing random objects throughout the world.
The minimum specs of this game, however, are pretty high. And I do advise playing it on a cutting edge PC. I wouldn't waste the time otherwise.
Note: My pick was among games like Halo 2, Metal Gear Solid 3, World of Warcraft, GTA: San Andreas, NFS Underground 2, Sims 2, etc... I do still need to check out Prince of Persia: Warrior Within and Gran Turismo 4 before the year end.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
Still so Much to Learn
During my drive back up to Vancouver from LA earlier this week, I got into an accident on the I-5 and trashed my car. I was at Portland then, and my ML had to be towed. It was not the most exciting experience at all. Thank God nobody was injured and insurance is paying for the vehicle damages. I ended up taking the train to Seattle (with my three huge suitcases) where my Mom came to pick me up the following day.
Theres still so much to learn. On top of nearly killing myself, I wasn't able to deal with the aftermath of the accident. I was blank and still shocked over the event. It made me feel worthless, spoilt, and young. Next time around, I will take care of my own consquences in a more adult manner.
I will be starting my Computer Science Masters degree at game school DigiPen this coming January 2005. I'm definitely excited about moving to Redmond, WA and starting school again. I know its not going to be easy at all...but to say the least, I know I will enjoy studying a lot more this time through....I hope...
+++ www.usatoday.com/money/media/2002-12-03-video_x.htm +++ Old, but relevant article to show that I'm not crazy.
+++ www.wired.com/news/games/0,2101,65984,00.html?tw=wn_tophead_2 +++ I am bullish over multiplayer wireless portable gaming.
+++ www.last.fm +++ Ahhh. More new music coming my way. *drools*
Time to Jet. Returning back to Hong Kong for Xmas this weekend.
Erik.
Theres still so much to learn. On top of nearly killing myself, I wasn't able to deal with the aftermath of the accident. I was blank and still shocked over the event. It made me feel worthless, spoilt, and young. Next time around, I will take care of my own consquences in a more adult manner.
I will be starting my Computer Science Masters degree at game school DigiPen this coming January 2005. I'm definitely excited about moving to Redmond, WA and starting school again. I know its not going to be easy at all...but to say the least, I know I will enjoy studying a lot more this time through....I hope...
+++ www.usatoday.com/money/media/2002-12-03-video_x.htm +++ Old, but relevant article to show that I'm not crazy.
+++ www.wired.com/news/games/0,2101,65984,00.html?tw=wn_tophead_2 +++ I am bullish over multiplayer wireless portable gaming.
+++ www.last.fm +++ Ahhh. More new music coming my way. *drools*
Time to Jet. Returning back to Hong Kong for Xmas this weekend.
Erik.
Thursday, December 02, 2004
Something about Nothing
Its been a while since I've written an entry. Mainly due to my temporary time away from the computer and television to allow my eyes heal "properly" from the lasik...
I don't know about you all, but I definitely heavily rely on my computer in my life(and sometimes the television). I felt handicapped all throughout this time because more than half of my motivations required my computer. I couldn't find/download music, play games, chat, blog, surf the web, read the news, etc.... The computer and internet is probably one of the best educational systems introduced in my life. Its definitely my primary instrument of work and source of entertainment. I mean, seriously, the internet itself on my computer is a portal to the world!! My laptop, which I bring around with me all over the place, is "a mobile world" that follows me whenever I am within WiFi boundaries.
But yeah, my point is that I am a slave of my PC. And if you are reading my blog, chances are that you are too.
[12/2/04] +++ http://www.wired.com/news/culture/0,1284,65890,00.html?tw=wn_tophead_6 +++ Exactly what I mean.
Erik.
Oh, and yeah, I have officially been contaminated with the Naruto virus..
I don't know about you all, but I definitely heavily rely on my computer in my life(and sometimes the television). I felt handicapped all throughout this time because more than half of my motivations required my computer. I couldn't find/download music, play games, chat, blog, surf the web, read the news, etc.... The computer and internet is probably one of the best educational systems introduced in my life. Its definitely my primary instrument of work and source of entertainment. I mean, seriously, the internet itself on my computer is a portal to the world!! My laptop, which I bring around with me all over the place, is "a mobile world" that follows me whenever I am within WiFi boundaries.
But yeah, my point is that I am a slave of my PC. And if you are reading my blog, chances are that you are too.
[12/2/04] +++ http://www.wired.com/news/culture/0,1284,65890,00.html?tw=wn_tophead_6 +++ Exactly what I mean.
Erik.
Oh, and yeah, I have officially been contaminated with the Naruto virus..
Music.
I'm sure some of you are sick of my music blabbering all the time (who wouldn't be by now?) But somehow, somewhere I realized I had never mentioned what about music that has me swept off my ground...so here goes an exert from my diary...
In my world, music is life. I doubt there is a more accurate definition of music than that inside my dictionary. It embraces all my emotions. Music is merely just a hobby or interest of mine. It could inspire, motivate, be an adventure, be a form of escape, be a medium of communication, be a learning experience, trigger memories, etc... Music is art.
It's pretty interesting to know that my passion for music didn't grow until 6-7 years ago. Not like it didn't exist in my life up until then or anything, I just simply didn't find it particularly interesting compared to sports or computers or whatever.
I speculate a big part of the upbringing of music in my life was having to have gone to America. Not only was it culturally a whole new experience, I had heaps of free time at boarding school to listen to music. Hmmmm.
The guitar would probably be another good reason of cultivation of my music. The guitar has always been something I've wanted to learn for myself. It gave me much self satisfication. It was and is still a challenge to me (to get better and better and better). Hopefully one day it would be a medium for me to express what I truly hear inside my head. =)
Love music. Share it. I honestly believe if some of you spent more time listenning to it, it would become much more rewarding than you had thought.
In my world, music is life. I doubt there is a more accurate definition of music than that inside my dictionary. It embraces all my emotions. Music is merely just a hobby or interest of mine. It could inspire, motivate, be an adventure, be a form of escape, be a medium of communication, be a learning experience, trigger memories, etc... Music is art.
It's pretty interesting to know that my passion for music didn't grow until 6-7 years ago. Not like it didn't exist in my life up until then or anything, I just simply didn't find it particularly interesting compared to sports or computers or whatever.
I speculate a big part of the upbringing of music in my life was having to have gone to America. Not only was it culturally a whole new experience, I had heaps of free time at boarding school to listen to music. Hmmmm.
The guitar would probably be another good reason of cultivation of my music. The guitar has always been something I've wanted to learn for myself. It gave me much self satisfication. It was and is still a challenge to me (to get better and better and better). Hopefully one day it would be a medium for me to express what I truly hear inside my head. =)
Love music. Share it. I honestly believe if some of you spent more time listenning to it, it would become much more rewarding than you had thought.
Monday, November 15, 2004
Inspired
I just spent half an hour reading the xanga of an incredible lady who I don't know. It gave me satisification of knowing I am not alone here. She inspired me to stay true to myself as an individual (I feel I have been drifting off recently). And to stick to it because everything will fall into its place in time.
I hope today will be an end to the mess I have created (over the past couple months). As tomorrow I want to continue on the journey I have been traveling on since I matured as a boy. I am not asking for my motivation to come back as it is not currently required, but instead the essence of who I am. It is time to go back to the shop and create character rather than show it. The society really shouldn't be the medium to success rather it should be in ones own desire and actions.
I've always felt different. Its something I need to embrace entirely. It could be an opportunity to climb over the brick walls and lead something of my own. Something I have always dreamed of doing. Seriously, fuck the road to success. Fuck the road to happiness. Nobody has lived my life before. Especially under the circumstances of which I am in. Theres nobody that could see through it to guide me up the stairway. The future is an X-factor, how would it be possible unless you possess god like qualities.
I feel a lot better now. I may not be great writer...but its not what only counts you know??
And back to the xanga of this random lady. I'd love to write her an email to show my admiration for her thoughts and beliefs. Chances are I would most probably seem like a stalker/fag if anything. I wonder.
I hope today will be an end to the mess I have created (over the past couple months). As tomorrow I want to continue on the journey I have been traveling on since I matured as a boy. I am not asking for my motivation to come back as it is not currently required, but instead the essence of who I am. It is time to go back to the shop and create character rather than show it. The society really shouldn't be the medium to success rather it should be in ones own desire and actions.
I've always felt different. Its something I need to embrace entirely. It could be an opportunity to climb over the brick walls and lead something of my own. Something I have always dreamed of doing. Seriously, fuck the road to success. Fuck the road to happiness. Nobody has lived my life before. Especially under the circumstances of which I am in. Theres nobody that could see through it to guide me up the stairway. The future is an X-factor, how would it be possible unless you possess god like qualities.
I feel a lot better now. I may not be great writer...but its not what only counts you know??
And back to the xanga of this random lady. I'd love to write her an email to show my admiration for her thoughts and beliefs. Chances are I would most probably seem like a stalker/fag if anything. I wonder.
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Its been 5 days of healing and recovery since my lasik surgery....
I want to begin by mentioning that the surgery was not exactly the most exciting thing I have gone through. In fact, it was uncomfortable and extremely stressful on the mind and body. My only calm was knowing it would rid my eye sight problems. I realize its not treatment for everybody. It involves clamping a frame on your eye (to hold it open throughout the surgery), having your cornea cut into a flap, shooting the laser into the eye, and then replacing the cornea back on.
To say the least, if i could choose all over again, I would still choose to have it done.
~~~ Bloodstone - Natural High ~~~ Music to make love to.
Erik. Healing.
I want to begin by mentioning that the surgery was not exactly the most exciting thing I have gone through. In fact, it was uncomfortable and extremely stressful on the mind and body. My only calm was knowing it would rid my eye sight problems. I realize its not treatment for everybody. It involves clamping a frame on your eye (to hold it open throughout the surgery), having your cornea cut into a flap, shooting the laser into the eye, and then replacing the cornea back on.
To say the least, if i could choose all over again, I would still choose to have it done.
~~~ Bloodstone - Natural High ~~~ Music to make love to.
Erik. Healing.
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Blogging from Vancouver..(yes, I traveled again)...
I'm having my lasik eye surgery done tomorrow. Its finally time to say bye to glasses, "the geeky look", contact lenses, dry eyes, and "one-night contact cases" (bottle caps, cups, dishes, my own eyes, etc...). The recovery period is going to be a pain, but I'm assured it will be well worth it. I can't wait until its all over.
Fun fact for the day: A typical lasik eye surgery only takes 3-4mins.
And also: Lasik was first performed 15 years ago. Its been around for a while, it is no longer *new*.
Mario Tennis for Gamecube (US Version) just came out today. I went to check it out from Future Shop, and have already spent hours of enjoyment from it. It's definitely recommended if you belong to any one of these categories:
1) You are looking for an awesome multiplayer game
2) You can enjoy any of the well polished Nintendo games
3) You like wacky, and you like tennis
4) You like Sega's Virtua Tennis, and looking for something equivalent but different
5) You appreciate games that are easy and fun to pickup, but hard to master
Out.
Erik.
I'm having my lasik eye surgery done tomorrow. Its finally time to say bye to glasses, "the geeky look", contact lenses, dry eyes, and "one-night contact cases" (bottle caps, cups, dishes, my own eyes, etc...). The recovery period is going to be a pain, but I'm assured it will be well worth it. I can't wait until its all over.
Fun fact for the day: A typical lasik eye surgery only takes 3-4mins.
And also: Lasik was first performed 15 years ago. Its been around for a while, it is no longer *new*.
Mario Tennis for Gamecube (US Version) just came out today. I went to check it out from Future Shop, and have already spent hours of enjoyment from it. It's definitely recommended if you belong to any one of these categories:
1) You are looking for an awesome multiplayer game
2) You can enjoy any of the well polished Nintendo games
3) You like wacky, and you like tennis
4) You like Sega's Virtua Tennis, and looking for something equivalent but different
5) You appreciate games that are easy and fun to pickup, but hard to master
Out.
Erik.
Friday, November 05, 2004
Its been a while...
~~~ Jimmy Eat World - 23, Work, Pain ~~~ I SAW THEIR CONCERT LAST WEEK@!! =)
~~~ Guerilla Black - Hearts of Fire ~~~ i like their flow.
~~~ Beck - Everybodys gotta learn sometime ~~~ From Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
~~~ Coheed in Cambria - A Favor House Atlantic ~~~ Punk is not dead.
~~~ 213 - Mary Jane ~~~ LoL...LBC baby...
~~~ Greenday - Boulevard of Broken Dreams ~~~ Cultured Green Day.
~~~ Nitin Sawhney - Nadia, Sunset ~~~ This is something different.
~~~ Snoop Dogg - Signs ~~~....i'm a freak....
~~~ Eminem - Like Toy Soldiers, Mockingbird ~~~....a music freak....
it was hard...it was dirty...but i'm glad its all over...
Erik.
~~~ Jimmy Eat World - 23, Work, Pain ~~~ I SAW THEIR CONCERT LAST WEEK@!! =)
~~~ Guerilla Black - Hearts of Fire ~~~ i like their flow.
~~~ Beck - Everybodys gotta learn sometime ~~~ From Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
~~~ Coheed in Cambria - A Favor House Atlantic ~~~ Punk is not dead.
~~~ 213 - Mary Jane ~~~ LoL...LBC baby...
~~~ Greenday - Boulevard of Broken Dreams ~~~ Cultured Green Day.
~~~ Nitin Sawhney - Nadia, Sunset ~~~ This is something different.
~~~ Snoop Dogg - Signs ~~~....i'm a freak....
~~~ Eminem - Like Toy Soldiers, Mockingbird ~~~....a music freak....
it was hard...it was dirty...but i'm glad its all over...
Erik.
Friday, October 22, 2004
It ends with thunder. It ends with an epic beatdown to put the sledgehammer to an epic comeback/collapse.
It ends with a half-empty, fully depressed Yankee Stadium, with an infield celebration and the gleeful chant of "let's go Red Sox" echoing out past the Babe Ruth plaque in center field and deep into the cold New York night.
It ends Boston Red Sox 10, New York Yankees 3, giving Boston the American League pennant and the honor of becoming the first team in baseball history to win a series after it trailed 3-0.
It ends with Manhattan as Mudville, with the nail somehow getting the best of the hammer, with a champagne and Bud Light shower in a visitors' locker room used to Red Sox tears.
It ends with Boston finally, at last, unseating the Evil Empire.
"All empires fall sooner or later," Boston team president Larry Lucchino said. "This was a great night for the Red Sox Nation."
Actually, it was the greatest night for the Red Sox Nation.
by Dan Wetzel, Yahoo Sports
It ends with a half-empty, fully depressed Yankee Stadium, with an infield celebration and the gleeful chant of "let's go Red Sox" echoing out past the Babe Ruth plaque in center field and deep into the cold New York night.
It ends Boston Red Sox 10, New York Yankees 3, giving Boston the American League pennant and the honor of becoming the first team in baseball history to win a series after it trailed 3-0.
It ends with Manhattan as Mudville, with the nail somehow getting the best of the hammer, with a champagne and Bud Light shower in a visitors' locker room used to Red Sox tears.
It ends with Boston finally, at last, unseating the Evil Empire.
"All empires fall sooner or later," Boston team president Larry Lucchino said. "This was a great night for the Red Sox Nation."
Actually, it was the greatest night for the Red Sox Nation.
by Dan Wetzel, Yahoo Sports
Thursday, October 21, 2004
There's a hella big game going on tonite. Yeap! The biggest rivalry in sports history! Game 7 Yankees vs. Red Sox at the Yankees stadium. Boston came back from a 3-0 loss. Tonight will be their chance to redefine history and pay back for years of misery. Did somebody say curse? I'm skeptical, but with Boston.
I've been mucking around with Jons inventory these days. Made some pics (shown below) using his digital camera and Mac. I'm pretty satisfied with them. Hopefully I can work on a couple more while I'm here; I've already decided my next project will be scenic shots I'll be taking on the hills of Palo Verdes. =)
++ Jimmy Eat World – Futures ++ I haven't yet heard of their new album, but I'm going to get it and hopefully make it to their concert next week. Oh, and for those who don't have a clue, they're an emo band.
I can't wait until tomorrow morning. Body surfing appointment 7-9am this morning was canceled because of the damn rain. You just wait monster waves, I'm coming!! Did I just taunt the ocean?!!
Erik.
I've been mucking around with Jons inventory these days. Made some pics (shown below) using his digital camera and Mac. I'm pretty satisfied with them. Hopefully I can work on a couple more while I'm here; I've already decided my next project will be scenic shots I'll be taking on the hills of Palo Verdes. =)
++ Jimmy Eat World – Futures ++ I haven't yet heard of their new album, but I'm going to get it and hopefully make it to their concert next week. Oh, and for those who don't have a clue, they're an emo band.
I can't wait until tomorrow morning. Body surfing appointment 7-9am this morning was canceled because of the damn rain. You just wait monster waves, I'm coming!! Did I just taunt the ocean?!!
Erik.
Monday, October 18, 2004
Bloggin from Long Beach, CA...
It rained today here in LA. It was weird. Both Jon and I have never seen it rain here previously....I wonder if it meant anything...
I played basketball all afternoon yesterday. It was great. I haven't played in a long while. I probably over did it again though (yes, even when I was just shooting around myself half the time =/ ), I strained my left elbow because I shot too much.
Anyhow, playing ball around here is extremely relaxing. Mainly because the court I was playing at was out in the open. The sky was clear blue and had just the right proportion of clouds. It was really chill....playing ball beneath a clear blue sky that. I felt at ease. I love it when you can see the horizon from one end to another. Absolutely no sign of concrete anywhere in the distant. Hopefully next time I can bring a camera with me and take pictures of this hoop I played at.
While I was at Vancouver, my grandma showed me this pic of me when I was young. It struck me that I haven't been happy like that since i remembered anything...
Erik.
It rained today here in LA. It was weird. Both Jon and I have never seen it rain here previously....I wonder if it meant anything...
I played basketball all afternoon yesterday. It was great. I haven't played in a long while. I probably over did it again though (yes, even when I was just shooting around myself half the time =/ ), I strained my left elbow because I shot too much.
Anyhow, playing ball around here is extremely relaxing. Mainly because the court I was playing at was out in the open. The sky was clear blue and had just the right proportion of clouds. It was really chill....playing ball beneath a clear blue sky that. I felt at ease. I love it when you can see the horizon from one end to another. Absolutely no sign of concrete anywhere in the distant. Hopefully next time I can bring a camera with me and take pictures of this hoop I played at.
While I was at Vancouver, my grandma showed me this pic of me when I was young. It struck me that I haven't been happy like that since i remembered anything...
Erik.
Friday, October 15, 2004
++ http://gprime.net/video/blindfoldedmariopianist2.php ++ More wonders only available because of the internet. He's crazy.
~~~ Velvet Revolver - Fall to Pieces ~~~
~~~ Greyboy Allstars - Sunday School ~~~
~~~ Keren Ann - Road Bin ~~~
Life is full of lessons....some of which are fun and others will take you apart. I definitely learned a few unexpected ones during my stay at Vancouver. I guess its impossible to be able to handle everything in life. Focusing on your priorities equates to losing some others. Adding 1 to the left will always equal to subtracing 1 on the right. Thats life.
I hate balance. I want to be superman. Not so that I can fly, have x-ray vision, break walls or anything of that sort, but I just want to be able to keep up with "everything" that is going on. I'm talking about reaching a level where I can only spend more of my time doing something new and never losing what used to be.
Tonight. I have a confession to make...
I hate myself when I am a cocky egoistic lil' schmuck. As much as I am who I think I am, I am only just another individual being. I really ain't better than nobody. I should not have any needs to prove myself to anybody (unless its expected). In fact, I think I'm a total loser for not knowing better sometimes. I want to apologize to all of those that I have offended.
Tomorrow is a brand new day. Live it up Erik. Be better.
~~~ Velvet Revolver - Fall to Pieces ~~~
~~~ Greyboy Allstars - Sunday School ~~~
~~~ Keren Ann - Road Bin ~~~
Life is full of lessons....some of which are fun and others will take you apart. I definitely learned a few unexpected ones during my stay at Vancouver. I guess its impossible to be able to handle everything in life. Focusing on your priorities equates to losing some others. Adding 1 to the left will always equal to subtracing 1 on the right. Thats life.
I hate balance. I want to be superman. Not so that I can fly, have x-ray vision, break walls or anything of that sort, but I just want to be able to keep up with "everything" that is going on. I'm talking about reaching a level where I can only spend more of my time doing something new and never losing what used to be.
Tonight. I have a confession to make...
I hate myself when I am a cocky egoistic lil' schmuck. As much as I am who I think I am, I am only just another individual being. I really ain't better than nobody. I should not have any needs to prove myself to anybody (unless its expected). In fact, I think I'm a total loser for not knowing better sometimes. I want to apologize to all of those that I have offended.
Tomorrow is a brand new day. Live it up Erik. Be better.
Saturday, October 09, 2004
~~~ Quarashi - Stun Gun ~~~
~~~ Orange Pekoe - love life ~~~
Christmas is coming. What that means is that a huge line up of big shot games are coming out within the next two months...Nice.
One such game I am particularly interested in is 'Feel the Magic: XY/XX'. Its called 'Kimi no Tame Nara Shineru' in Japan, which translates to 'I Would Die for You'. I think I am generally pretty excited about the Nintendo DS...mainly because of its capabilities: wireless multiplayer connection, two screens (one of which is touch-screen sensitive), and the microphone is going to add a bunch of new gameplay features never heard of previously in portable consoles. It'll be very interesting how developers will implement this new hardware in the upcoming games.
But anywayz, back to the game...the game basically puts you in the role of pursuing the girl of your dreams through a series of canny scenarios. These scenarios include blowing out a candle out through the microphone, rubbing dirt off your lady through the touch-screen, looking for her valuables in the sand, coaxing goldfish to swim up a man's esophagus??....so yeah, I look forward to this wacky game. Check out those screenshots...its so ipod.
Erik.
~~~ Orange Pekoe - love life ~~~
Christmas is coming. What that means is that a huge line up of big shot games are coming out within the next two months...Nice.
One such game I am particularly interested in is 'Feel the Magic: XY/XX'. Its called 'Kimi no Tame Nara Shineru' in Japan, which translates to 'I Would Die for You'. I think I am generally pretty excited about the Nintendo DS...mainly because of its capabilities: wireless multiplayer connection, two screens (one of which is touch-screen sensitive), and the microphone is going to add a bunch of new gameplay features never heard of previously in portable consoles. It'll be very interesting how developers will implement this new hardware in the upcoming games.
But anywayz, back to the game...the game basically puts you in the role of pursuing the girl of your dreams through a series of canny scenarios. These scenarios include blowing out a candle out through the microphone, rubbing dirt off your lady through the touch-screen, looking for her valuables in the sand, coaxing goldfish to swim up a man's esophagus??....so yeah, I look forward to this wacky game. Check out those screenshots...its so ipod.
Erik.
Thursday, October 07, 2004
The idea of video game recommendations/reviews sounded like a pleasant spice to my blog last night...(self realization: GEEK! GEEK! GEEK!! (oo);; )
Before I start, I want you to please keep in mind I am a true gamer. This might not mean a lot to some people, but those that play and live games will comprehend those words (Haha). When I play and review a game, I focus on factors such as whether the game is truly fun, innovative, original and appealing. Graphics and sound are of concern too, but unfortunately I must say they are at the end of my priority list. Incredible graphics do not make games fun, they are only additional bonuses.
I often only play a game for 5-15 minutes because most of them are usually boring if you play any further. I often feel that the heart of the game is already experienced within these 5-15 minutes. Whether it is a role playing or platform game, if the game does not allow me to easily immerse into it...I will find it boring. I hate playing games where after the first 2-3 levels, I consciously realize I'm repeating the same formula to progress through the game. Such formulas include the hack and slash, obtaining experience through tedious combat, running the same plays, create/maintain/destroy, etc...
## Wario Ware, Inc: Mega Microgames – Nintendo (GBA, GameCube) ## This is one of those rare games that took me by surprise. Its fast, easy to learn and exciting. I definitely give it thumbs up for its original canny design. As soon as I started playing, my hands did not let go of the controller until I finished it. I would recommend this game to players who are looking for a quick, enjoyable and addictive game experience...especially since only the D-pad and A button are used, simplicity to learn is what makes Wario Ware inviting.
The concept of the game is to throw an assortment of different five-second challenges at the gamer, and they'll not only have to figure out what to do and how to do it, they'll also need to accomplish the task before the clock runs out and the game moves on to the next challenge.
I would encourage both casual and gaming veterans to check this game out. Let me know and I can send you the rom.....for evaluation purposes only! =)
Will be back with more gaming reviews.
Erik.
Before I start, I want you to please keep in mind I am a true gamer. This might not mean a lot to some people, but those that play and live games will comprehend those words (Haha). When I play and review a game, I focus on factors such as whether the game is truly fun, innovative, original and appealing. Graphics and sound are of concern too, but unfortunately I must say they are at the end of my priority list. Incredible graphics do not make games fun, they are only additional bonuses.
I often only play a game for 5-15 minutes because most of them are usually boring if you play any further. I often feel that the heart of the game is already experienced within these 5-15 minutes. Whether it is a role playing or platform game, if the game does not allow me to easily immerse into it...I will find it boring. I hate playing games where after the first 2-3 levels, I consciously realize I'm repeating the same formula to progress through the game. Such formulas include the hack and slash, obtaining experience through tedious combat, running the same plays, create/maintain/destroy, etc...
## Wario Ware, Inc: Mega Microgames – Nintendo (GBA, GameCube) ## This is one of those rare games that took me by surprise. Its fast, easy to learn and exciting. I definitely give it thumbs up for its original canny design. As soon as I started playing, my hands did not let go of the controller until I finished it. I would recommend this game to players who are looking for a quick, enjoyable and addictive game experience...especially since only the D-pad and A button are used, simplicity to learn is what makes Wario Ware inviting.
The concept of the game is to throw an assortment of different five-second challenges at the gamer, and they'll not only have to figure out what to do and how to do it, they'll also need to accomplish the task before the clock runs out and the game moves on to the next challenge.
I would encourage both casual and gaming veterans to check this game out. Let me know and I can send you the rom.....for evaluation purposes only! =)
Will be back with more gaming reviews.
Erik.
Wednesday, October 06, 2004
20 Questions to a Better Relationship
eXpressive: 6/10
Practical: 4/10
Physical: 7/10
Giver: 9/10
You are a XSYG--Expressive Sentimental Physical Giver. This makes you a Sex Bomb.
You are sexy sex sex sex! The sexness! You are the sexiest, hottest and most charismatic of all types. You are a captivating speaker and a great dinner date -- relaxed, self-effacing, charming and generous. Your type probably has origins in something sad -- trying to keep the peace in a tough family situation, or an early heartbreak -- and you'll probably want to address and resolve that at some point, but in your relationships that heartache is pure gold!
You lie effortlessly -- not necessarily a bad thing. You can have problems with fidelity. You need frequent praise and validation, and in seeking it you can make decisions that aren't consistent with your general good judgment. In other words, don't cheat on your significant other just because someone is paying attention to you.
You strongly dislike conflict, and will avoid it. Like an XPYG, you give so much of yourself to your partner that you feel dismissed and unappreciated if you don't get the same in return. But you internalize your feelings more and have a hard time getting over them. You don't *want* to cheat -- you just keep finding yourself in vulnerable situations. But you'll stay with your partner in the long run from guilt and a desire to please.
Your sex life will always be hot. You are one of the rare people who can keep the fires of passion going forever -- if you find a good match. Find another XSYG and you will never need (or want) anyone else again.
Of the 121858 people who have taken this quiz, 8.2 % are this type.
HHAHAHAHA.....what am I supposed to say to this. Try it out yourself at: http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Personality&page=1
Yea...i'm bored right now...
Erik.
eXpressive: 6/10
Practical: 4/10
Physical: 7/10
Giver: 9/10
You are a XSYG--Expressive Sentimental Physical Giver. This makes you a Sex Bomb.
You are sexy sex sex sex! The sexness! You are the sexiest, hottest and most charismatic of all types. You are a captivating speaker and a great dinner date -- relaxed, self-effacing, charming and generous. Your type probably has origins in something sad -- trying to keep the peace in a tough family situation, or an early heartbreak -- and you'll probably want to address and resolve that at some point, but in your relationships that heartache is pure gold!
You lie effortlessly -- not necessarily a bad thing. You can have problems with fidelity. You need frequent praise and validation, and in seeking it you can make decisions that aren't consistent with your general good judgment. In other words, don't cheat on your significant other just because someone is paying attention to you.
You strongly dislike conflict, and will avoid it. Like an XPYG, you give so much of yourself to your partner that you feel dismissed and unappreciated if you don't get the same in return. But you internalize your feelings more and have a hard time getting over them. You don't *want* to cheat -- you just keep finding yourself in vulnerable situations. But you'll stay with your partner in the long run from guilt and a desire to please.
Your sex life will always be hot. You are one of the rare people who can keep the fires of passion going forever -- if you find a good match. Find another XSYG and you will never need (or want) anyone else again.
Of the 121858 people who have taken this quiz, 8.2 % are this type.
HHAHAHAHA.....what am I supposed to say to this. Try it out yourself at: http://hokev.brinkster.net/quiz/default.asp?quiz=Better+Personality&page=1
Yea...i'm bored right now...
Erik.
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