Monday, December 31, 2001


2 dayz since i wrote my last entry.... dats pretty good i must say..shows that that was the last time i was bored......

Been listennin to a lot of 'Gorillaz' in my car these dayz....some sorta trip hop/abstract hip hop artist for those of you who haven't heard of them...its the type of music that usually takes some time to get used to at first, but its nice chill, deep & funky music when you catch its beat....gorillaz's tunes are more catchy...they're distinct group i guess...not as easily acquired as those commercialized (ahmmy) tunes.....they got cool nice lookin animations too, those characters on their CD cover and MTV are well drawn..

Hahaha...theres a thing about ppl saying that getting stoned doesn't mix with trance...that, i still dunt know the answer to......but i do feel that trance doesn't mix too well with driving...i dunno...trance w/ vocals are alrite....milk inc., sarah mclahren shitz are ok......but i dunt feel the beat to those trancy electronic vibes when i drive..maybe it was the songs i was listennin to or something.....they were mostly oakey & PvD stuff........i wouldn't say its because the vocals are missing, cuz downtempo music works well w/driving, and that doesn't have a whole lot of vocals in it either.....i dunno i dunno...i'm bullshitin...lemme move onto something else...

Still eating like God as i mentioned earlier this break......was @ Yale town yesterday nite......some nice chic area that used to be an industrial zone years ago....its where a lotta yuppies chill out and live now.....fukin nice restaurants...designer stores...nice apts that face towards the harbor.....its nice....hahaha...thats the typa area i wanna live in when i start making a lil more cash...daz if i ever make it out of JH safely..still in one piece....
Back to Yale town......yeah, i went to an oyster bar for dinner there last nite...darn good stuff.....had oysters all meal....mostly raw...some pan fried...it was good...whole lotta variety of oysters too.....if i remember, i like the kukino's (something like that??) the most...thats the small sweeter ones that are from Japan...

went to play badminton for some weird reason yesterday.....at a club that had a 24 hour badminton gym.....hahaha....all i remember from that experience was that i got raped....kakakaka....shiet, and i thought maybe i was decent....seeing that i was 'ok' athletic and i did used to play a bit of badminton way back in highskool in HongKong, i thought i could just walk in and catch a couple games....damn man, they were good.....fukin made me realize that theres a whole new level beyond what i thought existed.....i mean, most their shots didn't land next to the line..but on it........i went in there...got raped 5 games in a row....and came out with a full body muscle cramp......I then found out that those peepz at that gym train their everyday.......hmmmm....no wonder its open 24 hours huh?!....think airik...think harder next time.....
if i had the time...i'd stick around and play on a normal basis though......its tite, intense & competitive gaming...


And now, the most important part of this update.....*drum roll*...*fill*.....*crash!*

I think I've finally found something that makes me happy in this life. New experiences and sensations make me happy. Knowledge and learnin new things make me happy. Finding out the answer to a question, puzzle makes me happy. Realizing things, the excitment to try new things reveals more of my true self. Its cool that way to.....cuz those are all things that do not have an end...i can't get bored of excitment...i can't know everything in this world....i'm not god!!...i'm only 'the King' rite?!...i won't ever be able to feel and sense everything there is....
Do any of you out there feel this way too??....ok, sure...i know there are a lot of boring, relaxed, not caring, chilled out, lazy, not so adventurous ppl out there....yes, you know who you are......but wat about everybody else....

Sorry, 'hope' still doesn't go along wuth happiness in my world for those who believe so.......cuz hope doesn't end....hope just leads to more hope and more expectations...
I'm learning to be thankful too....guess it just doesn't quite push into my lil head....

okee. HAPPY NEW YEAR Peepz!!

Hope you all stuck to your realistic resolutions last year and G'luck to your new ones...

aite.

Friday, December 28, 2001

Bout time i updated this blog shitz..........hahaha......due to the demands of Jon and all those random peepz that read my blogger, i have no choice but to come back and write more crap up here....Blogger was down yesterday couldn't update y'know....not ma fault...

Where to i start??.....really haven't done anything else but drive and chill out in these last couple dayz....can't believe i actually got my license today...WooHoo!!!....shiet man...it took me 5 days to learn drive and get a license.....pretty good for me i must say, wasn't part of my plan to pass....well worth my time spent....dunt need to get somebody to drive me around in Vancouver no more.....kakaka.....fukin nice....drive around and listen to music is mad chill.....friggin waited for this day yo......all i gotta do now is go back to Maryland and get a license before i talk to rents about a car...

Other than driving.....i've chilled out for the most part....went shopping at downtown Robson, played GTA3 (makes me hella dizzy man), watched DVD's and some canto movies.......got some more clothes @ FCUK....and most importantly, a pair of white and gold colored adidas's...been looking for something like this for sooooo long...its perfect..... and as for movies, i didn't really watch any spectacular...nuthin exactly worth mentioning...

Been eating as if i were the King back here at home....no more of that Momo shitz...no more Pizza & honey mustard wings...no more cafe Q egg and cheese bagels...
Nuthing but big ass full Meals.....damn....never realized eating wuth my parents was like eating with the Gods.....michin man.....we have food on the table that could last me for 3-4 dayz back at JH...lobsters, clams, steak, ribs, anything...i get to call whateva i wanted to have for our next meal...absolutely anything....both eating in or out ...
Most the time i'd completely pig out and there'd still be so much food left on the table....and i'd just sit there staring at it...i'd be completely full already but i didn't want to waste it.....i keep imagining wat'd happen if those ribs suddenly appeared in my kitchen back at bradford...hahaha...it wouldn't even last a day....it'd be some kind of first to find its existence first serve basis....

Its 2:30am now...getting tired....had a long day....especially the driving test.......not to mention i got locked outta the car (yeah, i'm an idiot like that)....had to call and get somebody to bring me the extra keys.....
Good chance I'm gonna go snowboarding tomorrow.......haven't done enough exercise these dayz....haven't done jack since bball wuth ahm & dave before the exams.....prob needa wake up early tomorrow to get ready and stuff....now that i think about it...the last time i snowboarded was 4 years ago...damn...

nite. Hope this entry will satisfy your monotonous mind numbing needs.


MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU ALL~~~!!

Saturday, December 22, 2001


@ VANCOUVER Y'ALL..

BAk home to rest and chill-out for a week or so before i go back to JHU for work....damn man...9am - 5pm everyday...itz gonna suck...i dunt even know wtf that project my prof assigned to me is about...

Just came back from renewing my driving license...gonna take the driving test in 6 dayz...shiet...itz gonna be do or die...i dunt have the time to retake the test if i fail it....

No (mo) Mood to write anymore...will be back to update when i do..

Gone.

Monday, December 17, 2001


fuck.

everynite i get haunted..

fuck.
Its Sunday late afternoon...the skys dark already tho, the stars are getting brighter......makes me feel like its time to go bed already......not prepared for DvQ yet...spent too much time on molecules earlier this week.....and slacked off after the exam yesterday, watched 'A knights Tale' instead...i personally liked it....fukin tite dialogue.....gonna add that to my 'must see again' list to learn that shitz.....damn cool....i want to speak like them....its poetic, yet not corny but cool....

Dreamt of a nightmare again last nite....its been happennin quite frequently these dayz....that same friggin nightmare.....its fuct up....i even wake up feeling that it was true too.....and i still think so.......not quite comfortable talking about it up here.....but yeah, i'm just waiting for that day til it stops...til the pain leaves.....*sigh*...too much child abusing going on in this world...

3 More Days til I'm a free man...can't wait til its all over....can't wait til its all friggin over....gonna let out in any such way possible.....
i'm getting sick of the library...chances are that its prob getting sick of me too......i needa take a break from the Dew...its starting to taste more like cough medicine than anything else....plus, its wiping my kids out....

Out yo.

~~~
Jon: This shit is getting seriouse!!!!!!!
Jon: my roommate found his "TRUE LOVE"
Jon: shit yo~~~~~~
Airik: whoever that is....
Airik: still got a lot to learn...
~~~

Sunday, December 16, 2001

Yo MAn...30min til Molecules&CElls....wtf....i'm still up here @blogger to write another entry ^^;

Hahaha...i can hear Pisan & GT outside my door getting all pumped up and ready to do this shit...hahahaa.....man...reminds me of SAT shitz..making sure you go toilet, get something to eat, enough sleep, etc......

I'm ready tho....yeah, i'm a confident bitch yo...kyokyo.....hey man, i spent the past week on this shit....doubt i can understand this stuff any better (alritealrite...i'm fucking the details...just lemme say it ok?!)....i'm just hoping the test won't drag....want to make it a good ol' 3 hour testing....i go in...i sit at my specified seat...i get the test...and i plow through it...

And after its over..i start studying differential equations for Monday....*sigh*...

Time to go.

Friday, December 14, 2001


One more Day til Molecules & Cells execution....shiet...its startin to freak me out now.....its like the main course of this semesters exam period....the friggin BME crap that i have to take with all my fellow 2004 BME classmates every semester.....its driving me nuts, especially knowing that even though i studied ridiculously hard for this class, there will always be somebody who did my double.....the fact that i've studied that much only puts me on the same level as all of them ( not to mention if i dunt study..i'll automatically fail before i even walk into the test room)......ARGH....crazy...fuking BME....and as usual......fukin JHU......

The library was pact today. M - level reminded me of fukin Cha lau shitz( and for the ppl who didn't understand, its the restaurants you eat dim sum @ in the morning.....or if you still dun get what i mean, just take it as a restaurant where local chinese ppl make a hella noise)....damn.....it was like crowded, noisy.....all they needed was a DJ and speakers...heehee.... throw a rave at the library....that'd be the complete JHU raverz dream..........
i was at D - level though (yes, you can assume D as for dungeon for those who dunno our library).....it was ok......sittin w/Pisan, DAve & jAmEs at OUR DESK.....(its the one all the way at the end if you make the first right).....hahaha....we basically own that desk....took over the table the weekend before exam period and just left all our books and our bags there....

Not to sound a like a complete nerd (alrite..call me one if you want..i'll admit it)...but i seriously believe our library should be open 24 hours throughout the year....

.....And also.....just a lil reminder to anybody else who reads off this ramblings and doesn't know me well...i'm no druggie you prob think i am...

Peace.

Thursday, December 13, 2001

Hahahaha....i'm bak.....can't sleep.....the following is what i was thinking of doin 2 and a half hours ago, and this is what i did 2 and a half hours ago:

FN: love is actually a bitch, u get used to it and take it for granted and when u lose it u feel like dying

JHL: well loving someone is just asking for pain
JHL: it causes friendships to break up
JHL: and i think very few ppl know real love. love gets mixed up with lust
JHL: its so hard to trust ppl
JHL: ppl say u havent lived if u havent loved but i think its bull.
JHL: well say a person has high expectations for a girlf/boyf, but they end up just getting with someone who doesnt match their ideal, coz they cant find their ideal, then how can that person truly love the other

???: Love is a desperation only defeated by its poisonous aftertaste

EC: self induced hypnotism...you hypnotise yourself into thinking you love someone..... and it gets stronger as time goes by because you are deeper hypnotised

Jan: love is good, but you must look after it .. NEVER take it for granted .. and respond to it ..
Jan: nurture it and take good care of it
Jan: i believe all love can work out
Jan: you just have to "tune" urself into what anther person wants
Jan: but that's rare these days
Jan: love makes u blind

liQuidTM: kaka..i seriously don't know wut love is.....i used to think it was bullshit..i thought it didn't exist.....but now.. i dunno....kakakkak...i think it might exist...but..i dunno..i hope it does...KEEEEEEEEEEYO
liQuidroomrvr: ........
Airik: .....

Jalen9396: it's when you deeply care about someone, you want what's best for them, even if it hurts you so much. youre willing to do anything for them. you like to be in this person's company more than anyone.
Jalen9396: i feel true true love is pretty rare nowadays
Jalen9396: people offen confuse true love with lust
Jalen9396: people are selfish
Jalen9396: they love to BE loved
Jalen9396: for example, God
Jalen9396: i find lotsa ppl love God because they feel he can do things for them
Jalen9396: most people would not believe in him if he didnt do things for them
Jalen9396: or they would doubt him
Jalen9396: like, when u love someone, it's cuz they make you happy

MelKok(02:51 AM) : i don't like luv .. 'coz u tend to lose control of yourself .. and i don't like the feeling of being manipulated by someone or sth ..

liQuid T: love = BS , feeling = sucks
liQuid trOn: Love is desire. Desire of ownership. As much as most people like to say they share their life with their partner. The evil within all human is too great. Most of the time it ends up in a zone where one partner is in a higher ground than the other. And as most human dislike not being in control. Results into conflicts and work-arounds. Love is a just a pretty word to describe a bullshit thought. The thought of taking care of one another, are more than often broken at crises situations. Most of the people in this world is still going to protect themselves from harm. Not that I am saying there is no true love in this world, but finding a true love is often too hard. It is not in one's control, but in fate to meet this one person.

CYu: it's when a person lusts for another i guess....when u have it it doesn't matter wut, u feel good.....but when u lose it u get fucked up the ass


Haha...ok finally, ma turn....

Airik: love is like drugs....its bad for you.....when you're high...it feels fukin good...you feel the so called 'love' in this world.......you see things differently...and you become (in ways) blind to the reality...
its addictive too...and knowing that it fucks you up, you still do it....you can hallucinate, you can have bad trips...and still, you can come back for it pushing the past all aside you...it can make you go crazy..it can bring you to your new extremes...
when the happiness is over..(you know when it is...you will know what i mean if you've been there)...it leaves nothing but depression, misery, anger, gloom, more hallucinations...and hope (in other words, more drugs)...
the only way to not let those drugs get into you, is control...but is love what it really is anymore when it is controlled?!?!!



FUCK.....thats 3 hours wasted.....gotta wake up @9:30am for review session....nite all.....



4 more exams to go....this coming Saturday, Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday......thats a total of 12 hours of intensive test taking in 5 days.......thats like a full day of test taking..damn....and i haven't even included studying time.....

Its Exam period....no lecture, no section, no labs, no teachers, no schedule...nothing but a good decent amount of sleep (12hours for me) and studying...

..and when i say studying....i mean STUDYING....that is, staying at the library thoughout the day...only taking occasional breaks to get food, more caffeine or a short rest...
So what am i doing rite here rite now??.....shieeeeeeet..

Gotta go sleep....wake up and study....

Saturday, December 08, 2001


Lemme start off today with something random off the web:
http://dailynews.netscape.com/dailynews/offbeat/main.tmpl

~~keeeeeeeeeyo....thats some random shitz.....man...thatz what i call pure determination and guts......a friggin machete man~~~hahaha...anybody lemme know if you can find shit like that on the web and wants me to share it out....

had a bad day today.....had to trash myself up this morning to goto the last section of the semster to pick up h/w, learn whateva i missed out earlier both this & last week.....kinda deserved it tho....i slept around 5am cuz Jon and ND were over to watch 'Blow'....another damn good movie....heehee....all those druggies out there will know what i mean.....and also....johnny deep (kakakka.....AK's new lover)....Penelope Cruz (shes a fukin goddess man...no doubt).....

anywayz, back to the bad day i had....yeah, the fukin N**ga slut at the post office today was a complete bitch.....Ahm & I carried my turntables all the way from Bradford to the post office to send them out (thanx Pisan!!...i know you read this jack everyday......akakakakakakakkakaka)......when we finally got there, she just took the boxes, stamped them and THREW/DUMP them into the basket w/out saying a word....when she was done, she wanted me to pay the $90 dollars to send them out..i was like 'Hellz No! I'm not paying $90'......i asked her if i could just take the boxes back and send them elsewhere...she said she didn't want to take them back out of the basket cuz they were too heavy and that since the boxes are stamped, she can't cancel the shipping anymore (completely not true)....oh my god man...i can't believe her attitude...throughout the whole time, she was just giving me the look...isn't this what she gets paid to do exactly, help the customer in any way possible for his/her postal needs.....i mean, i'm not asking for a lot...i just wanted to send my shit out, and since it turned out too expensive, i decided i wanted to have it sent elsewhere where i can save at least $60.....fukin slut man.....she thinks shes like the complete shit, and expects that everybody who walks up to the counter will give her the least trouble......i'm sorry man...but that was not even 'bad/no service'...it was 'making the customer want to beat the fuck outta her service'....this is not the first day this has happenned....its not PMS or someshit....shes just generally a fukin slut....in the end, the manager had to personally come out and help me out...it took 5mins for him to get it all setup for me......someday, i can see somebody fukin slap her brains out...

out.

Friday, December 07, 2001


back...hahaha...to procrastinate more....

seriously can't be bothered to do shit......seems like my ass doesn't feel that the MSE is its home anymore....i just want to sit here play the guitar and type away....fuck molecules & cells....fuck Orgo.....and FUCK Chem.....

couldn't fall asleep last nite...watched 'the usual suspect' from like 3-5am before i went back to sleep again...it was pretty good...good plot...good cinematography....i like these types of movies...the twist at end that messes around with your mind for the rest of the day....plan to watch it again sometime, i heard the scenes and dialogues were very carefully put together...

all of a sudden...i'm out of ramblings....gonna check out.

Thursday, December 06, 2001


Haha....I gotta thanks my bitch Andrew for showing me this blogspot shitz...kinda tite...one of the those only few things he actually does that aren't gay and are worth trying too (j/k..i'm just playing wuth you)..gonna try update this shitz whenever i sit in front of my desk in search of something random to do (yeah! thats pretty often)...

Damn N**ga..exams in a week....friggin missed all my classes for far this week cept for one Molecules & Cells class...i'm turning into a lazy fuck...ever since the weekend before thanksgiving break..since that 3rd Orgo midterm. Talking about that midterm, i haven't even bothered to go and get it back yet..should do that sometime later this week..gonna need it to study for my exams..

Ok, lemme quickly summarize wtf i've been doing for the past three weeks...

- played MGS2 - damn, haven't sat in front of a game for a straight 11 hours ever since Shenmue....that game is fuking good...i'd rate that a 9.8 ( -0.2 since you have to use that dumbfuck white haired kid)...itz a damn nice game tho...a lot of thought put into it, all those lil details and shit...hiding in lockers, dog tags, those FHM pics that stop the guards coming after you....

- PVD & Tiesto - Oh man!...that was some shit....even tho in the end that angel of mine in the sky blue UFO's was only into FAT (yes, FAT! NOt Phat!) N**ga's...it was still a fukin good time...the best Party i've ever been to over here in America....tiesto played some damn nice progressive trance...Ha! Everybody was going fukin nuts when the songs peaked.....shit it was good....enjoyed that shit all the way with my bunch of JHU raverz..kakakakkakaka......KEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYO!!!

- Smoke - Man...i dunno....if that was a good thing or not....fukin bad trips....ARGh.....stay away from that shit til Exams...no comment on how that shit is like.....so far i'm getting mixed results...

- RON (or Ronny as Pisan (or Mo as Ronny calls Pisan) called Ron) - that was pure Bro LOVE rite there man....damn...c'mon ppl....Ron Yip actually moved his ass to pick up the fone...call the travel agency...change his flight.....find out the bus times from Boston -> Baltimore (10 hour ride yo!)...and get to the bus on time without missing it....mad love to Ron man (alrite, Ron...i love you more than Ev now...hahaha)......hahaha......we didn't exactly do anything special cuz you were a bum...but itz all good....i needed that shit man...come chill out wuth your bro...

- DC - Yep...shopped and got my hair cut (@ONKYO)...got myself a triple 5 soul sweater, diesel Jeans, etc....

- Chillin OUt - hahaha...drink......chill wuth ND & Jon & J....watch movie...sit around...play guitar.....NICE.....why can't i live a normal college life like that....ARGH....JHU...

- Turntables - Heehee...sold my decks for $350 + shipping on Ebay....kakaka...i only got them for $400 + shipping a year ago....they've been messed around wuth enough anywayz...gonna upgrade my whole set man.....Gonna get a nice Vestax 270a Trance & Techno Mixer.....and prob some decent Stanton 8-80's....dunt have that cash to get Technics...especially since i just got a new PS2, clothes both online and at DC

Alrite, i've wasted enough time...Peace.