Sunday, June 30, 2002

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Wednesday, June 26, 2002

Aite, this is gonna be my last blog before i head to da west.....too much to do from now til i leave....got csf and automata exams.....and still needa pack and move my stuff (including diz comp and my baby elec. guitar)......dang, i miss it already...haha....

HEhe....the one day road trip to Virginia and DC........was cool....eventhough Ron and I didn't get as lost as we expected.......haha.....f*kin pickupizms man.......no more of that shit next year...i'll be rollin on ma own auto........hahah....was tite tho.....stocking up on chips, mocha candies, water, and a whole pile of CD's......hehe......change the CD f*cka....

If theres a movie that needs to be seen......I'd make it the new summer block buster 'Minority Report'........shit, itz good.....i still go around sayin 'I haven't been entertained for a straight 2 and a half hours for soooooo long'.......nearly every aspect of the film is perfect that way it is......a plot that twists and brings you all over the place.......damn cool prediction of year 2057.......hahaha....so controversial too ^^//......all those gadgets and BME shitz.....haha...shit......and of course, directed very well......i'm not a steven spielberg fan.......but he's really proven to me in this film that he still knows how to hit the audiences' sweet spot.......i say again.....If theres a movie to be seen so far in this summer....make this the one!!

Got a really neat comp case from colorcases.com last week......with a blue plasma light inside it and all that......its gonna be real neat......also got parts to upgrade my comp.....more memory.....a bigger harddrive for my daily expanding MP3 list (its around 2300 mp3's as of now)......and also the platinum Audigy Sound Blaster card.....hehe...gotta listen to my music with the quality you know??......hopefully i'll have the time to upgrade it before i leave....especially with all the work in the way and stuff.....

Was talkin to volcom 3 a lil while ago......hahah....and i promised him that I'd kinda skim on my life transition thingys throughout my life....i actually don't really like talkin about my past on da blog...seems so boring and not interesting to read....but whateva....
So yeah, I was a friggin geek back then....pretty much all the way uptil grade 8......my life revolved around computer games and video games...that was all i did then.....i would goto skool during the day...come home and play games and do all that geek shit on my comp.....i'd fiddle around with the comp memory (back then you had to reorganize your memory to play certain games on MS-Dos).....basically, games was all i worried about...all that i thought about and talked about with friends....hahah...

Then, at some point....i somehow got suckered into sports...mostly basketball.....uptil now, i still don't understand why i liked it then...but i just did....and i played it day in day out....always after skool.....maybe it was cuz all the big guyz at my skool played it....and I'd watch in amazement while they played......so yeah, upto now...i'm still pretty proud I made it to captain of the team before I left to boarding skool (it was respect man!!..hahaha).......i turned from a complete gaming freak into a jock.....i still played video games a lot...but it wasn't to the point that i had nuthin else in mind..........it was the basketball i suppose, that kinda lead me to play other sports too....it all just rolled in together, i played everything....badminton, volleyball, athletics, blah blah....

It was til i left for boarding skool...for grade 11...that i changed again.....maybe cuz i just felt then that sports was not going to be the thing that would put me into a good college (a lot of other things too...but that would take another entry to talk about..i'll do that some other time).....i pretty much put a stop to most of the sports i played......haha....and to the amazement to a lotta those that knew me from before.....i started working!!....hahah...i was obsessed with doing well and getting into a good college....i did my h/w right after class...and aimed to finish most of it before study hall everynite (if i remember its 8pm - 10pm...its basically, during that time..you hafta stay in your room and study..stupid prep skoool stuff)......i was such a nerd towards the end of highskool......the only time to let out was when i came back every summer and christmas...going out to do random stuff at nite...hehe.....it was, however, at boarding skool....that i learned many important things....one of those is to appreciate everything in this world (only an int'l skool kid would see the difference if they had to leave to a boardin skool like mine...argh..)....and another is Music.....i had music on in my room basically 24 hours a day.....it was like as if i was a constant never ending DJ.....i'd play CD over CD while i did whateva i did in the room......trance and japanese rock were probably the first two things that i got absorbed into first......i liked techno a lot cuz it was all digital and stuff.......i liked trance with no vocals (opposed to i love vocals now)........and japanese rock was just cool...dunno y..haha...........One of the most amazing things is that i actually hated music as a kid (opposed to being totally in love with it now)......all throughout the geek and jock life....i never paid much attention to music...i always thought that music just wasn't my thing....i thought i was a sporty kid or something......anything musical was not important to me....
So I finally got to JHU through hard work in prep skool.....having to come here with the mind set of 'party party party'......i got ass raped by the skool......i got blown down mentally....I pushed myself to somehow stick with the crazy BME stuff........throughout my two years here so far....i guess I've finally found my balance..........sports, design, skool, music, computers, games (ok, less games), family, friends and just life in general.....i've kinda pulled everything together into this weird pretty boy guy that likes and appreciates everything around me......haha...i appear to be nothin i really am.....i don't smoke....i don't goto a shitty uni...i work...i love music....i like to particpate in intellectual discussions.......(and everything i don't look as if i am).....Its as if i've tied up every phase of my childhood to become what i am rite now......
I'm tired...i wanna stop...too many details....it'll take pages and pages to fill in...

HEhe....Music of the Ramble.....I suppose these two songs started it all for me.......~~~ Children - Robert Miles (trance) ~~~ I For You - Luna Sea (jap rock) ~~~~....uptil this day....i still love these two songs......won't ever get sick of them.....

i'm an hour late to csf...think i better bounce..

oh and also......BK at the JH Stadium...hehehe...so movie like.....and the chill drive....nice..

Airik bounced.

Thursday, June 20, 2002

Its the perfect time to blog right now. Todays classes are over...well, not technically....but it is for me ^^
Ron is asleep, everybody else in the suite is either sleeping or at class, i just got my midterm back (hehe...i'd prob be up here either if i did good/bad)....but if you know me, i guess it wouldn't be hard to tell how i did from the way i blog rite now...........lesson learned: prove what you can say, don't say what you can't prove.

Anywayz, back to the perfect time to blog rite now....yeah...i was reading some other ppls blogs just now...and somehow got inspired to come up and waste a lil time of my own too.......i have a good couple ideas in mind.......but i'm not quite sure which one to start with first....cuz usually, by the time i finish blogging about one point i'll have forgotten all the others i wanted to talk about.....its frustrating too....discourages me to continue to blog cuz I've forgotten what I've wanted to blog about..and its the 'thing' i want to blog about...nuthin else...

Ok, stupid point made already.....and now to some random rambles.....hehe....lemme start with the 'crazy talk'.........i actually really like that phrase......i can still hear ron bitchin 'crazy talk airik...crazy talk' next to me rite now as i blog........i gotta admit its crazy tho........hahah...krazy airik...i actually like it.......Ok, so as i always do...lemme explain 'crazy talk'.....the logic behind it.........This is how it works:

Things happenning around me triggers thoughts......and thoughts triggers other thoughts.....and this goes on like letz say for example, the alphabet......so I think of thought A...which leads to thought B...which leads to thought C...and etc....
The thing is....letz say i have a string of thoughts A to F........by the time i get to thought F...and i see a connection between thought A and thought F......i start explaining that connection i see, hence the 'crazy talk'.......I would explain the connection from thought A to thought F through B,C,D,E......but i would forget C,D by the time i get to thought B....I would try backtrack my thoughts from thought F, but will have forgotten thought B by the time i backtrack from thought F to C........if i ever do explain the whole sequence from thought A to thought F through B,C,D,E....i would've forgotten the direct connection between thought A and F......hence, the crazy talk....cuz theres either no point to any of my explaination if i dun't explain all the connections correctly between the logic........

Ok...theres more to this crazy talk logic...but i'm startin to feel i should just keep it as that.....i'm crazy talkin already.....sounds like some automata shit anywayz...but yeah, crazy talk is good.....its so crazy its always a good laugh....

Hmmmm..how about the song of the Ramble??....Everyone of you know of this one already....but its just sooooo musically delicious that I feel that I should blog about it anywayz....just to make sure the one or two kids that haven't heard it yet, now know about it.......i consider this commericalized pop music at its best ~~~~ Stan - Eminem feat. Elton John (Grammy Award Performance) ~~~.......i got the video...so ask me for it....its damn cool...........

Aite...i'm bored now...gtg
Erik.

gay..i spilt water over my cordless keyboard...and now its gone krazy too..

Saturday, June 15, 2002

I told myself at the end of my previous blog entry that I will continue with the rambles of mine that I did not get to blog about last time......but 3 days later ( basically, now)....i dunt feel the urge or I've lost my inspiration to write about what I was going to write about then nemore....Its as if, that stuff is past me already...its old.....i've grown...time has gone by....its a new day to a new start......I'm not bothered to back track my thoughts (its hard...my mind jumps, skips and hops around)....Backtracking my thoughts usually opens up more ideas and values.....it stops me from getting back to my main destination thoughts cuz i hate having to leave open questions unanswered or not explored....

Without much further ado, let me first let out the song of the ramble....I was watching diz song on MTV last week, the video wasn't spectacular, but the song is damn good....the only way i can describe it is that its really really 'relaxed'.....any of you girlz and boyz that like trip-hop or downtempo must chek it out ~~~ Destiny- Zero 7 ~~~~

DAng it....needa go mall w/Ron...aite...will b back....especially since CSF and Automata midterms were over today.

<-AIRIK

Oh And Yeah, the stupid rain drenched me again yesterday....someday it'll pay...someday....."what goes around comes around" (hehe...this is the only exception when i'd use this phrase...its too cliche these dayz..)

Wednesday, June 12, 2002

'Go blog!' I tell myself.

In my mind, I believe todays entry will be the first one I actually feel I have the responsibility to write. Maybe also the first blog I'll write that will be in complete sentences too ^^. Seems like so much has happenned so far during diz summer session. Without any doubt, of course, 'Starscape' has surely been one of the biggest pivots of the summer so far. The Baltimore, Maryland massive rave that ties up loose ends, gives the strawberry-banana (or pineapple) smoothie another good blend, or just a time when I find myself once again reflecting upon my deadness. ~~~~~~~~ Lost.... ~~~

Ok, regroup. Maybe I should try again. Got completely lost inside my own thoughts in my last paragraph and can't be bothered to go back and get it right. Anyhow, I don't feel like going into how I get lost in my own thoughts and etc... so let me continue with my so called 'should write' blog entry that I want to try put into words:

The first thing that comes to my mind is friends. Most of you by now will probably think that I'm getting into all this right now because of the consequences of starscape, but let me tell you all that you're wrong. I don't come up with random thoughts over night. They are born, they grow and I tell them when they are matured. Its simply impossible for me to show and prove what I want everyday and every minute. I live my life not a step at a time, but by as far as i possibly can. Things come and go, yes, its not up to us to decide upon things that we do not have control over. But what about things that you've never thought would happen? Every second we live, every mile we travel is decided upon our own hands. I finally realize for the first time, that everytime you say 'life sucks' or 'i'm bored', its actually only a consequence of your own. We make our own lives. It would be wrong for me to push you all to stop whining and complaining, but those mental states do not belong to my language anymore. To come and think about it, I have not been bored and I have not hated my life since everlong (hehe). If you enjoy spending your free time watching MTV or ESPN (BET?!) with your friends all day, go for it.
Nothing can stop me from doing what i want to. No excuses allowed. Even if i was blind, deaf or lost an arm. If I am determined to buy myself a pair of shoes that cost $18,500, I will figure it out whether it means finding extra work aside from my normal work. Only the worthless bunch sit and moan about the what ifs. Anything must be possible.
I'm a D.I.Y freak, i won't say its a quality but it helps me understand what I want and what makes me happy. I do what i want to do, I ask about what needs to be answered.

Ha, the times at Bradford. Through storms; AK's; BB bullets; the rain; the RA; Wings; beers; shots; george?; and an endless combination of emotions, venues and events it finally wraps up into a huge garbage bag that should have been thrown out daily. It doesn't even feel rite for me to blog about it, its a 3 (or maybe 4?) player game. It would be wrong for me to define the rules alone.

For the musically restless me, also a photograph hater, lets all imagine a set where 6 kids sit by a wooden dock in front of a lake. You can hear the sound of waves crashing gently into the cool breeze played by the wind. The sun has just risen, it blends in perfect with the golden blue sky and metallic colored water. They sit not aligned, but with their bodies in which ever position comfortable. I don't remember every tune they sung with their dry and probably sour voices. But like that mattered a single bit.
**a new song is traveling through my brain, anybody that can come up with a drawn pic would be awesome!**

And finally, to end this 'I wasn't even able to blog about an eighth of the things i wanted to blog about' entry, its time for the song of the ramble. ~~~~ Your tune - (You) ~~~~ HAha, I can't see how any one tune would be able to respresent what I wanted to say throughout this entry. I'm going to leave it up to you all to tune into this song. It can be anything. Your favourite tune? The melody stuck in your head for the past week? The song you thought about while reading this entry? Absolutely anything that suits you.

Erik.
4 da froggie teacher: "Those that are not growing are dead." So grow with me.

- oh yeah, ron is here.haha.

Friday, June 07, 2002

Been drenched in the rain 3 times for the past month...I'm seriously beginning to wonder whether is it because its jealous that I'm totally in love with the sun. I suspect this cuz everytime when I get soaked in the rain it stops when I finally get indoors. I seriously get the feeling that the rain starts pouring just to piss me off and its not just some stupid kid doing the rain dance^^....I mean, why is the rain so stupid?? Its just giving me a reason to hate the it and like the sun even more.

Changing rooms next year.....from 1207 to 1715 at Hopkins House....gay...i actually want an executive more than a one bedroom....however glad that the view will be nicer tho.....high up 17th liting it....

I'm beginning to hate my blog....its stupid...immature and boring to write......I think its about time to give it a change......change the way i write...change the stuff i write about....and just generally turn it upside down...haha.....i'll seriously consider that when i have a lil more time....
Too much to get done these dayz...with automata and CSF h/w botherin my ass.....all these errands to do......oh yeah, not to mention my stupid research too!!....damn u prof and partner....both of you have made my spring semester worse!! (dunt interfere with the summer ok!!).....i absolutely hate ppl who shit me around when i treat them with mad respect....

Song of the Ramble....a lotta songs i want to put up these dayz.....especially cuz i've been buying a lotta CD's..but this one caught my ear just 30mins ago...~~~ Artful Dodger - We Should Get Together feat. Nadia ~~~....its a bouncy cheerful tune...i like.....

i'm out man..i've enough.
"I want to meet a slim cute funky girl that can rock on the guitar"

Monday, June 03, 2002

Finally done drafting ma 1st Guitar song. Might still make changes to it...i want to add a twsit to it (maybe a dnb or rnb beat? scratching?)....its 'slow rock' rite now..i want to modern it up a lil, its too old skool....but I'd expect diz to be mostly the tune tho...its not good.....but then again, can't expect a kid like me to produce anything other than shit...(otherwise i wouldn't be here....i'd be livin large =)....gettin the royalty)

Drop D tuning

Your Room - Airik

Every scent goes a long way
-A-------------------------Dm
--I still remember
A--------Dm--------------------------
the bedsheets our skin wrapped away
-----A--------------------E------------------D--------Dm

The Lights are darkening
-A------------------Dm
Shady Shadows a candle is flickering
A--------------------------Dm----------E
Pushing pullin' away...oh yeah!
--Dm----------------F------------Fm

I know I'm not dreaming
-A------------------Dm
I know I'm awake
-A------------Dm
I know I'm not dreaming
-A------------------Dm
I don't need to explain
-A------------------E

Staring at those frames
-A------------------Dm
they give me pain
-A--------------Dm
Every word, every single wall
-A--------------------------------Dm
Engraved into my song
-A-----------------------E

I know I'm not dreaming
-A------------------Dm
I know I'm awake
-A------------Dm
I know I'm not dreaming
-A------------------Dm
I don't need to explain
-A------------------E-----------Em

Solo: Am E Dm G Dm G Am E

Those eyes white
-A--------------Dm
Those eyes dry
-A--------------E
Too much crack and cocaine
-A----------------------------Dm
lets sit around til the morning
-A----------------------------Dm
I Persist to stay and lie
A--------------Dm---------E


Ashtrays of funk and punk so bright
-A---------------------------------------Dm
Seems like the room is spinnin around all night
A---------------------E----------------------------------Fm
Every word, every single wall
-A-------------------------------Dm
Engraved into my song
-A-----------------------E

I know I'm not dreaming
I know I'm awake
I know I'm not dreaming
I don't need to explain

I know I'm not dreaming
I know I'm awake
I know I'm not dreaming
I don't need to explain cause you know me oh yeah..
A-------------------E-------------------------F-----------------Fm

cause you know me yeah..
-A---------------------------Dm
cause you know me yeah..
-A---------------------------Dm
cause you know me oh......yeah!
-A----------------------------F-------E

Sunday, June 02, 2002

Bak.

Feels like its been a long long time since i've blogged about stuff going on in my life. All the way back since my signals exam (Yey! Did better than expected!! ^^ kyokyo)...actually all my grades have been better than expected.....weird....i haven't worked as hard last semester, but i've somehow done better grade-wise.....weirdweird...less stress about work maybe.....i'm more chill about it now.....i'm getting that JH groove,,,,

Ok....lets rewind all the way back.....yep, all the way bak when i left to NYC for bro's graduation at NYU.....dang man, at radio city....nicenice hall for graduation....hehe...eventho i slept through half the commencment, it was cool....its funny to see how all stern grads were Azn, Indian or Jews.....hehehe.....
argh...can't believe it'll be my turn sooooo soon........i'm halfway through college...dang...

Ate rilly rilly well while I was with my parents at NYC and Baltimore.....i'm talking about steak, italian, chinese or blah blah at any restaurant i wanted....haha...my parents spoil me like krazy......
Yep.....i've also finally gotten myself a place to live next year.......my parents seriously made it look so easy.....they just walked into the housing counter with me...and automatically got me a place.......Room 1207....yep.......can't wait til i have my own apt....my own car next year.....can't wait can't wait....i'm nearly set....i'm sooo close....hahaha....brotherhood yo T.T

Been chillin big time since parents left......just gettin stuff together...going to work....driving the pickup....hehe....through the shithole ghettos to Arundel with TM.....finally had time to catch up with the movies too.....i was averagin 3 movies a day at some point (y do ppl think i'm bored when i tell them that? i love movies...).....
Also made a trip to Upenn.....was good....chill....hahaha......gettin in touch with the real world.....the real business world out there....haha.......JK and JT......yeah, it was cool.....and of course philly's china town man!!......sooo jealous......

Summer Skools started for a week....MonWedFri...9am - 2:30pm.....its alrite....its long....but i get a day off in between....so itz all good...

Song of the Ramble ~~~ Foo Fighters - Everlong (acoustic version) ~~~ eventho i've got a lot to say...i'm not in the mood to talk about music these dayz...maybe next time..

Still not in the mood to blog really....left a lotta info out...but whateva.....as i always say..."its my blog, i can do anything i feel like doing with it"

- Erik
"Fantasy is what we want, Reality is what we need"