One of the things at the top of the 'make me angry' list....is to find out that you wrote a blog entry that got erased in the process of publishing........everybody, pls spend 5 secs of slience and feel my pain...

Ok...so what now??.....i just wrote a great entry about the randomest things in the world.....nice, fresh and minty.... straight outta my mind for all my fellow readers.......but its gone........argh......so what now??...write again??.....try rewrite??......man...it'll never be the same.....diz not math (not even in math it'll be the same...haha)....

aite aite i'm gonna try:

Back once again to waste time (and of course some of yours too in the near future)....

I just spent the last 15mins reading the diaries of some people i don't even know personally.......haha....wow....i'm surprised at the length of the list of 'links to other diaries' in some of them........ok, so you might think, why the hell am i reading the diaries of some random kids i dont even know instead of my friends??.........to tell you the truth, its becuz they got none......or to be more precise, they don't give a f*ck about stuff like......i think they either got better things to do...or at least feel that they do......haha......all good........but yeah, while they read my blog and stick their noses under my tree....i'm forced to stick mine under those that i dunt even know....
Now back to the diaries of others........dunt you think these diaries we write reflect our personality and thought so well!!....i mean, wow!!...i'm surprised at the differences between the diaries that we write......i like to use '.....'s to show a pause or change in thought.......i write short incomplete phrases......i dunt spend time writing grammatically correct english....i don't write good english and neither use wordy words.......to me, in my diary, the most important is to get the message and meaning across......its the content but not how it is presented that matters to me..........
Its great.......just like the individuals we are......we write such individual diaries........all shown through the content and style........its as if you can hear the person talk about the same stuff next to you.......some ppl like to write well thought out or nicely written english (they really care about how they are presented).....some ppl like to doodle (must be day dreamers!!)......some like to talk about whats on their mind 24/7( the usual case, uptight about work)........some like to write short one sentence paragraphs....some like to write about their theories......blahblah....too many.......man, we all so different.......i do admit tho, i care about what others read in my blog...and what others see of me through it.....its gay......but its only human......don't we all care??!!
So i ask myself (i'm realizing i dunno what i'm talkin about now).....why the hell am i blogging??....what am i trying to do with it??.....what msg am i trying to convey across to my readers??..........hmmm......good question....good question.......i think there are two answers to this question........the first is that i like to talk to myself (i will further on explain later).........the second...hmmm...i dunno......depends on my mood i guess?......depends what i just happen to think about?....about what i did today......about an event....an airik theory........something i'd like to share......its weird.......i logon blogger.com everyonce so often........i face this empty text editor in which i fill up with stuff that comes in and out of my head everyday....whether its something i just want to ramble about...or something that i thought may have been interesting for my readers on my blog........its a place for me to talk to somebody i suppose (man..no friends williing to listen...*sigh*...).........so why am i blogging about all this??......and why the hell are you spending the time to read it??.......beats me ^^;
Oh, and back to the first answer......i like to talk to myself.......hahaha....exactly what i did just now (if anybody noticed that is)......yeah, i like to ask questions.....i always open discussions to my questions without even having to spend the time to try answer them first on my own.........yes, its pathetic....but i do it.....i ask questions and answer them myself....its like talkin to yourself.........haha.....the point of questions is to have an unknown answered....but what about asking a question in which the answer can be answered by the questioner?.......haha...where the hell did that come from.........again, i ask questions i can answer myself.......why???.......beats me........but ask me, and i'll beat you......

Ok...enuff crazy talk.........theres exactly 12 hours left til i leave vancouver.......still gotta pack....hehe....jackin all this stuff from home.....saving some dough.....including my auto...i've also got...an amplifier...a nice sony stereo....otherstuff.......and of course....tonnes of FOOD!! (ration to be exact...)......

OHOH...music....of.........da......ramble (i actually think 'music of the ramble' sounds so gay...nxt time and from then on...it'll be called something else)..........hmmm.......i dunt remember whether i've put this song on before......but whateva.....its real real good....so its aite...~~~ Coldplay - Yellow ~~~....so what you waiting for???!!.......GO DOWNLOAD.!!!...BUY!!!...STEAL!!....WHATEVA!!!...GO GET IT!!!..

=Pack time.
Ariik.
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YEAH!!!....its finally done....better written??..not as well written.....man...i dunt wanna care.....

some last crazy talk...reward myself (myself?!) for having spent the time to rewrite all that thought which got erased....
so yeah.....hehe....all you diary writers can prob relate...hehe.....nearly everytime before i choose to click on the publish entry button....i've learned to add an extra routine.....and that is to copy and paste my entry somewhere else just in case shit happens.......its only through mistakes you learn (sigh!..so sad).........so why the hell did i mess up just now??........its cuz i clicked on the publish button without copy and pasting........'duh!!!' you might say......so whats my point?.......the thing is, a lil dialog box popped out asking me to confirm my publishing.......and i, like always, quickly chose to 'cancel' the confirmation without thinking becuz i had forgotten to copy and paste (my supposedly way to help me save my work)..........yep, and so everything got erased cuz i canceled the confirmation to publish.......the reasoning behind it? my stupid copy and paste scheme to save my work backfired...........gay...

Lesson learned: You can't stop shit from happenning.

Haha...came across some random stuff on jon's xanga.......man, i like how you can write comments and give out eProps......i wish i could get a lil more repsonse from my readers......stupid blogger.com!! (ok, i don't mean it...don't band me)....i need some encouragement yo!!....*hint* *hint*....otherwise i'll threaten to quit bloggin!!!....kekeke.......
But anywayz, yeah....hahah......a perfect example of different perspectives from my mates at skool:

every1 wants to grow up soo fast... so do i... however.. i think i grow up too fast.... like i have un normal stress..... who ever thinks that a kid like me... will have big business decisions..... hahaa.... i'm leading a line of different computer products.... service oriented..... dont' wanna give away my ideas to other people... but.... man.... stress.... and should i be a partner in da company... own a 20% stake in it.... stress.... some times i wonder.... am i normal... i mean most kids who are 20 worry about dumb stuff.... like my rents dont' let me go out... or i need a gf or..... some dumb stuff like dat.... like is it cool to do this... or should i relax.... people who read this give me some input......

company assets 100k (liquid)

contracts 175 k

my product line... 3 wks of inception... 50k to date....

i think i can boost dis company... up crazy amout...

wut u think? go for it jon... or relax and b normal.... plz post comments
Posted 7/28/2002 by jonisgod at 3:04 am
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i think you are really amazing. you are the greatest. every day i sit in my room and cry that i was cursed to be me and not you.
Posted 7/28/2002 at 3:37 pm by erickio

man....haha...my friends always gimme new surprises.....

Boo to you.
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Haha....i figured the best way to give everybody a good laugh without offending anyone would be to make fun of oneself......always the stupidest things or most human-like things we do are give a good laugh....
So yeah, I drove my Dad out today to his chiropractor, massage therapist, chinese doctor (whateva you want to call him, we get the point).....ok, so this therapist is pretty famous for the shit he does........he's always fully booked eventho its friggin expensive per hour.... but anywayz, in meat and bones, what he really does is massage your tendons and ligaments.......i'm telling you man.....its PAINFULL!......it'd be impossible to describe the pain... but he claws onto you and puts pressure on you all the way down to your bones and massages your tendons.....pushes deep in between your ligaments and stuff......i've actually had a previous appointment with him for 30mins before for stiff shoulders and I came out of that place with totally drenched pants cuz my legs just kept sweatin (i didn't piss in them).......haha....so embasrassing......
Anyhowz, i drove my dad for his appointment today........and when i came back to pick him up, i spent 15mins of his appointment to massage my thumb.....damn, and guess why i decided to have it checked??......hahaha....*blink*.....my stupidest weakness if any of you recall................*sigh*....Music..........wtf....this is how far i'd go to do what my heart is at.........i made myself go through another worse time of my life so that i can barre my guitar better and endure longer while i practice (well, it was injured already cuz i've been over playing) ........hahaha....i know its friggin stupid as hell....but yeah, i did it.......and its idiotic.......well, dats me...haha........i put my life and energy into whateva i want to do well in.......
my thumb is still numb...

Music of the Ramble time....~~~ System of a Down - Aerials ~~~.......I never liked this song much when i first saw it on MTV (about an alien lookin kid)......but i've gotten to like it the more i hear it.........yep..i've always liked those type of songs where you don't quite like at the beginning....... but the more you hear it the more you get to like it later........its those songs that you like the first time you hear are always the ones that get borin soon...........but yeah, this song gives me a deep, sad feeling...........hahaha.....i think this quote i got off volcom 3 describes it best.....'the more i see people, the less i want to become one'......well, its something like that....he's not online....so i can't ask him...haha......

....boo

to all the ML ppl last summer 2001....man, now i realized i had a great great time....

Either i'm generally running of out of rambles.......or maybe, i'm just not quite bothered to blog nemore........haha....feels like there are better things to do instead.....rather watch TV...eat....sleep....

Yes. To those that think its another crazy airik doing, I had music lessons......And to those that think its cool, I had guitar and music theory lessons a couple dayz ago.......i thought it was great......a straight two and a half hour lesson of music theory and lil bits and pieces to put all that i know into order........was especially interesting and informative cuz i like all that stuff anywayz.....not that the theory is interesting, but knowing that it'll help expand the power i have with my music was just way cool......i mean, it was only some basic music theory too....helping me put the songs i'm writing together...structuring it all.....what sounds better, what doesn't...

I can't think of anything to blog about rite now.....music of the ramble time i suppose....haha......~~~~ David Usher - Black Black Heart ~~~....this guy is great....he's CANADIAN!!!.....hehe.....pride man pride.......it sorta reminds me of jap rnb stuff.....but yeah, its a very special song.....after i heard this for the first time, i was like 'woah~!...repeat repeat!!'......i think i'm gonna check his CD out.....its called ~ Morning Orbit ~...go check him out with me =)

Got all the stuff to send my auto ready today.....yep.......i'd really like my own license plate too....too bad i don't have enough time to make it tho.....i'm gonna have it made during chrismas for sure.....i've decided to simply make it 'AIRIK'.......hehe, everybody that ma car!!...........yep, anyhow, i'll be sending it early next week before i leave.....should get it a week or two into skool....

Same shit going on here in Vancouver like last time...nuthin new to talk about....the same ol' do whateva i want.....shopping, driving range (i'm just plain smackin them now ^^), TV, movies, guitar, drums, video games, chatting, eating anything i want....blah blah blah......yeah, not exactly interesting interesting..........just relaxing......getting ready to get back to skool....getting some sleep....... finally enjoyin my chill part of the summer........Will prob see kyle tomorrow....hangout..do something....all good....

haha.....i dunt have anything to talk about.....gonna bed.

Bloggin once again from Vancouver....its great to be back home....haven't stopped downloading songs ever since i got back two nites ago.....just sucking up on the web..chatting, surfin, downloadin all sorts of new music....getting some good rest.......and of course, gettin the 'livin at home' royalties...

Been spending time with rents so far.....groceries....eating out......even went play some golf today....its been such a long time since i've played......no time for stuff like this in college i suppose......didn't exactly play well.....kinda rusty and stuff......but its all good.....i'll prob play again soon enuff.....and i'll pick my game back up.....i like golf........i gotta admit the learning curve is kinda steep....but its great when u get the groove of it and you start to hit some great shots in da game.....

All these new cd's, movies, magazine from HK.........argh...makes me miss home even more.......haven't even had much time for that stuff tho......got lil bro hanging around.....haha.....hes got all these games and anime dvd's......hehe......so geeky......but i've watched 30 more episodes of hunter x hunter in the past two days already........i like warcraft 3 and all, but i guess i just lost the love for the games......too much gaming when i was a kid.......don't even play when i got nuthin to do now....not to mention playing for fun.....

Seems like vancouver has gotten more and more crowded over the past years.....more ppl walking around the streets.....a hella lot more nice looking apts.......and just generally ppl doing stuff all over the place......i've gotten to like this place a whole lot more in the past couple dayz.......it used to be boring and dull..but now its nice and chill..........perfect place to hang out with broz.......

I've changed since when i first started blogging last november-december......yep...i can really see a difference now.....i've gotten to become more in touch with my feelings.....my attitude towards life has changed significantly to a positive perspective........and most important of all, i've gotten to become a happier and relaxed person........i think i've grown...and still growin everyday........i go through everyday making the most and best out of it rather than feeling lonely miserable and depressed......you guyz prob dunt read my blog, but i want to thank my roommates especially for helping me climb out of the shit hole i used to be in back then (you guyz helped me out out of everybody!!)......life was not cool back then.....i was blind..i could not hear....and i lived in a world where my emotions smouldered me......

I'm sick of shallow people.....i'm sick of living in a world where everybody is self absorbed....selflish......and unreal........those ppl that dunt admit their true feelings.....those that live in a totally social world no matter how much they think they don't.........sooo insensitive to others lives.....they dunt understand the true friendships that could be.......all they care is what those other shallow ppl think about them......what other ppl see of them instead of what they really are........all want to be popular...all want to be known....all want to be center of attention......all want to be in the crowd.........urgh..i'm sick...

Music of the Ramble....~~~ The Vines - Get Free ~~~......haha..sorry guyz.....still more rock and alternative......these guyz are somewhat similar to the hives i mentioned earlier a couple blogs ago...

ARIK

Hee.....SHOUT OUT TO BROZ....U GUYz are ALWAYS GReat...u know who u r deep down...

More chat for those that find it interesting....

Sukendar: anyway, bball, dribble behind the back, right to left hand, defend step to left, and i spin to right, broke his ankle, shoot, the other 2 defenders tried to block, i passed to a guy underneath the rim make an easy assist
Sukendar: so fucken gooooood feeeeeel
Ec4K: .......
Ec4K: .......
Ec4K: haha
Ec4K: i like that
Sukendar: prob u dun know a word i said
Sukendar: kaka

MY Last nite at Cali.......finally an end to summer skool........an end to skool for the next two weeks or so..........so so glad........i'm tired....... exhausted.......its like you know how even though you haven't been to class much, you still somehow feel responsible for your classes........yep.....taking classes distorts your mind from being completely chilled everyday.....haha....as i always say.....our own minds are both the scariest thing and the thing to be most afraid of in this world......

Anyhow....yeah.....safe and sound at lin's place.....its been a hella week......too much for me to withstand alone........no home...no shelter......its been awful.......
I live everymoment of my life to understand and appreciate......its funny how we are more appreciative of the past and what is already over more than the present......don't you think so??.....Its only after we've gone through the hard times til we appreciate how it changed you into a more enduring person.......its only until after you spend your summer at work with these random kids til you realize that it was a lot more fun than it was then.......sounds somewhat ridiculous, but we should try appreciate the good times and bad times of everymoment of our life......cuz we shall know that we'll appreciate it evenmore after its over whether good or bad...

Too much crazy talk....go change the subject......oh! of course, the song of the ramble....can never forget....erm...lemme see.....~~~ Dave Matthews - The Space Between ~~~...i've been putting a lot of rock and altenative these dayz.......that shall go to a temporary halt soon....as soon as i get back to secondary home Vancouver.....but yeah, this dave matthews song inspired me to write this song for my parents.......it'll be great....i'll show them the lyrics and hopefully come up with a tune for it so that i can play it to them......

Haha...you probably find this soooo random....but it really reminds me of my family........just lil things my lil bro was telling me on the fone yesterday that my maids have killed more than 7 fung shui fish within a week back home in hongkong.....haha....my dad proposed to him that he'll pay him $40 bucks to keep those fish alive.......just so typical of my family.....and shit that goes on inside......

Aite....should grab food...gonna drive out
Airik

Feeling awfully nervous.....got nuthin better to do than sit and blog for a quik 10mins before my exams.........i suppose its cuz i know that i'm not quite ready for it.....hey, whatcha expect if i hardly went to class at all during my time here.....

So much happenning, so little that'd make it to the blog.......always always.........its too much for me to put down in pen and paper.......somehow get puzzled throughout the confusing throughts that wreak my mind....

The Low of the Summer ~~~ Every summer theres this time when you feel like you've had the best time all summer....and every summer, theres this time when shit just happens......happens to me every summer.......although, i believe that the living standards of my mind has generally gone up compared to years back........i suppose this week has been the low of my summer 2002........boiling thoughts mostly........somethings just aren't within my capability to make right i guess.........

Haha.....i want to admit to you all that i have a huge weakness...........something that'll drive me to do stupid things.......and bend my mind like i were f*kin drunk or something.........keeps me away from reality.......its like a lil lolly that a child molester would use to attract kids.........my weakness is MUSIC

Went to the area concert two nites ago at irvine.........oh! what a crazy collection of artists.......all sorts of shit going on.....Moby, David Bowie, Busta Rythmes, Tiesto, Ash, Blue Man, Sasha..........was great........it was real chill........ppl drinkin beer, a rave tent and a huge ass concert.........was some hella trip.........
Ha.......these two women in their late 30's......they were smokin this roach next to me during half time...so ghetto.....so friggin Cali........wtf man?!....they're as old as ma mom...

"Life was simple as a kid, you thought that you understood everything.....And as you grow up, you find out that things become more and more complicated." - Moby

Airik
*I have a dream.
Its to start a band.*

I just realized (just like the ten million other things i realize everyday) I've been writing awfully bad blogs for the past couple weeks......probably becuz i haven't been spending the time to go over them again when i'm done blogging.....no time i suppose....been having better things to do........
i'm not going to spend the time to edit them....but i'll make an attempt to write some higher quality blogs from now onwards....

So.....four more days til Vancouver....finally time for me to go home.......feel so ambivalent....can't wait to get home, but on the other hand i don't want the summer to end so soon......sigh....LIFE!...so unexpected, sad, crazy, contradicting........

More rock for the song of the ramble ~~~ The Hives - Hate to Say I Told You So ~~~....like their music a lot.......the lead singer has a very twisted screamin voice.....kinda like it cuz its so distinct and natural...........unless you totally like his voice i wouldn't recommend to get their CD tho.......gets sorta annoying when its punched at you throughout the whole album..

the past week has been great........extendin my residency at ron's........no more draggin behind.......no strings and attitude........was great.......especially the two bottles of 'southern comfort' that were dropped last friday.........finally a good mental masturbation.......i live for those........

Surprised at the amount of lyrics and tabs i've written this summer.......all not polished enough to be posted........but yeah, i've been makin a lot of progress.........starting to capture the moods i want to describe more and more accurately..........sooo proud of my work.......hopefully at some point i'll be able to start finishing up on some of these songs so i can share with you all....

This last paragraph is crazy talk......something very interestin Nick was talkin about a while ago.....
The thing is i believe that everything in this world happens for a reason (make sure you agree with this before you move on)...everything that happens in this world is a causation of something else......for example, i blog becuz i want to let ppl know what i think....i eat becuz i need energy.....basically, everything in this world is a consquence of something else......even if i make a decision in my life, that decision is based on knowledge and previous experiences..........so this is the thing -------> Do we really have no choice in everything we do becuz everything in this world is a consequence of something else?........if everything in this world happens becuz of something else.....Is it true we don't have freewill??.......we can technically argue in court that things we do and decisions we had made were not upto us to decide in the first place.....
To conclude: What should I believe in?
To make things even more interesting.......one professor once came up with the theory that amongst the things that causes other things to happen......there is a random event.....

Enuff, not having a good day i suppose.
erik.

Hey, Whats goin on?? *bling* *bling*

Spent the weekend at Santa Cruz.......6-7hour road trip from LA.....was tite.....chillin with ron, solo, nick, blah blah......was awesome........man, i loved UC Santa Cruz......I'd loved to goto the 'porter college' for freshman year......seems so wackt......chillin at the quad...talkin some hippie talk.......drum circles....explore the forest and shits.....man....i seriously felt like i missed an even more interesting freshman year than i had when i visited........
haha...its as if i'm holding back on this more artistic side of me.....i'm not exploring/expanding this other horizon of mine on the other side of the world.......i like science, math and all.....but my mind is receiving too much attention in that respect of life........and thats all due to being 'realistic' from a HK perspective........if i could live another life, i'm positive i'd choose to live it a lot chiller.....more down to earth.... more spiritual.....more creative,,,,

Music of the Ramble is presented to you by KingAirik, blogger.com, CLICC, and UCLA.....Everybody go check this CD out of its store ~~~ Linkin Park - Reanimation ~~~....damn nice remixes of linkin's songs.......especially like the breakbeats and scratching......very well put together.........one of my fav remix CD's already...

Dam, needa go class...been ditchin too often..
Airik

- 'Signs' sucked...period

- Got red highlights...hehe....sooo punky...

I'm bak...sitting rite here in the lab wondering if nebody has been spendin the time to chek whether my blog has been updated trhoughtout the past week or two....
Yep, so i've been somehow a lil busy (not with work).......just chillin..kikin it bak.....doin stuff i normal guy should be doin during summer skool....

I'm sitting here rite now....watching diz blond chic next to me click away while she plays this colorful yahoo! puzzle game......she seems kinda bored...haha.....its funny how we have a whole line of ppl waiting to use a computer while ppl like her and I are blogging, chattin and playing java games online....killing some time....ditching some classes.....
Hey, I can even see her screenname from here too.....too bad i'm not that quite interested....otherwise i'd hook it up with my aol for some half time relaxation.....haha.....

Anywayz, enuff about what i'm doin rite now....whats goin on with all you guyz??....haha...friggin asking questions talkin to myself on my own blog.....*duh* obviously i'm not gonna get a response.....but yeah anywayz......seriously tho, haha.....you guyz who still chek my blog out during the holidays....send me a quik msg if you see me online.....let me know whats goin on with your holiday too......

I can't quite think of nething to write about rite now......and not exactly up for writing about the shit i've been doin for the past lil while.....i'm sick of the past.....i only wanna talk about the present rite now........hmmm.....i'll start with the music of the ramble.........~~~~ Hoobastank - Crawling in the Dark ~~~~......been up for rock/alternative since i've gotten sick of hiphop and co........kinda like the crazyness of all that rock'n roll stuff..........and also, of course, the guitar riffs and all........i've actually finally written a song that i reallly like too durin my time here.......i'd consider it a pop-rock song........i've still got bits and pieces of it to put together....but yeah, finally a song i wrote that i like.....i'll put it on when i'm totally satisfied........man....nuthin would make me happier if i could put together a band......

I've just come to realize during my time here that the things we take for granted the most are the things that we should treasure the most. Seriously, things like our parents, every part of our body, good friends, etc....I actually believe that things we take for granted are more important than the things you want to, are trying to or should treasure....... I might either sound ridiculous here....or very stupid cuz its something that everybody feels that they know already.......but listen to me, think about all those things that you really take for granted.....and imagine how much life is better with those things in your life.....

I think i've grown up to become a logical person....a logical person, yet somtimes too logical that its stepping over the line towards craziness.....feels like my mind is startin to take my life away from me.......i can't do nething without asking myself question over question about why things happen or are the way they are........somtimes i feel that my mind is constantly in search of some light that it'll never find.......i can't even sit back and enjoy some television without having to be engrossed by the heavy amounts of content it displays.......i'm getting very tired of thinking too much......and its driving me nuts cuz i can't stop it...

Anywayz, yeah....i'm soooo looking forward to the 'signs' movie... just one more day......i love m. night shylaman......he's like one of the reason why i'd want to live.......live just to see the movies he writes and directs........i love that anticipation......just waitin to enjoy the movie no matter whether it turns out to be a good one or bad one.....its so cool how i want to see this movie solely becuz of the director, and the fact that mel gibson is starring is only a bonus.........
Same as for music....i live to wait for my favorite artists new album.....having to wait for a new album and to find out whether it lives up to expectations or not.........our lives are so fascinating......i never realized as a child that its things like this that i used to take for granted that keeps my life going....
{August 6th 2002} - Man....the movie sucked....

Argh...enuff crazy talk....
Peace.