Balancing ideas and delivery

I just realized (just like the ten million other things i realize everyday) I've been writing awfully bad blogs for the past couple weeks......probably becuz i haven't been spending the time to go over them again when i'm done blogging.....no time i suppose....been having better things to do........
i'm not going to spend the time to edit them....but i'll make an attempt to write some higher quality blogs from now onwards....

So.....four more days til Vancouver....finally time for me to go home.......feel so ambivalent....can't wait to get home, but on the other hand i don't want the summer to end so soon......sigh....LIFE!...so unexpected, sad, crazy, contradicting........

More rock for the song of the ramble ~~~ The Hives - Hate to Say I Told You So ~~~....like their music a lot.......the lead singer has a very twisted screamin voice.....kinda like it cuz its so distinct and natural...........unless you totally like his voice i wouldn't recommend to get their CD tho.......gets sorta annoying when its punched at you throughout the whole album..

the past week has been great........extendin my residency at ron's........no more draggin behind.......no strings and attitude........was great.......especially the two bottles of 'southern comfort' that were dropped last friday.........finally a good mental masturbation.......i live for those........

Surprised at the amount of lyrics and tabs i've written this summer.......all not polished enough to be posted........but yeah, i've been makin a lot of progress.........starting to capture the moods i want to describe more and more accurately..........sooo proud of my work.......hopefully at some point i'll be able to start finishing up on some of these songs so i can share with you all....

This last paragraph is crazy talk......something very interestin Nick was talkin about a while ago.....
The thing is i believe that everything in this world happens for a reason (make sure you agree with this before you move on)...everything that happens in this world is a causation of something else......for example, i blog becuz i want to let ppl know what i think....i eat becuz i need energy.....basically, everything in this world is a consquence of something else......even if i make a decision in my life, that decision is based on knowledge and previous experiences..........so this is the thing -------> Do we really have no choice in everything we do becuz everything in this world is a consequence of something else?........if everything in this world happens becuz of something else.....Is it true we don't have freewill??.......we can technically argue in court that things we do and decisions we had made were not upto us to decide in the first place.....
To conclude: What should I believe in?
To make things even more interesting.......one professor once came up with the theory that amongst the things that causes other things to happen......there is a random event.....

Enuff, not having a good day i suppose.
erik.