Monday, August 30, 2004

Sunday Morning.

I've been stressed lately. The reality of our world has taken me by surprise. The spread out civilization across California is getting to me. All of a sudden, I realize that I live in such a lonely world. Everybody lives for themselves. It's like a phone call that will not be answered at 4am. A reason why people turn their back at you....

So I ask myself once again...what the hell am I doing in this world? As much as I think I am living the life, I hate it. I hate it for its systems. I dislike the fact that we live in such a sad self-centered adult society. Its where at many points of time in my life it has caused me to just leave who and where I am. Just hop onto the car and drive away... far far away somewhere I can be alone and unknown.

You're a queen that I will always believe in
Its not where but who you are.
Many butterflies fly by me
In a daze, bebel vibrates your ears

Its pretty obvious I don't deserve a flower
Its not the beach. Neither the sun.
The truth is there is none
Just an apartment threatening to lose youself



Tuesday, August 24, 2004

I had an awesome 4 day road trip from Vancouver to LA. Plenty of new memories to live for. The scenery I saw while driving along the coast was not something I expected. It was unreal. I don't think I can use words to describe how beautiful it was. Long, Jeremy, Cheuk and I would just stare at the blankly at the scenery with our jaws wide open.
Memorable moments of our trip included: sleeping in the car in front of the cinema, diversion at Mendocino(hehe), brewery at Eureka (best tangerine and white beer), the best piss, the strawberries, the gangsta lighting, the view, the view, the scenery, the view and jamming in front of the view.
Note to self: You are a moron for not bringing your VDO camera =/

~~~ Maroon 5 - This love (acoustic) ~~~


Wednesday, August 11, 2004

Lunch time.....

Sometimes I really wonder what the hell am I doing. What am I trying to get at? Is this what I want? Who am I? Do I like my life?
I'm lost. Even if I had the world under my hand right now, I would still feel lost. I don't know why, but I've been feeling like I'm all alone over the past couple days. Its as if I'm just living a life in my world. Dealing with my own issues and my own state of mind everyday. I don't feel very well. Maybe its just one of those days....maybe I'm not getting enough sleep these days. I've been avging 6 hours a night compared to 10 hours for the past half year.

I went to the X games last weekend. I saw the Big Air Skateboard event. It was pretty crazy stuff I must admit.... you don't realize how big these ramps are and how much air these guys pull off until you see it live in front of your face. Props to the big air ramp designer and winner of the competition Danny Way. His 70 foot jump and 27 foot quarter pipe made the event just that much more cinematic. Its unreal.

Gonna drive my car down to LA from Vancouver later this week. Its going to be wicked (haha, unless I run into any unexpected situations). Nice ~4 day road trip down the west coast. I'm sure it'll be another crazy experience all together. Hopefully it will bring me back to the living, crazy me =)
Note to self - bring VDO camera.

~~~ Incubus - Talk Show on Mute ~~~ I LOVE THIS SONG.


Tuesday, August 03, 2004

At Work....

So the fact that I am a music freak...I finally invested in the new click wheel 40Gb iPod. And after a little more than a week of product evaluation, I rate this product a 7/10. I personally think the iPod is overrated. I mean, sure, its got a chic design, it handles pretty well in your hand (looks and feels mad cool)...but thats as far as it goes. Aside from the fact that the accessories are way way way over priced, managing your music on your iPod/iTunes is just unbelievably crappy. If I have 40Gb of music on my portable music player, there better be better ways to access/manage my music on it. Its pretty user unfriendly when it comes to porting music into your device. I had problems being able to access my iPod through two different computers, deleting songs (doesn't reflect that I have deleted songs in my iPod storage space), and also have plenty of songs that do not have names...I have duplicate artists names such as 'Zero 7', 'Zero7' and 'Zero Seven' (and so, for those that know me....obviouslyI spent hours and hours tagging and renaming all my files using all sorts of scripts and mp3 file managing software....)
On a good note, however, I could confirm that I feel "powerful" with my new iPod tho. 40Gb of music on-the-go in my pocket is something to die for....(yes, and only if its organized)

Been mostly studying over the weekend (yeah..and I thought schooling would be over forever!!). Just hacking at some directx9 stuff. I'm learning how to do some 3D graphic programming. Its going pretty well, I think being able to create my first/third person shooter in the near future wouldn't be much of an overstatement. I will post a link to my work as soon as it is done. Hopefully, you will all check it out when its complete. I really look forward to my demo. Man, thank god for taking computer integrated surgery.

Went to the beach again over the weekend. Body boarding at Manhattan beach. Its so awesome. I am definitely going to make it a habit. Going surfing or body boarding during the weekends after a full week of work is a dream. I'm going to make it come true.
The waves were pretty huge too over the weekend. So yeah, I had a couple major wipeouts...haha...but its cool. Its all for the best. I like the learning process...its a challenge. I need to invest in a wet-suit in the near future though, it gets a little cold a 2-3 hours into the ocean. Both my hands were pale purple at the end of the day, they were numb and shaking.

I'm so going to stay in CA.