....in this world....we live the slaves of our own creations......
Theres seriously absolutely no understanding whatsoever......its as if the connection between each and every individual is bounded by a brick wall......the sad thing is that I believe i see so much greatness between every one of us.....when i'm say 'greatness', i mean anything more than one person can accomplish.....its neither something of only materialistic value nor a self accomplished task........the reason behind that is that it takes at least one more person to appreciate the traits or skills of others.......
Our relationships are such fragile connections.....one wrong phrase, one wrong action can shatter it into pieces....a broken glass window that will never be exactly the same anymore no matter how well put back together.....I wonder if theres anything in this world called a "plastic window" relationship....elastic, hard.....and definitely takes more than a blow to put it apart....
Its either me, i'm just wrong.....or i see mobile problems around me everyday....these problems speak, act, and sometimes even don't make sense to me.....i'm not saying problems are bad, i mean, i have problems too......but most of time, not acting for the good of it just disturbs me.........we shall all learn to live and grow better lives within each of our individual lifes........
Its sad to see that those that are crazy or deviant are seen as outkasts......especially those that share their lives for the well being of this world and what it means to them......the most simplest things in this world...the most wacky, nitty, crazed things in this world have A LOT of meaning behind them.....(crazy is defined as 'wrong' in my dictionary, thats what i just mean as really wrong)......Theres so much appreciation in this world.....so much greatness......why aren't we focusing on stuff like that rather than satisfication through our own created problems......the more we live our supposedly life, the more problems we create for ourselves....
Everything was so much simpler when you were young........but as we grow up....we tend to lose the ability to be honest and truthful......all our experiences get complicated every time you come around it again.....
Now i'm asking myself. What can i do to make this life of mine better? or better yet, make everything around me better??.....i hate complaining....when i hear people complain, i always tell them to think about how-to make it better from then on........so now, i'm gonna ask myself how to put an end to my own misery........i definitely can't go around telling people i'm going to be different, cuz i'm definitely going to get a "Airik is going crazy" response......i'm gonna stfu when i should.....i'm gonna be helpful, generous, have a positive attitude all the time, continue to believe in the 'greatness', and make the best for both yours and my life. (haha..sounds like i'm writing some sort of mission statement).......
i shall believe....
Erik.
- i shall turn to music with others and not for its relief from others -
Thursday, October 31, 2002
Sunday, October 20, 2002
Sunday, October 13, 2002
Airik's Apartment
Enjoying a lil yogurt-on-a-knife rite now as i blog......hahaha.......so chill.....i got phyfound to study and i'm basically not doin much about it......but oh well......yeah, back to my yogurt-on-a-knife........haha......saving some of my plastic cutlery.......i got this big box of plastic cutlery (yes, for the lazy me) at costco, with spoons...knives....and forks.....its great, all easily disposable after your meal.....but yeah, my cutlery box is starting to become uneven........i have a lotta of knives, some forks and not that many spoons left.....so therefore, i'm making myself eat my yogurt with a knife to balance the box back.....sounds very stupid (haha..like always), but i've been tryin very hard to make myself live a 'perfect' live.......and of course, my apartment needs to be perfect too.......everything needs to be in its place at the right moment at the right time........
Theres this friggin fly in my apartment.....its hella bothering me......i want to be alone....i wanna do my own thing, and its driving me nuts.....for the past two weeks, i've been using this scented candle to drive him away from areas of my apartment i don't want him to be......the problem however, is that it doens't wanna leave the place in general......its not like i'm not washing my dishes, not throwing my trash away, i have no clue why its still around.......i leave my window and door open so that i get a lot of air flow in the apartment, but still it doesn't leave.........
I actually caught this lil nuisance once in the living room.....it was on the ceiling and it didn't move, so i used a transparent plastic bowl to trap it against the ceiling.......the problem after that was that i didn't know what i should do next........i wanted to somehow bring him down from the ceiling, but i couldn't move because i was tip toeing so that i could reach the ceiling.....it was tough, i had to slowly move across to the dining table where i could grab a piece of paper and get on top of a chair to slide a piece of paper over the bowl to bring him down...........my muscles were seriously straining cuz i had to make sure the bowl was completely over the fly all throughout......so yeah, i finally had him in between the piece of paper and bowl.......i had two choices: 1. Run out into other end of the hallway of the floor in the apartment, and let him out 2. TORTURE HIM!! for annoying me......so yep, my decision is obvious.....i couldn't think of how i'd do it tho, it was flying all over the place inside the bowl.......the first thing that came to my head was to drown it in the sink, it was stupid......basically i turned on the faucet and hoped that the water would soak through the paper and slowly fill up the bowl so the fly would be trapped and would finally drown............the problem was that water didn't soak through.....and i dunno how, but somewhere along my failure it flew back into my apartment.....
Today, i went to supermarket.....and i got some air freshner and flying insects insecticide.......the first thing i did when i got home was to walk all over my apartment with my spraying air freshner (i somehow believe flys hate stuff that smells good, my insecticide was my special weapon...haha..).....but yeah, as idiotic as it sounds.....i was suffocating from the air freshner....maybe i over did it or something but it was giving me a headache.....
Airik Apartment End.
~~~ David Tao - Kitrina ~~~ erm....good song??..need i say much??...its english....its simple...its a guitar song....i actually wrote a song right after i heard it....its very similar......i don't want to fill up my blog with my music, so just ask me if you wanna see the chords and the lyrics...
Oh, and also....i got muffins, eggs, cheese and ham at the supermarket today too...i can't wait til breakfast tomorrow....its all mine, all mine...
Enjoying a lil yogurt-on-a-knife rite now as i blog......hahaha.......so chill.....i got phyfound to study and i'm basically not doin much about it......but oh well......yeah, back to my yogurt-on-a-knife........haha......saving some of my plastic cutlery.......i got this big box of plastic cutlery (yes, for the lazy me) at costco, with spoons...knives....and forks.....its great, all easily disposable after your meal.....but yeah, my cutlery box is starting to become uneven........i have a lotta of knives, some forks and not that many spoons left.....so therefore, i'm making myself eat my yogurt with a knife to balance the box back.....sounds very stupid (haha..like always), but i've been tryin very hard to make myself live a 'perfect' live.......and of course, my apartment needs to be perfect too.......everything needs to be in its place at the right moment at the right time........
Theres this friggin fly in my apartment.....its hella bothering me......i want to be alone....i wanna do my own thing, and its driving me nuts.....for the past two weeks, i've been using this scented candle to drive him away from areas of my apartment i don't want him to be......the problem however, is that it doens't wanna leave the place in general......its not like i'm not washing my dishes, not throwing my trash away, i have no clue why its still around.......i leave my window and door open so that i get a lot of air flow in the apartment, but still it doesn't leave.........
I actually caught this lil nuisance once in the living room.....it was on the ceiling and it didn't move, so i used a transparent plastic bowl to trap it against the ceiling.......the problem after that was that i didn't know what i should do next........i wanted to somehow bring him down from the ceiling, but i couldn't move because i was tip toeing so that i could reach the ceiling.....it was tough, i had to slowly move across to the dining table where i could grab a piece of paper and get on top of a chair to slide a piece of paper over the bowl to bring him down...........my muscles were seriously straining cuz i had to make sure the bowl was completely over the fly all throughout......so yeah, i finally had him in between the piece of paper and bowl.......i had two choices: 1. Run out into other end of the hallway of the floor in the apartment, and let him out 2. TORTURE HIM!! for annoying me......so yep, my decision is obvious.....i couldn't think of how i'd do it tho, it was flying all over the place inside the bowl.......the first thing that came to my head was to drown it in the sink, it was stupid......basically i turned on the faucet and hoped that the water would soak through the paper and slowly fill up the bowl so the fly would be trapped and would finally drown............the problem was that water didn't soak through.....and i dunno how, but somewhere along my failure it flew back into my apartment.....
Today, i went to supermarket.....and i got some air freshner and flying insects insecticide.......the first thing i did when i got home was to walk all over my apartment with my spraying air freshner (i somehow believe flys hate stuff that smells good, my insecticide was my special weapon...haha..).....but yeah, as idiotic as it sounds.....i was suffocating from the air freshner....maybe i over did it or something but it was giving me a headache.....
Airik Apartment End.
~~~ David Tao - Kitrina ~~~ erm....good song??..need i say much??...its english....its simple...its a guitar song....i actually wrote a song right after i heard it....its very similar......i don't want to fill up my blog with my music, so just ask me if you wanna see the chords and the lyrics...
Oh, and also....i got muffins, eggs, cheese and ham at the supermarket today too...i can't wait til breakfast tomorrow....its all mine, all mine...
Saturday, October 12, 2002
Its very interesting to see that airik's blog is suddenly amazingly active...
Ec4K: did i tell you?
Sukendar: tell what?
Ec4K: i'm fukin in love with music now
Ec4K: well
Ec4K: if you read my blog
Sukendar: yeah i slept with it
Ec4K: you'll prob figure that out already
Sukendar: ...wtf
Ec4K: hahaha
Ec4K: seriously man
Ec4K: you remember that canto movie?
Ec4K: the weird one
Ec4K: the guy sleeps with the BB gun?
Ec4K: i'd sleep with my guitar
Ec4K: haha
Sukendar: oh nic tse movie?
Ec4K: yeahyeah
Ec4K: that one
Ec4K: the one he's director
Sukendar: dun like that movie
Ec4k: ........
Ec4k: ........
Sukendar: you want indonesian song?
Sukendar: american indonesian song
Ec4K: nah
Ec4k: hahahah
Ec4K: i'm sorry
Sukendar: hahahahahahhaha
Sukendar: i thought you love music
Ec4K: i do
Ec4K: but not bothered
Ec4K: i know you only mean good for me
Ec4K: but its ok
Ec4K: haha
Sukendar: hahaha
Sukendar: fuck you slut
Sukendar: it sounds like thai i know
Ec4K: haha
Ec4K: did i tell you?
Sukendar: tell what?
Ec4K: i'm fukin in love with music now
Ec4K: well
Ec4K: if you read my blog
Sukendar: yeah i slept with it
Ec4K: you'll prob figure that out already
Sukendar: ...wtf
Ec4K: hahaha
Ec4K: seriously man
Ec4K: you remember that canto movie?
Ec4K: the weird one
Ec4K: the guy sleeps with the BB gun?
Ec4K: i'd sleep with my guitar
Ec4K: haha
Sukendar: oh nic tse movie?
Ec4K: yeahyeah
Ec4K: that one
Ec4K: the one he's director
Sukendar: dun like that movie
Ec4k: ........
Ec4k: ........
Sukendar: you want indonesian song?
Sukendar: american indonesian song
Ec4K: nah
Ec4k: hahahah
Ec4K: i'm sorry
Sukendar: hahahahahahhaha
Sukendar: i thought you love music
Ec4K: i do
Ec4K: but not bothered
Ec4K: i know you only mean good for me
Ec4K: but its ok
Ec4K: haha
Sukendar: hahaha
Sukendar: fuck you slut
Sukendar: it sounds like thai i know
Ec4K: haha
Friday, October 11, 2002
If we really spend the time to think about why most parents scold and tell their kids off, its because THEY CARE.....we tend to think those that don't nag you, don't tell you anything you don't want to hear, treat you well, and just generally seem all chilled all the time are the ones that know whats going on.....its funny how most ppl think those are actually the ones that understand......think about it like this, if they really are the ones that understand and care, why aren't they critizing you??....could it be because they only want to be on your good side?
seriousyly....the next time when ever somebody tells you off for something you have done wrong and is too critical about what you do.....step back.....try think straight....and try understand where they are coming from......try understand most ppl in this world don't criticize others just to make themselves feel better.....but rather that they only just care......they only want the better for you.....they risking their relationship with you to make things better for you....
Ppl who talk may also be just as good listeners as the ones that don't........another common misperception.........people that talk like to share......people that don't talk have nothing to share......it really has nothin to do with them being more chill....more laid back.....and better people to talk to.......
ARgh...i can't be fuct to talk.....
~~~ Gitaroo - The Legendary Theme (Acoustic) ~~~...chill lil video game song.....easy two guitar parts....
Thursday, October 10, 2002
Another song for all you music chillers......once again, from my fav "soothe me out" artist.....~~~ Zero 7 - This World ~~~....yepyep....for those that liked 'Destiny'...this one is great too!!....so chek it...
Just spent the last 4-5 hours on the web....chatting....downloading....sucking up my dsl like a boy with his new toy........so awesome....hehe...the wonders of the net......10 years from now, lets all imagine then what life was like back in the day when internet did not exist.........i mean, seriously....no aol, no icq.....talking to your friends only through the fone........no emails..so all offices have piles and piles of documents and memos........damn.....most us youngsters these dayz have already intergrated our lives with the web.........i can't imagine just how much more important it will be to us in the future......
I'm tired.....haha...too much comp today...boo to you readers....
late
airik.
Definitely more chats for the soul....cheers!!
Ec4K: so wsup
erick: not much yo
erick: just got back from bus law a bit ago
erick: its raining now
Ec4K: is it?
erick: yeah
erick: when me el and joe were coming back i twas
Ec4K: so wat u upto?
erick: not much
erick: just ordered some campusfood
erick: telling cindy about my little mermaid 2 story
erick: haha
erick: im STARVING!
erick: gotta do some intro to alg hw soon too
Ec4K: haha
Ec4K: mermaid?
erick: yeah
erick: like i had a rough frosh year
erick: so my mom sent me a care package with three dvds
erick: two normal ones
erick: and the last one was the little mermaid 2
erick: so i asked my bro about it
erick: and he said that he told her to get me any given sunday
erick: but she said no. i know what erick likes. and he likes little mermaid
erick: so i got it
erick: watched it a couple months later
erick: and i kinda liked it
erick: haha my mom knows me yo
erick: i like disney movies even if they are cheesy
Ec4K: haha
Ec4K: haaha
Saturday, October 05, 2002
Its just another friday......yes...aka my rest day.......no class....no nuthing to do......its great.....its sorta like a head start to the weekend, gives me a little more breathing room before h/w sundays......
Eventho i constantly emphasize that this is my blog and i can do whateva a F about it......i feel pressured to write right now.......its been so long since i'be been up here.....i don't want to come here and lose the inspiration to blog........i'm scared this is the end.....an end to this blog...that really would be quite upsetting........its kinda like when you want to do something that you just can't do no more.........hopefully the fact that my DSL will be up at my apt soon it'll change.....
A song for the you ~~~ Craig David - Seven Days (Acoustic Version) ~~~ yes....you probably maybe all heard of this song....but the acoustic version of it???....its awesome......i saw the craig david episode of 'Music in Higher Places' on MTV a lil while ago......all his songs on his 'Born to do it' album played with an acoustic guitar....so cool so cool.........but yeah, I learned how to played 'seven days' on my baby too.......so sweet....
Finally wrote a brand new song on my comp.......its done....and its RnB style.......i finally figured out how to post pics and files on my blog....so i'lll do just that when i get my own DSL........yep, i got lyrics for it.....and made the whole song from scratch.....all me all me..hehe........Just one last problem.....I need a two singers....one male another female.....preferably with a soulful voice........record that on and its like complete complete....
Been messing with my tables a lot this week.....got myself a copy of DJ Qbert's - Do it Yourself Scratching DVD.....so i've been sitting in my living room in front of my tables practicing and practicing and practicing........hey, i'm getting significantly better at it too........its awesome....
Haha....i have no clue why i'm blogging about this......but i sorta started this new bad habit of mine since i've gotten back to skool......been listennin to a lot of hip hop and rap these dayz (A LOT of Eminem)......and somewhere along, i was like 'wow, wouldn't it be cool if i could freestyle to some phat beats'....just chillin you know, do some of that Jin tha shit......like, i know that stuff comes from all practice.......you just gotta listen to a lot of freestyling....and practice practice practice......most ppl are wrong when they think stuff like freestyling...turntabling..playin the guitar...bballing...breaking......is all about talent.....i mean, not that talent doesn't take a role, but its such a small one compared to practicing.........but anywayz, yeah.....so i've been tryin to figure out and spit out all these rythmes.......tryin to get da flow goin......and what i've been starting to do is to shake my hand as i go......you know, with your fingers pointing out and then kinda twist your arm clockwise and anti-clockwise very quickly.....
so now that i've been doing that for quite a bit......i've noticed i've been doin that freestyling hand thingy all the time.....when i talk.....and especially when i'm tryin to explain something.......i nearly even accidently started to do the shaking thing durin my presentation in business communication class.......crazy man crazy...
So yeah, now that i'm on the subject.....i want to talk about actually freestyling......its funny how so many guyz (girls not interested..haha) have problems voicing out and practicing........haha.....i mean, yeah, maybe i wouldn't want to practice in front of crowds.....but its ok to do it with friends and stuff.....its not like we expect you to get that stuff down the first couple times around......c'mon guyz......not something to be embarrassed about.........its all good......obviously, not the next freestyler in town.....just chill...confidence for the ladies yo...
BOo BOo
AIRIK
oh, and also...i dunt try to be black..
Eventho i constantly emphasize that this is my blog and i can do whateva a F about it......i feel pressured to write right now.......its been so long since i'be been up here.....i don't want to come here and lose the inspiration to blog........i'm scared this is the end.....an end to this blog...that really would be quite upsetting........its kinda like when you want to do something that you just can't do no more.........hopefully the fact that my DSL will be up at my apt soon it'll change.....
A song for the you ~~~ Craig David - Seven Days (Acoustic Version) ~~~ yes....you probably maybe all heard of this song....but the acoustic version of it???....its awesome......i saw the craig david episode of 'Music in Higher Places' on MTV a lil while ago......all his songs on his 'Born to do it' album played with an acoustic guitar....so cool so cool.........but yeah, I learned how to played 'seven days' on my baby too.......so sweet....
Finally wrote a brand new song on my comp.......its done....and its RnB style.......i finally figured out how to post pics and files on my blog....so i'lll do just that when i get my own DSL........yep, i got lyrics for it.....and made the whole song from scratch.....all me all me..hehe........Just one last problem.....I need a two singers....one male another female.....preferably with a soulful voice........record that on and its like complete complete....
Been messing with my tables a lot this week.....got myself a copy of DJ Qbert's - Do it Yourself Scratching DVD.....so i've been sitting in my living room in front of my tables practicing and practicing and practicing........hey, i'm getting significantly better at it too........its awesome....
Haha....i have no clue why i'm blogging about this......but i sorta started this new bad habit of mine since i've gotten back to skool......been listennin to a lot of hip hop and rap these dayz (A LOT of Eminem)......and somewhere along, i was like 'wow, wouldn't it be cool if i could freestyle to some phat beats'....just chillin you know, do some of that Jin tha shit......like, i know that stuff comes from all practice.......you just gotta listen to a lot of freestyling....and practice practice practice......most ppl are wrong when they think stuff like freestyling...turntabling..playin the guitar...bballing...breaking......is all about talent.....i mean, not that talent doesn't take a role, but its such a small one compared to practicing.........but anywayz, yeah.....so i've been tryin to figure out and spit out all these rythmes.......tryin to get da flow goin......and what i've been starting to do is to shake my hand as i go......you know, with your fingers pointing out and then kinda twist your arm clockwise and anti-clockwise very quickly.....
so now that i've been doing that for quite a bit......i've noticed i've been doin that freestyling hand thingy all the time.....when i talk.....and especially when i'm tryin to explain something.......i nearly even accidently started to do the shaking thing durin my presentation in business communication class.......crazy man crazy...
So yeah, now that i'm on the subject.....i want to talk about actually freestyling......its funny how so many guyz (girls not interested..haha) have problems voicing out and practicing........haha.....i mean, yeah, maybe i wouldn't want to practice in front of crowds.....but its ok to do it with friends and stuff.....its not like we expect you to get that stuff down the first couple times around......c'mon guyz......not something to be embarrassed about.........its all good......obviously, not the next freestyler in town.....just chill...confidence for the ladies yo...
BOo BOo
AIRIK
oh, and also...i dunt try to be black..
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