Balancing ideas and delivery

A lots been around yo. Time is gone in a blink of an eye. Weekdays have been just packed with school, getting my life in order and getting as much sleep as i can in between. While over the weekends, i bum around and i sit at my desk trying to get my work done ready for my next jackass weekend. That'd be presidents day weekend.....hehe...

My parents just left his morning. Damn, if only i had a digital camera, i absolutely need a "before and after" fridge pic...hehe.....i swear i am stocked up......i have everything to keep me alive for the rest of the semester....
Talking about my parents, i think they had a decent stay at Baltimore this week....Haha......I don't talk to my dad as often as i do to my mom, but I just realized over the week that my dad is like da shit.....seriously......like, he doesn't give a f*** about anything other than what he does.....in many ways, i think he's sorta like how ozzy osbourne functions.....he's rich, he can do whateva he wants...........all he does is make money (music in ozzys case)......its funny cuz he can't do anything else without taking the longest time to figure out how stuff works.......he's normally sooooo slow, but he's just like *clicked* when it comes to work......seriously, i just watch him at home....and he's just living and enjoying what he's worked for his whole life.........I wanna be like that someday......even if it means to lose most of the other aspects of my life.....i can simply just chill.......my mom is like the no.1 house wife of all.....shes dedicated to keeping the family together and she basically does what a man would want a women to do........shes home when you're home......she's out taking care of her stuff and not bothering you while you're at work......man......thats cool.......to be fully dedicated til the point you lose control of other stuff...which is 'alrite' cause you are supported by your full dedication........i'd like to be like that maybe 20 years later.....

We own such radical minds......its crazy.......a while back, volcom 3 and i were just talking.....and i mentioned how our minds control so much of what we feel......the best example being the "sitting in class theory" (haha..more airik theory)......like you know how you often get real tired and unfocused towards the end of the class.....this is the thing......why always towards the end of class??.......if we sit through a 50min class, you often don't look at your watch (starting to feel unfocused) until at least the 30-40min point.........while if you're sitting at a 3 hour class, you almost always don't look at your watch til at least after an hour is through.......doesn't make sense rite?.....don't we normally lose concentration depending on time and material we study??.........inside our minds, we always get mentally prepared for what is to come.........so what if we live life without such restrictions??....what if we goto a 50min class with a mind set that is prepared to sit for 3 straight hours??......then would we sit through class focused all the way til you're told class is over?!

Theres this imaginary girl in my mind. I'm starting to believe that she'll never exist in my life. Shes cute, shes fine, and best of all she see things so differently...its as if i sometimes feel like i live parallel lives she does.........some of you that know me might know what i'm talking about.....its like the total package......top to bottom....outside inside....backside frontside..........shes not the type that might just happen to walk by you yesterday or last week.......i'm talkin about the type that you probably wouldn't meet in just one life time.....life is too short.....those that you meet are too random..........i'll know if i ever stumble across this girl....i'd feel it deep inside, and i wouldn't be embarrassed to go up to her, say 'hi' and truly be myself........this no girl that you just hold onto for spiritual, emotional, sexual or physical support.....

Airik.