- Day 1 @ Beer Garden -
Damn chill........seriously, recommend all to check it out.....its not too late...still got sat and sun....12pm - 7pm man (hehee...woohoooo!!!).........
i lasted all the way from 4pm - 7pm...not bad not bad...considering it was only 15mins for me last year.....yep...so had fun......just sit around talk, chat....drink beer....drink more beer.....and drink even more beer...........

everybody is cashed out already......while i'm still wide awake (i passed out early for 20mins)...hehe...its only 10:30pm rite now.......wat a early end to the day....i'm bored now...

hmmm...nuthin else to ramble about really.....gonna drop down ma song..and i'm outta here ~~~ Moloko - Lotus Eaters (downtempo, triphop) ~~~...hehe..you all must be wondering where i find all these random songs...

Airik. pls, no stalking me.

just read my last blog....it sux....doesn't make sense to me....f*ck...must be becuz i was trying to retype what i had written earlier....argh..i dunt wanna edit it....i got better things to do..

Just wrote a nice long fine blog....its now gone cuz blogger.com suddenly went down......i'm so mad...so mad...argh....will try to retype as much as i remember...

gonna indirectly mess with somebodys feelings today...(just alil)..hehe...goal: make you smile

One of the main reasons why i'm up here rite now is because of this song...spent so much time online listenning to random R&B songs just to find it....now i've finally found it......its not toni braxton....hehe.....not biggie......brandy??.......not city high.......not mase......but Nate Dogg....
dang..here it is peepz ~~~ Another sad story - Nate Dogg ~~~ its not as good as I remembered it to be anymore tho........expectations maybe??.......but anyhow, yeah......itz all good.......it reminds me of Chiu driving, chilling in his car......
I did however, come across a really nice phat beat during my search tho......i'm not exactly into the "Yo Yo" musik industry....so yeah...i wouldn't know if everybody had heard of this beat already....wouldn't be surprised if everybody has already heard of it.......anyhow, letz give it a drop ~~~ Break your neck - Busta Rythmes & DMX (its instrumental) ~~~ perfect for freestyling i'd say..

Was raining earlier today......argh...i hate it......hehe.....rain is Ron's 'hak sing' (black star)......hahaha...even LL didn't goto signals this morning cuz of the rain......thats something new......i hate drizzles tho......thunderstorms, typhoons and all that are ok with me.....but i hate those measily 3-4 hours of slight drizzle.....damn, pour hard if you gonna pour you kno?.....rain hard all day at least.....

Ok, this is gonna be an exceptionally random blog......but i'm goin to put it on.....just becuz i want to...hey, its my blog...my space....i'm a man....hehe.....i can stick upto whateva i blog:
- Ok, so i've been living extremely ghetto for the past week or two.......the first thing that comes into mind when i'm hungry is ramen rite?? (well, power bars too, but thats not the point of the ramble rite now).......what are the things that usually stop you from having ramen when your wallet is dry and you're hungry??.....the dishwashing??.....the noodles are too hot??.....the taste of it? (assuming that you've been having it non-stop for the past couple dayz already)....hehe.....this ramble reflects my randomness completely...but yeah....erm....the thing that stops me from ramen is having to wait for the water to boil......don't ask questions!!....it just is...=/
Its like playing video games you know??......when you're bored...and you kinda wanna play........its like, you're not bothered to set it all up...(hey, setting it all up involves a lot you know?......you need to find/choose the game, put it into the console, turn on the TV and console.... and last but not least....wait for the game to load).....its like...i usually just hang around in front of the whole setup and decide upon whether all that setting up is worth it or not..........usually i end up not playing....
However, if the game was already set-up and ready to play........i'd just walk over, pick the controller up and start playing without thinking even if i didn't really want to play........similarly, if the noodles were cooked and prepared for me....i'd just go ahead and eat it just for the fact that i didn't have to go through that tedious procedure of cooking it..(in my case, waiting for the water to boil).....
Now that i've completely blogged my 1st random thought....i forgot my 2nd one....oh well...next time i guess....

New |MLM| Counter-strike server is up btw......1.4 is all ready and set up....go check it out... 66.93.53.238:27015....i haven't tried it yet...but i've seen it run on pisan's computer.....dang, no more jumping around and shitz....thats shitty.......damn cool spectator mode tho....

7-11 Meetings....yep....dang....its been a long long time......shit man.....we've upgraded......haha...its all cyber and stuff now......no more 'dim sum' and nestea......guyz....look how far we've gotten.......we're all over the place now....hehe.....east side hate yo....no poop love..........shit man....not to get all slimy and stuff (hehehe...i'm not the one that talks about this shit that often before).....we've changed....we've grown......we're all gay couples...we've bitched.......yet, we're still stickin it together and its still tite deep down *there*.......so wha about the acapella huh?? yes, its the shit....i loved every lil bit....no regrets.....so whatcha gonna say huh??......fratboy wannabe.......and you, u....u....u...you 'i'm going to quit' abuser.....haha...mad love....shit, you guyz have any clue how long since we all met up...

A sudden swoop up from the low......yeah...its weird...i dunno whats going on....i'm confused....so its a finale/not??......just gonna stay down there man...stay relaxed...no expectations...remember....no expectations...they hurt........

Balled the last couple dayz....feeling good about my stroke......gonna work on slowly speeding it up....can't last on court for too long tho......i'm gone by the end of the 3rd game......haven't been eating well enuff??.........probably.......i'm so wasted when i get home.......i comeback, take a shower, eat, and then pass out on the spot....

4:00pm today....somebody was downloading my song on audiogalaxy......i was like.......dang...nice...hehe........~~ King Airik - let the game begin ~~ for those who dunno it...its old tho.....maybe i should make a better 2nd song sometime...

Been getting comments that ma blog reveals too much of myself.....good/bad thing??....you decide....

Erik, the King.

**Add-on onto my side note a lil while ago**
those silver loop earrings i said i like.....yeah...i like the bigger ones (just bigger, not biggest)...

lunch break...hmm....made myself 'ma po' tofu for lunch....tasted like shit......only had half of it (yep, something must be really wrong if ERik eats only half his meal).....guess i'll just stick to the power bars........they dunt taste any better really.....but nobody told the Blazers not to start late game fouling......so i'll suck it up....

yeah, living ghetto as hell.......all the ebaying, online shopping has come to a stop in the last couple weeks....mo mood...mo money....diu....If there was one thing i can choose to take away from my priorities in life just to make everything else better...it would be money tho....money is nuthin compared to family, friends...happiness.....money cannot buy what we need the most....

music ramble time...this one is a Tm influence.....~~ Mojo - Lady (house) ~~ i'd expect the ladies to prefer this one more than the gentleman....its nice and groovy...

itz a sunny day today....cold tho......sunny with a chilly wind......if you guyz haven't noticed by now....i'm in love with the sun...it makes me trip..hehe........yep....its mostly the blue sky and the clouds (small ones only)....well, and also the sun light....the rays that beam through your window and into your room.....its relaxing......i can just sit by the window and chill.....listen to music (everythings got to do wuth it).......

Still feeling horrible.......its not even 'rollercoaster' no more......its like, staying low.....feeling miserable...feeling helpless.......argh...things just dunt belong i guess....things that you just can't own........can't have......is that true??....what you guyz think?....you guyz believe that you can own anything in this world as long as you have the stride and determination to do so?.........not trying to be sexist...but i think this is more like a guy sorta discussion...(hehe...yeah, we guyz (at least ma broz do) talk about this stuff...its not always what you ladies think)..............just things like.......money....college....jobs....cars....bitches....you guyz think we can own that stuff as long as you're determined to do so?.....hmmm......i still kinda think you can (hey, i've seen it happen)......at least i'd put in at least 101 before i raise ma hands up with dissatisfaction....=/

thanx broz, you know who u r, i needed that shit this week...i f*ckin needed it....wish me the grande finale.

Chanizms.

hmm...feels like its been a long time since i've blogged....had a lot of things i wanted to ramble about over the week.......will try to make sure i blog them all down...but its hard to say......i write the shortest blogs when i have the most to say...and the longest ones when i just write about bullshitz.....

first thing in mind...yep, a loud shoutout 'THANX' to all those who have told me that they like my blog.....finding it interesting....cool...enjoyable to read...helped them out wuth their prbs?? (damn, its not that great is it? =P )........hehe....yeah, it really encourages me to come back up here and blog a lil more......its great, knowing that I'm able to entertain others through such media, instead of having to sit down wuth me and let me talk all that shit.....
I gotta admit i can see why some peepz find it interesting tho.....this stuff i rite down is pretty close to the shit that goes through my mind everyday, i wouldn't be surprised if they can see 'ERIK' behind these blogs......yeah, anyhow, thanX to you all for such praise!!

Went to a christian acapella concert last weekend....yeah, dude....just ask me why i went.....haha....some of you guyz must think i've gone nuts or something...too much work at hopkins?!?!...(hhaha...nah, i've been slackin big time for the past 2 weeks).......its pretty good i admit....hehe...maybe becuz i'm that musical type person....i love music...all notes, tones, sounds, beats light me up like a star.......plus, hehehe....tonnes of eye candy......
Weird, somehow that msg about Christ sacrificing for us all throughout the concert enlightened me up.......its like, i see so much belonging in every single person in that hall....their beliefs are hard and bold.....integration at its best.....
Somewhere throughout, i figured that everybody in our society just lives the way they are...does what they do...and believes in what makes them content with life.......at some point, i couldn't see the difference between singing at an acapella and going out to a rave on saturday nights...hmmm.....i see such meaning behind those ppl....i want to know more about what absorbs them, but at the same time its like scary cuz it seems so deep...okok...enuff BS...next topic..
oh yeah, gotta thank ahm for sitting through that shit wuth me..

Lost $40 yesterday.....argh...damn NBA playoffs......was so close........shit.....i'm goin make that cash back next weekend...

hehe....M - Class?!....a chance that my parents are gonna send me one from Vancouver.......nicenicenice....shit, i do not mind one of those for sure....hopefully i'll get something (yeah, nearly anything) this summer.......it'll be phat.......chill, drive, music...go somewhere nice for dinner...or mall...or movie....or whatevaz.....=)

Music of the Ramble....hmm...can't ever forget this one.....so many songs i wanna put up here tho.....i've always thought about putting up something more hardcore on...but i always end up choosing something thats more easily enjoyable.....i'm gonna stick to this hardcore thing this time....can't decide between the two
~~~ LTJ Bukem - ourworld ~~~ LTJ Bukem - watercolours ~~~ (drum&bass)....sounds a lot better wuth bass turned up

Finally woke up from another dream.......gotta get myself back together again....sux.....why can't i dream on?...why can't i stay asleep?....why me?!......i'm just hoping i'll go back to sleep soon...i wanna dream on....i want to.......i'm sick of waking up from another sweet dream only to realize that it wasn't real.......how gay....is it me??...or am i just an unlucky bitch.....pls...god....pls give me a chance to prove myself.....

Ok...i've obviously only blogged about half the things i wanted to say...but i'm gonna stop here cuz i feel like it...

airik is out.

back to my public diary =)

chillin rite now w/ a Bud.....the past couple dayz have been extremely hot, just like back home in HongKong......yep...its good tho...i like the hot weather a lot more than the cold.....ppl always say they like the cold more cuz you get to wear more layers to show off your clothes and stuff....but i dun think thats true.....summer fashion is like simple and chill......shirt/t-shirt....sun glasses....shorts.....nice shoes w/ extremely low cut socks...or nice sandals......yepyep...i like that style....somehow i see more style in that....but oh well...

got a lil tanned already......from sitting at the beach....just chilling and doin anything but work during the week...its great.....college is supposed to be like that.....man, the library is only for working...not for sticking around at 24/7....

its been a good week so far....yep...heehee...unexpected results....man, i feel like i'm constantly driving in circles......i'm dizzy and i dunno wats happenning....yet somehow content w/ life........

Anyhow....song of the ramble ~~~~ David Tao - Regular Friends ~~~~ this one is for you yo...and i mean it..you'll see =) i wonder when you'll get hooked into my rambles...or will you??.....time will tell...

DAmn....this Bud Ice stuff is chill........perfect timing man...needa thank jan for contributing w/ this one...

I'm seriously wondering how many ppl check my rambles out.....as in, read it from time to time......somehow, i get the feeling that more of my Aol buddies read this stuff more......the info's are more straightforward and meaningful i guess....not like ICQ, ppl put up all this useless bullshit in......

Now that signals midterm is over....i have one data program and one more paper to hand in before exams.....argh...i got 5 exams......its gonna suck...believe me...i know it will........man.......that means 24 hour lib time....gay.....hopefully i'll have chilled enough to be ready by then....

Spring fair is coming...nice...i like that time....BEER GARDEN!!!!...heheheheheeh....nicenicenicenicenicenice.......and also 'Roots' are gonna be here too.....yep, its gonna be great from now til exams.....

Aite, i'm out.

All you AzN pride peepz, chek diz joint out yo - http://www.eden.rutgers.edu/~jtao/jin1.wmv

my first wasted blog..hehehee....hmm.....everybody shouldn't take this one seriously....

yepyep...fuct.....kinda of....feeling happy.......i've somehow had both an extremely good and bad week...man....i dunno wats happenning......my life is goin up and down once again.......shit...that gotta stop.......was at the library 4 times today.......was pretty much walking in and out of that place......i need to work on signals...but i'm not in the mood tho....shit....u all know how that feels rite??...........things in mind i guess....as vic says......you're in love...hahahhaha...wtf.......can't work...can't sleep...can't eat............daz me man....lost a lotta weight in the past couple dayz.....no appetite.....all i've been eating is those power bars.........during class....while i walk to class...anywhere......i'm getting sick of that shit.....

went to med skool yesterday...might need to go again tomrorow too.....damn...the jhu med skool is seriously a maze of its own.....i was completely lost in there....saw a lotta neat things tho.....haha...the professor brought me around the hospital.......was kinda cool.....i saw that monkey we're gonna do eye surgery on later this month.....saw real time eye surgery's.....had to wear those surgery clothing shitz...hahah....i looked like a dork...but anyhow, it was cool.......ma first time to johns hopkins med skool........

aite..foods here...hehe...sushi

hmmm....3 consecutive dayz of bloggin (ok, maybe yesterday wasn't really considered one)...but i was about to ramble tho...ended up guitaring instead cuz i had nuthin to ramble about....just wanted to come up i guess...

lemme start off wuth the song of the ramble anywayz...~~~ System F - Cry Unplugged (its not trance) ~~~...this one really hit me hard while i was studying signals at the library earlier today.....it reminds me of sad things.....especially because of the sad vocal and guitaring in the song......its a nice sad addictive song though...hope you all like it....might not be the best song to d/l and listen to when you're sad tho.....so becareful....

Its been a really weird day today......feels like i woke up from a dream i've been in for the past couple dayz....all of a sudden i wake up this morning...and somehow i realize that life is just going on......still remember it was Jay Chou's 1st album i had set into my stereo for alarm this morning.......was around track 3 by the time i finally realized where i was.....and uptil track 9 until i then decided to get outta bed before i was late to signals......

Somethings been dragging along with me all throughout today.......dunno how to describe it.......some sad dull shitz.......its been irritating.....can't think correctly...can't stay focused for too long.......its like i need something......a smoke??.....a talk???.....throughout the day i've been constantly trying to occupy myself.....argh....thats a bad thing....used to do that all throughout last summer......used to do that whenever i had shitz in mind, and just wanted to ignore it..numb myself through work.....hopefully, tomorrow i'll wake up feeling i've woken up from another dream.....

Needa go Med Skool tomorrow...BME design shitz....in-vitro testing for the ICP & IOP project thingy.....argh...feeling indecisive rite now about whether even if i want to go or not.....somehow, feels like its gonna be a long day for me tomorrow.....but rreally isn't.......

Plans to go UCLA for summer skool...yep, sudden schedule change.....registered already....so its pretty much goin to be 1st session summer at JHU..and 2nd session at UCLA/bak at JHU.......

Argh...i'm sick....maybe i should go get rest or something.....
ERik

............kaka

Back......just cuz Jan said she likes my ramblings..hahahah....also came up to post some ego shitz..hehe..

jandanan: i'll just believe u and blame u if sth. goes wrong
ec4k:...
ec4k: i told u go ask somebody else
jananan:no
ec4k:can't blame me no more
jananan:u seem the most intellectual around here
ec4k:hahhaha
ec4k: i like that one
jandanan:sad..but true
ec4k: i'm gonna put this up on info
jandanan: -_-"

Been consistently high for the past 30hours....damn....the natural ones are the killers...hah....shit....all indications showing....head rushing....heart bopping....constant shaking....phasing in and out.......its like...the world is just spinning around and around.....everybody is doing their own thing......and u're just in the middle staring at everybody......shit....its been a long time...its been long......argh....i needa rest....

tite tho....something to look forward to...something to keep me on my track....color up my life.......(somehow having said that reminds me of those color-in books i had when i was a kid....hahha..how random)......yep..anywayz......yeah....the stupidest thing to do worked out nicely.....hahha......somehow everything went well too....or was it becuz i helped myself??.....anyhow, so far so good...

i've been reading my old blogs a while ago....hahah....its interesting.....seems like i've been swearing too much tho....fucking this..fukin that......that needs to relax....will remind myself to stop swearin on blog..........but on the whole, its been pretty cool.....can't believe i've blogged so many posts already tho (only since end of fall 2001)......too long to read all at once.....i was thinking for those new Airik's Ramblings readers....what do they do??..read it all??...read bits??..only read the latest updates???.....
Been wondering when this blog stuff is goin to end......when I graduate 2004??...before that? cuz blogger.com will shut down??....

Aite...heres the song of the ramble...EVERYBODY!!!!!! LISTEN UP!!
~~ Drunken Tiger - G Fresh (korean rap) ~~ Palmy - 8am(Thai pop/rock) ~~

Oh...how could i forget to add yesterday......hehe....ahm and i won $280 betting on the NCAA championships online........yep....we both pitched in $20 (haha..i borrowed $20 from him too)...so in otherwards, didn't even do shit....all i did was stand around, talk and watch the game....two bets:
1. First Half Maryland +4
2. Two parlay - End of game Maryland +9 - total 2nd half score below 78 points -

Fukin exciting man....we didn't leave our couch all throughout the game......everything went the way we read the game......yep.....fukin cool....a bonus on top of Terapins winning the game!!

Nice cali-like day today...gonna go lib...maybe sit the beach alil.... peace

Musuck ramble (some of you prob heard of this one before, anyhow, itz good)
~ Craig David feat. Artful Dodger - Summer Jam ~

Oooo.....TMF (tiredmuthafucka)....heres ma day:

- Went to DataStructures...kakaka....this one should be kept within peepz...wtf man......wtf man....bus law -> data???.......

- Spent time at 'Biomedical signals & systems analysis' office hours today.....yeah, daz the full name of this class to emphasize how hardcore this stuff is....tried to catch up everything i missed in the last couple weeks.....was alrite.....got TAed for 2 straight hours....so was tite....itz been so long i've been to office hours without having to fight for questions...

- Work....the usual......needa start write documentation for my V2 Canine Model program...argh...i hate english.....i hate writing....i can only blog.....reminds me of my fuckin sociology paper....wtf.....i dunt wanna rewrite it....i'm sick of it....

- Bball and Squash at the new gym....damn damn damn tiring.....i had pre-cramps the whole walk back home........felt cold during that shit, and still played on....wtf.....i always do that and torture myself afterwards....

- EAT EAT EAT EAT AT JONG KAT....nice....heehee....raped shitz....thats been the restaurant of the semester so far.....hahah..go there and celebrate...chill...drink....talk shitz......both rape the food and let them rape our wallets....

- still more..but too tired to type..haha...its 11pm...needa make it to signals tomorrow at 8:30pm...won't give all that TAing up i had today...

*Airik dozed off* ~~~ dreaming of 'Metallica - Master of puppets' solo (i'm getting there) ~~~~

**ATTENTION ALL AIRIK'S RAMBLINGS FOLLOWERS** - The following post is a WOT, continue under your own discretion.


should be studying rite now...spent half the day worrying about the following week..lots of things in mind...all these tiny bits and pieces to follow up with......i should actually be finishin my signals h/w rite now......needa get that stuff done so that i can watch the game tomorrow....College Park vs. Indiana........I'm all for Maryland man....GO TERPS!!!

Got both Tosca and Gorillaz's CD already.......didn't like Tosca's... gay......just wasn't my thing....they weren't exactly the type of dub's i was expecting to hear......haven't had time to hear the Gorillaz one yet (also means i have visited the library enough these dayz)....somehow i have a feeling that its not gonna be what i'm expecting.....so i'm not too hyped about it anymore...hope this lost in expectations will help me appreciate it more when i do hear it.. (3/4/2002 - OH SHIT, THE B-SIDES CD IS GOOD!)

SIgh...what should i talk about??...hehe...i'm so givin myself an excuse not to start signals.....hehe.......i've pretty much been gone through my whole phonebook, AOL and ICQ lists already....just wanting to waste time...somehow spend it on integrating rather than regulating.........kinda explains why i'm up here rite now blogging about something i have no clue about......

Letz see....ermm....yeah, i got my fukin turntables all hooked up finally......pretty tite....its been hard to mix tho.....not used to the new mixer mostly.......too many options....its been difficult to hear whether the beats are matched or not yet through the cues....

grades been suckin....yeah, tats a tough one...i've been doin 'ok' on the shitty classes which i spent less time on....and i'm failing my hard classes eventhough i've put in the most time on that stuff....i'm like in the middle of nowhere........sux to be BME........i wanna chill out....go major in music........go finally do something i have appreciation for......

still decidin on summer plans....chances i might goto UBC / Berkley for summer skool for a session...and at Hopkins for the earlier session...not sure yet....still need to get things organized......and planned out......its important...somehow it seems like i spend more time organizing my work and stuff rather than doin it.....

btw??..any of you having prbs reading my blog??...not being able to follow my shitz??....my sociology professor and TA said i have probs writing or something....something wrong with the way i write and my train of thought.....do any of you 'Airik's rambling' blog readers feel that i have this problem too......email erik_chan@hotmail.com and tell me about it.......(shit, i'm seriously rambling now.....u can so see how i'm just tryin to waste time here)...

- When you're high, you don't feel it. But when its low, it hits you like a mutha fucka. - ...heh...words of wisdom man......this one is for you slut...(wondering if you notice this one is for you)....ha...chill out man....as i always say......forget the 'suck it up' thing....i'm tired of that one...plus, doesn't really work......we both good examples of proving that....hahahah.........

Hey Lenard, this one ramble is personally for you: I SAID!!!!!! STOP WASTING YOUR TIME!!!!........hahah.....j/k....go listen to me and get a part-t job man...u won't regret it...i swear...

No complains in life for the moment. Not exactly living the MAX life....but hey, no complains man.......i can't ask for more.....FRIENDS, FAMILY, PS2, CS, BALL, WORK, COLLEGE, MUSIC,.....its not bad man....i'm somehow still surviving.....not on the verge of suicide.....i'm just living on....looking towards that one day when i hit my first big check....finally, that day when i feel secure as a person.....when i bore my first child......

In the mood to pick up the guitar once again....aite.

song of the ramble..hehe...~~ Groove Armada - My Friend ~~

oh yeah, btw...WOT means....Waste Of Time... =P....I figured chances are that 10/10 of all readers will read-on anywayz.

eRik.
"Live life 'for' and not 'by' the moment." - as she says =)